Addicted To My Beautiful Depression

[Intro][jD]
Daddy was a dead beat, a dead beat, a dead beat
Daddy was a dead beat, I wrote this song for you.

[Verse1][jD]
Your sitting in your car parked outside of the clinic,
You got the drivers side window way down,
For weeks she put it in your head this is none of your business,
But this has everything to do with you, and you know it does,
Your killing yourself for it, biting on your nails ripping your skin off,
Hurts to death when you think about the long term,
She ignored you when you tried to stop her,
You feel so weak and your stomachs bitterly nauseous,
Tapping on the steering wheel your literally exhausted,
Close to a break down shes taking it away,
Hoping for a change of heart shes taking it away,
God makes miracles every single day,
But on this single day shes taking that away,
Shes not the woman that you once knew,
Shes not the woman that you went inside of.

[Chorus2x][jD]
I don't wanna wake up,
God don't wake me up,
Don't wake me up,
Don't wake me up,
I never wanna open my eyes again,
I never wanna feel again.

[Verse2][jD]
Your brother died years ago,
You smoke packs of cigarettes every single day,
You got multiple felonies, and cough up blood,
But these are the least of your problems,
I'm nothing like you, but me and you got a lot in common,
I never went to college and you never finished,
We look alike too but the drugs make the difference,
And people use you, like people used me,
They know you by name at the liquor store,
And you smell like it in the morning,
Smell like it in the evening,
And you lie about what goes on in between,
Your a fucking loser with a great heart,
We have a lot in common,
Keep rapping and ill keep calling you by your first name just to piss you off man,
Little Mathew!

[Chorus2x][jD]
I don't wanna wake up,
God don't wake me up,
Don't wake me up,
Don't wake me up,
I never wanna open my eyes again,
I never wanna feel again.

[Verse3] [jD]
He fucks you and tells you that your beautiful,
He cheats on you and tells you that he loves you,
He treats you as if your whore,
And at times you even tend to believe it,
All you really want is someone to love you someone to hold you,
Someone to listen, but hes really not there,
So you confide in the rough sex,
Even worse you know hes cheating,
Cause your vaginas covered in warts that weren't there before,
And on the inside its bleeding,
Your self esteem is embarrassing,
You sell yourself to the same man,
Hes no better then a repeat customer,
Love to you is cervical cancer,
But everybody knows somebody like this,
Everybody knows somebody that's a nobody.

[Chorus2x][jD]
I don't wanna wake up,
God don't wake me up,
Don't wake me up,
Don't wake me up,
I never wanna open my eyes again,
I never wanna feel again.

[Outro][jD]
I don't wanna wake up, God don't wake me up,
Don't wake me up, don't wake me up,
I never wanna open my eyes again,
I never wanna feel again,
I don't wanna wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up,
I never wanna open my eyes again,
I never wanna feel again.