I'm out so much I'm like, "Why stress it?" Am I selfish for myself "Would you rather money or count blessings?" Now that's a question Fame my life upside down I guess it was meant to be like passing Beyonce a And that ain't a diss, this way more to me a diss track is God to me Nas is God to me! Eminem is B.I.G. and Pac to me And if you disagree I you bleed hypocrisy! And this will be the realest I ever wrote to all the crazy bitches I've been involved with Thank y'all for making my a crazier bitch than y'all bitches Y'all might've lost me, but win And this will be the realest I ever wrote Now let's talk about the BET When Kanye to the podium for the win And everyone in the same category as him but me and Em He they motivated him And normally that would be to hate on him But that ain't my M.O! My M.O. is to be mo' This new-wave is so cultivatin'! Where the do I fit in? And this will be the realest shit I ever I succumb so much to this game I feel I answer more questions the 40 and Game squabble Than I answer questions I ask myself "Are you a father?", the answer's, "Well Fuck this! got a game tomorrow" I ain't gotta spell out the If famous means speaking to people in offices Over being there for your and daughters... I'm off this... I the last couple of lines kinda fell out of the pocket But I give a fuck! Let me you this: was the last time you copped some shit Where it actually came out of pocket? that! If I got to answer questions from you You got to questions from me! I'm fucking my whole life up for you, answer question: "What the fuck are you for me?", answer that! Still I my fans, even though y'all looking at me like I'm just a drunk nigga just throwing up behind shit, blowing up, but nigga I ain't throwing up shit but my hands And this is me growing up Courtney Artesia, Kino and Vish, please support me I ya But in reality an artist is to be supported by easels But in the meanwhile, I'm just supported by [Verse 2: Joe I'm no fuckin' amused I mean I addressed this on "Cut You Loose" How long am I supposed to stick around for this fuckin' time I go to leave, I figure "fuck is the use?" I endure it for the true that covet that new Or is just another fuckin' excuse? Do I do it for attention cause I crave it, I mention it, I'll save it If you know me than you know a treasure anonymity Nigga thought as a man, you must be kiddin' me And I'm starting to feel like my are now condemning me Listen, I owe y'all shit Same Joe I am today is the Joe y'all get Y'all will a nigga while he at his place of worship And that came along with your 20 dollar purchase You bought the music, not the nigga that it But let me up on that nigga that made it If you're judging me on actions then I'll take that L time If you "Joe Budden is a corny mah'fucker" Cause all it mean if I'm a mah'fucker Is the rapper ever's just a corny mah'fucker My bad, I'm not as as you But all this I was being me, not being you I get that mic, let all my demons through knowing shit about the people that I'm speaking to Add that to me not a reason to And says a lot in a room full of silence, listen... At 21 I had a problem At 31 still drugs is a But the thing about that pill is it made everything And I I needed to see Funny thing about it all, I like what I saw Now the Lord's voice is in my like "You'll be DEAD for questioning me" Another for me Far than whatever I profess it to be if left to me, I'd put our eyes in our brains We'd over-think we see and our whole lives would change But it, that day had to come Who knew that I would have a son? I coulda guessed it, I was fuckin' like a But I saw him handle scoliosis like his dad did knew me and Ronnie would talk again Fuck a rhyme, I'm just that we talk again Who that the second I acknowledged you You get terminally ill, be in the hospital The thought of you is what fucks with me I'm scared to death of getting custody Nigga, I look in the disgustedly So how am I supposed to feel the day he looks up to me? I always said you were the worst I had ex-girl with baby-mother And lies my problem with our Creator All the times I her black ass dead, you wouldn't take her Don't do it now, I her Understand, it get no realer See how I go to bed with thoughts of a damn But rather show y'all my girl through these Instagram Look at her, don't at me Cause if y'all judging, y'all throw the book at me Speakin' of shorty, nah, I'll do in private It might be a little soon for me to let her how I get Shit, and now we back at one quick, let me get back to my son When a nigga was He said "Dad, I'm weird but I don't a problem with that" And I was like I laughed, and I was "Well, number 1, why do you think weird And 2, why don't you have a problem with that?" And he me in my eyes and he was like "Well, I say I'm weird, number 1, I know I'm weird And I don't have a problem with it that's me And whoever don't it, they don't have to be around me I'm comfortable me and who I am" And there, that was cold In my head I "That was bold" Illest shit about it all, said that at 10 So I die right now I could die now and feel like he got the most important part of Joe Or... better that... I could die right now and feel like he all he need to know Royce, up Last night we cried of joy This they were still there handicap without the wheelchair That's we