I'm stressed out so much I'm like, "Why it?" Am I for asking myself "Would you count money or count blessings?" Now that's a wild Fame my life upside down I guess it was meant to be like Beyonce a Tic-Tac And ain't a diss, this way more to me than a diss track is God to me Nas is God to me! Eminem is B.I.G. and Pac to me And if you disagree I you bleed hypocrisy! And this will be the realest shit I ever Shoutout to all the crazy bitches I've involved with Thank for making my wife a crazier bitch than y'all bitches Y'all might've me, but y'all win And this will be the realest shit I ever Now let's talk about the BET When went to the podium for the win And everyone in the same category as him but me and Em He said they him And normally that be ammo to hate on him But that ain't my M.O! My M.O. is to be mo' This culture is so cultivatin'! Where the do I fit in? And this will be the realest I ever wrote I so much to this game I feel sorrow I answer more questions the 40 and Game squabble I answer questions that I ask myself "Are you a father?", the answer's, "Well Fuck this! Royce got a tomorrow" I ain't spell out the offers If being means speaking to people in offices Over being for your sons and daughters... I'm off this... I know the last of lines kinda fell out of the pocket But I give a fuck! Let me tell you When was the last time you copped shit it actually came out of your pocket? Answer that! If I got to answer from you You got to answer from me! I'm fucking my whole life up for you, answer question: "What the fuck are you doing for me?", that! Still I my fans, even though y'all looking at me like I'm just a drunk nigga That's just up behind shit, blowing up, but nigga I ain't throwing up shit but my hands And this is just me up Courtney Artesia, and Vish, please support me I need ya But in reality an artist is supposed to be by easels But in the meanwhile, I'm just by evil [Verse 2: Joe I'm no longer fuckin' I mean I this shit on "Cut You Loose" How long am I supposed to stick around for fuckin' abuse? Every I go to leave, I figure "fuck is the use?" I endure it for the true fans that covet new Or is that another fuckin' excuse? Do I do it for attention cause I crave it, I mention it, I'll save it If you know me than you know a nigga treasure Nigga thought that as a man, you must be me And I'm to feel like my fans are now condemning me Listen, I don't owe shit Same Joe I am is the same Joe y'all get Y'all will interrupt a nigga he at his place of worship And think that along with your 20 dollar purchase You the music, not the nigga that made it But let me touch up on that nigga made it If you're me on actions then I'll take that L every time If you "Joe Budden is a corny mah'fucker" Cause all it mean if I'm a mah'fucker Is the greatest rapper just a corny mah'fucker My bad, I'm not as as you But all this time I was being me, not you I get behind that mic, let all my demons Without knowing about the people that I'm speaking to Add that to me not a reason to And that a lot in a room full of silence, listen... At 21 I had a drug At 31 still is a problem But the thing about that pill is it made real And I I needed to see Funny thing about it all, I ain't what I saw Now the Lord's voice is in my head "You'll be soon for questioning me" lesson for me Far than whatever I profess it to be Cause if left to me, I'd put our in our brains We'd over-think what we see and our whole lives change But it, that day had to come Who ever knew that I have a son? I coulda guessed it, I was fuckin' like a But I never saw him handle like his dad did Never me and Ronnie would talk again Fuck a rhyme, I'm just happy that we again Who knew that the second I you You would get ill, be in the hospital The thought of you is what fucks with me I'm to death of getting full custody Nigga, I look in the disgustedly So how am I supposed to feel the day that he up to me? I said you were the worst baby-mother I had ex-girl confused baby-mother And there lies my problem our Creator All the times I wanted her ass dead, you wouldn't take her Don't do it now, I her Understand, it get no realer See how I go to bed with thoughts of a killer But show y'all my girl through these Instagram filters Look at her, look at me if y'all judging, y'all would throw the book at me Speakin' of shorty, nah, do that in private It might be a little soon for me to let her how I get Shit, and now we back at one Real quick, let me get to my son a nigga was like He said "Dad, I'm weird but I don't a problem with that" And I was I laughed, and I was like "Well, 1, why do you think you're weird And number 2, why don't you have a problem that?" And he looked me in my and he was like "Well, I say I'm weird, number 1, because I I'm weird And I don't have a with it because that's me And whoever don't like it, they have to be around me I'm with me and who I am" And right there, was cold In my I thought "That was bold" Illest shit about it all, that at 10 years-old So I could die now I could die right now and feel like he got the important part of Joe Or... better that... I could die right now and feel like he all he need to know Royce, up Last we cried tears of joy This they were still there handicap without the wheelchair That's we are, but fuck it... We'll be the lamb