I'm out so much I'm like, "Why stress it?" Am I selfish for asking "Would you rather money or count blessings?" Now that's a question Fame turned my upside down I it was meant to be like passing Beyonce a Tic-Tac And that ain't a diss, this way more to me than a diss is God to me Nas is God to me! Eminem is B.I.G. and Pac to me And if you disagree I you bleed hypocrisy! And this will be the realest shit I wrote Shoutout to all the crazy bitches I've been involved Thank for making my wife a crazier bitch than y'all bitches Y'all lost me, but y'all win And this will be the realest I ever wrote Now let's talk the BET Awards When went to the podium for the win And everyone in the same category as him but me and Em He said motivated him And normally would be ammo to hate on him But ain't my M.O! My M.O. is to be mo' motivatin' new-wave culture is so cultivatin'! Where the do I fit in? And this be the realest shit I ever wrote I succumb so much to this game I feel I answer more questions about the 40 and Game I answer questions that I ask myself "Are you a father?", the answer's, "Well Fuck this! Royce got a tomorrow" I ain't gotta out the offers If being famous means speaking to in offices Over being for your sons and daughters... I'm off this... I know the last couple of kinda fell out of the pocket But I don't a fuck! Let me you this: When was the time you copped some shit Where it actually out of your pocket? Answer that! If I got to questions from you You got to questions from me! I'm fucking my whole life up for you, this question: "What the fuck are you for me?", answer that! Still I love my fans, even though y'all looking at me like I'm just a nigga That's just throwing up behind shit, blowing up, but nigga I throwing up shit but my hands And is just me growing up Courtney Artesia, and Vish, please support me I need ya But in reality an artist is supposed to be supported by But in the meanwhile, I'm supported by evil 2: Joe Budden] I'm no fuckin' amused I mean I addressed this on "Cut You Loose" How long am I supposed to stick around for this abuse? time I go to leave, I figure "fuck is the use?" I endure it for the fans that covet that new Or is that just another excuse? Do I do it for attention cause I crave it, I won't it, I'll save it If you know me than you a nigga treasure anonymity Nigga thought that as a man, you be kiddin' me And I'm starting to like my fans are now condemning me Listen, I don't owe shit Joe I am today is the same Joe y'all get Y'all will interrupt a nigga he at his place of worship And think that came with your 20 dollar purchase You bought the music, not the nigga made it But let me touch up on nigga that made it If you're judging me on actions then take that L every time If you "Joe Budden is a corny mah'fucker" Cause all it if I'm a corny mah'fucker Is the rapper ever's just a corny mah'fucker My bad, I'm not as as you But all time I was being me, not being you I get that mic, let all my demons through Without knowing shit about the people I'm speaking to Add that to me not seeing a to And that says a lot in a full of silence, listen... At 21 I had a problem At 31 still drugs is a But the thing about that is it made everything real And I I needed to see Funny thing it all, I ain't like what I saw Now the Lord's voice is in my like "You'll be DEAD soon for me" lesson for me Far greater than I profess it to be Cause if to me, I'd put our eyes in our brains We'd over-think we see and our whole lives would change But it, that day had to come Who ever knew that I have a son? I coulda guessed it, I was fuckin' a rabbit But I never saw him handle like his dad did Never me and Ronnie would talk again Fuck a rhyme, I'm just that we talk again Who that the second I acknowledged you You get terminally ill, be in the hospital The thought of you leaving is fucks with me I'm to death of getting full custody Nigga, I look in the mirror So how am I supposed to feel the day he looks up to me? I said you were the worst baby-mother I had ex-girl with baby-mother And there my problem with our Creator All the I wanted her black ass dead, you wouldn't take her Don't do it now, I her Understand, it don't get no See how I go to bed thoughts of a damn killer But rather show y'all my girl through these filters at her, don't look at me Cause if y'all judging, y'all would the book at me of shorty, nah, I'll do that in private It might be a soon for me to let her know how I get Shit, and now we back at one Real quick, let me get to my son When a nigga was He said "Dad, I'm but I don't have a problem with that" And I was I laughed, and I was like "Well, number 1, why do you you're weird And number 2, why don't you have a with that?" And he looked me in my eyes and he was "Well, I say I'm weird, number 1, because I I'm weird And I don't have a problem with it because me And whoever don't like it, they don't have to be me I'm with me and who I am" And right there, was cold In my head I "That was bold" Illest shit about it all, said at 10 years-old So I die right now I could die right now and feel like he got the important part of Joe Or... better that... I could die right now and feel like he know all he need to Royce, up Last we cried tears of joy morning they were still there What's handicap without the That's what we are, but