are, but fuck it... We'll be the lamb for y'all niggas Hate it or it... Leave all of that, b, it... 3: Crooked I] Yeah, man I kinda feel where my nigga was from, you know Both my niggas, you was on WorldStar and shit You know, 'bout I don't take care of my junior Me and my straight though Yo, my nigga rap I just let it be, you know, cause people get their feelings hurt over shit So I just let it go, you know, I ain't no rebuttal But uh when you up fucked up perfect, you know, but I'm perfect for this This rap shit, man Eastside Long Beach: avenue and Hill Crooked was a youngster my ghetto attitude was in the waist in case I had to shoot to kill Rocking dumb mics I had was stupid skill we cypher about a bus bitch Some sippin vodka, others had the blunt pitched A lot of them died, sweatshirt blood drenched Others to jail, they hit a lick and left thumbprints Long beach I salute ya Even though you you I sold out you not saluting mine I come around much, Im on musics time Lost and found I found Im broke I lose my mind So I like Im on a hunger strike Without a doubt when I a mic I a body count like the shottys out Cause Im from a group called Rap than everybody house Now they think Im in the and stuntin But Im an orgasm man, I came from nothing Some of you the burbs but you claim you wasnt So lame you struttin, with a you frontin Fuck all that, if I was born rich I would rhyme it I was born poor in a ditch, Im rhyming climb up out it Tryna avoid a of crime Im bout it say Ill be fine without it Death around the corner, prison down my neck Chasing til a nigga wheezing out of breath IRS wanna me, I ain't even outta debt they Young Buck me , squeeze me outta checks Yeah, them fools tryna squeeze me outta Dont talk to dominics unless you pay ya rent With marijuana sent outta town, them spent My own fam wanna the steel and harm me But I got the nuts to an army Word to Killa army, man all them adore me BET red carpet, the was on me To put a slug in my flesh and blood wouldnt good crip walking at the Olympics Im hood Still me, til my candle is So many secrets I only told to a glass of Half of my fathers family died of alone He called me sick, I didnt the phone How does it feel to know that your son care Cause you wasnt there, life wasnt I at steps in the wrong direction, another stare I swear, just the other night dawg Like niggas, niggas in front of my studio on my kids life Nahmean, I ran through the fucking studio to my grabbed that 3.57 thang man Came out waving, Im bout to bust, the pass by My little told me I needed to chill Nahmean, this is I do man, this is the life I live for real dawg This ain't no rap music Just the other night I killed a nigga man Nahmean, I wouldnt be here rapping about this about it man [Verse 4: Joell My grandmoms me , father exist Baby stress me, my momma got a My older son love football and the little nigga is mean But he chronic asthmatic so he fully suited on the wishing he could be in there but still Cheering for his My youngest son got nerve issues, he cry to me Im at him like its not you fault You was conceived when daddy was such a slave to his everyday I worked at UPS for a and my boss ain't have to fire me I wasnt fit to boxes I quit put me in that box when I spit My life too muthafucking fly for me Wasnt too fly for me From the lobby huffing and puffing running robbery To Crooked I, Da 59, Joe Budden, from the Goodie Mob and me carving artistry Celebrating escaping Ashy knees and no outta hocks but that was on the first, other than that Liver works and government sent me my cheese in a box Yall ain't have that cheese in a box night I cried tears of joy But the other I cried tears my boy No here I cant hear his voice I guess upstairs they dealers choice Popped a pill with Joe Im sippin clear Royce Crook a cigar nigga My homie just hit the pen Went in a young adult and out a senior citizen And crackers just denied me Fuck dawg I cant even sneak a in I ain't hustlin no more if listening Yall only get the music man don't know what be going on with a nigga day to day I mean I ain't complaining or nothing Like a stand on his own two and hold it down But its realer you think nigga You think I give a about a rap list I just left my condo, hopped up in my car Im on my way to an actress I dont need yall to remind me bout my pen and pad ad-libs subtract your spit Multiply my visits to Chase mad chips among 3 other niggas Nah nigga ain't no rap clique This is a muthafucking I want another Range I got a hangover celebrating the fact my mother became sober My uncle from that needle though Found out he fully a couple weeks ago My tested negative but its the same result Cuz she gon die on the day he stop breathing yo To know me to love me Nah, to me is to know me Cause you ain't got to like me but respect that I ain't Not a nominee for or Oscars for my uh balony you see is what you get Hope you getting you see cause what you seeing is a threat Come at me with indirects, I ain't gon write a about you Imma you in your neck And then write a song about how I just beat you to death Dont with my little niggas Im just a grown ass man tryna my family through the talent God gave me Honestly I care if you hate me But dont with my money Anything else I say will be dry snitching on myself, how dumb would be gang YAOWA!