for y'all niggas it or love it... Leave all of that, b, it... 3: Crooked I] Yeah, man I feel where my nigga was coming from, you know my niggas, you know Baby-mom was on WorldStar and You know, 'bout I don't take care of my junior Me and my nigga though Yo, my little rap I just let it be, you know, cause people get their feelings hurt over other So I just let it go, you know, I ain't no rebuttal But uh when you grew up up Nobody's perfect, you know, but I'm for this This rap shit, man Eastside Long Beach: avenue and Hill Crooked was a youngster my ghetto was real Dumper in the waist in case I had to to kill Rocking dumb cause I had was stupid skill Eastsiders we cypher a bus bitch Some sippin toca vodka, others had the blunt A lot of them niggas died, sweatshirt drenched Others went to jail, hit a lick and left thumbprints Long beach I salute ya Even though you you I sold out you not saluting mine I dont around much, Im on musics time Lost and found I when Im broke I lose my mind So I hustle like Im on a strike a doubt when I cuff a mic I leave a body like the shottys out Im from a group called slaughter Rap better than everybody Now they think Im in the and stuntin But Im like an orgasm man, I from nothing Some of you from the burbs but you you wasnt So you struttin, with a cain you frontin all that, if I was born rich I would rhyme about it I was born poor in a ditch, Im tryna climb up out it avoid a life of crime Im bout it Some say Ill be fine it Death around the corner, prison breathing down my Chasing paper til a nigga wheezing out of IRS wanna fuck me, I ain't even debt Said they Buck me , tryna squeeze me checks Yeah, them fools tryna squeeze me outta Dont talk to dominics unless you pay ya mommas With marijuana sent outta town, them spent My own fam wanna grab the steel and me But I got the nuts to an army to Killa army, man all them killers adore me BET red carpet, the was on me To put a slug in my flesh and blood wouldnt feel Serena walking at the Olympics Im still Still me, til my is blown So secrets I only told to a glass of patron Half of my fathers family died of cancer He called me sick, I didnt answer the How does it feel to know your son doesnt care Cause you wasnt there, life fair I look at steps in the direction, another stare I swear, just the muthafucking night dawg niggas, niggas rolled in front of my studio on my kids life Nahmean, I ran through the fucking studio to my grabbed that 3.57 thang man out waving, Im bout to bust, the police pass by My little brothers me I needed to chill Nahmean, this is what I do man, this is the life I for real dawg This ain't no muthafuckin rap Just the other night I killed a nigga man Nahmean, I wouldnt be here rapping about this about it man [Verse 4: Ortiz] My left me , father dont Baby moms me, my got a cyst My older son football and the little nigga hands is mean But he chronic asthmatic so he fully suited on the sideline he could be in there but still Cheering for his My youngest son got nerve issues, he cry to me Im looking at him its not you fault You was conceived when daddy was a slave to his everyday anxiety I at UPS for a week and my boss ain't have to fire me I wasnt fit to lift boxes I Dont put me in that box when I My life too muthafucking fly for me Wasnt too fly for me the lobby huffing and puffing running from robbery To Crooked I, Da 59, Joe Budden, homie from the Mob and me carving artistry Celebrating poverty knees and no socks Chinese outta hocks but that was on the first, other that Liver and government sent me my yellow cheese in a box Yall ain't have yellow cheese in a box Last night I tears of joy But the other night I cried my boy No longer I cant hear his voice I guess they playing dealers choice Popped a pill with Joe Im sippin clear Royce light a cigar nigga My little homie hit the pen Went in a adult and coming out a senior citizen And crackers just denied me Fuck I cant even sneak a visit in I ain't hustlin no more if yall niggas only get the music man Yall don't know what be going on a nigga day to day I shit I ain't complaining or nothing Like a nigga on his own two and hold it down But its realer than you think You think I give a fuck about a rap I just left my condo, hopped up in my car Im on my way to an actress I dont yall to remind me bout my pen and pad gift ad-libs subtract wack spit Multiply my visits to Chase divide mad chips among 3 other Nah nigga ain't no rap clique This is a muthafucking I want Range Rover I got a hangover celebrating the fact my mother became sober My uncle fading from that though Found out he blown a couple weeks ago My aunt negative but its the same result Cuz she gon die on the day he stop breathing yo To know me ain't to me Nah, to know me is to me Cause you ain't got to like me but respect that I ain't Not a nominee for Tonys or Oscars for my uh What you see is you get Hope you what you see cause what you seeing is a threat at me with indirects, I ain't gon write a song about you Imma you in your neck And write a song about how I just beat you half to death Dont play with my niggas Im just a grown ass man tryna feed my through the talent God gave me I dont care if you hate me But dont fuck with my Anything else I say will be dry snitching on myself, how would that be House YAOWA!