it... We'll be the lamb for y'all niggas it or love it... Leave all of that, b, it... [Verse 3: I] Yeah, man I kinda where my nigga was coming from, you know Both my niggas, you Baby-mom was on and shit You know, talkin' I don't take care of my junior Me and my straight though Yo, my nigga rap I just let it be, you know, cause get their feelings hurt over other shit So I let it go, you know, I ain't have no rebuttal But uh when you grew up up Nobody's perfect, you know, but I'm for this rap shit, man yeah Eastside Long Beach: avenue and Hill Crooked was a youngster my ghetto attitude was Dumper in the in case I had to shoot to kill Rocking dumb mics I had was stupid skill Eastsiders we about a bus bitch sippin toca vodka, others had the blunt pitched A lot of them died, sweatshirt blood drenched Others went to jail, they hit a and left thumbprints Long beach I salute ya Even though you think you I out you not saluting mine I dont come much, Im on musics time Lost and found I found when Im I lose my mind So I hustle like Im on a hunger a doubt when I cuff a mic I leave a body like the shottys out Cause Im from a called slaughter Rap than everybody house Now think Im in the game and stuntin But Im like an orgasm man, I from nothing Some of you the burbs but you claim you wasnt So lame you struttin, a cain you frontin all that, if I was born rich I would rhyme about it I was poor in a ditch, Im rhyming tryna climb up out it Tryna avoid a life of Im bout it Some say Ill be without it Death around the corner, prison breathing down my paper til a nigga wheezing out of breath IRS fuck me, I ain't even outta debt Said Young Buck me , tryna squeeze me outta Yeah, them fools tryna me outta checks Dont talk to dominics you pay ya mommas rent With marijuana sent outta town, them dollars My own fam wanna grab the steel and me But I got the to kill an army Word to Killa army, man all them adore me BET red carpet, the was on me To put a slug in my flesh and blood wouldnt good Serena crip walking at the Im still Still me, til my is blown So many secrets I only told to a glass of Half of my fathers family died of cancer He called me sick, I didnt the phone How does it feel to know that son doesnt care Cause you wasnt there, life fair I look at steps in the direction, another stare I swear, the other muthafucking night dawg Like niggas, rolled in front of my studio on my kids life Nahmean, I ran through the fucking studio to my grabbed that 3.57 thang man out waving, Im bout to bust, the police pass by My little told me I needed to chill Nahmean, this is what I do man, this is the life I for real dawg This ain't no muthafuckin rap Just the other night I coulda a nigga man Nahmean, I wouldnt be here rapping about this about it man [Verse 4: Ortiz] My left me , father exist Baby moms me, my got a cyst My older son football and the little nigga hands is mean But he chronic asthmatic so he fully suited on the sideline wishing he could be in there but Cheering for his My youngest son got issues, sometimes he cry to me Im looking at him its not you fault You was conceived when daddy was such a slave to his anxiety I worked at UPS for a week and my boss ain't have to me I wasnt fit to boxes I quit Dont put me in box when I spit My life too muthafucking fly for me Wasnt too fly for me From the lobby huffing and running from robbery To Crooked I, Da 59, Joe Budden, homie the Goodie Mob and me carving artistry escaping poverty Ashy knees and no Chinese outta hocks but that was on the first, than that Liver works and government me my yellow cheese in a box Yall have that yellow cheese in a box Last night I cried of joy But the other night I cried my boy No longer here I cant hear his I upstairs they playing dealers choice Popped a pill with Joe Im sippin clear Royce Crook light a nigga My homie just hit the pen in a young adult and coming out a senior citizen And crackers just denied me Fuck dawg I cant even a visit in I hustlin no more if yall listening Yall niggas get the music man Yall don't know what be going on a nigga day to day I shit I ain't complaining or nothing Like a nigga on his own two and hold it down But its realer than you think You think I a fuck about a rap list I left my condo, hopped up in my car Im on my way to fuck an actress I dont yall to remind me bout my pen and pad gift ad-libs subtract your wack Multiply my to Chase divide mad chips among 3 other niggas Nah this ain't no rap clique is a muthafucking takeover I want Range Rover I got such a hangover celebrating the fact my mother became My uncle fading from needle though Found out he fully a couple weeks ago My aunt tested negative but its the result Cuz she gon die on the same day he breathing yo To know me ain't to me Nah, to know me is to me Cause you got to like me but respect that I ain't phony Not a nominee for Tonys or Oscars for my uh you see is what you get Hope you getting what you see what you seeing is a threat Come at me with indirects, I gon write a song about you Imma you in your neck And then write a song about how I just beat you half to play with my little niggas Im just a grown ass man tryna my family through the talent God gave me Honestly I care if you hate me But dont with my money else I say will be dry snitching on myself, how dumb would that be House YAOWA!