I'm stressed out so much I'm like, "Why it?" Am I selfish for asking "Would you rather count money or blessings?" Now that's a question Fame my life upside down I it was meant to be like passing Beyonce a Tic-Tac And that ain't a diss, this way more to me than a diss is God to me Nas is God to me! Eminem is B.I.G. and Pac to me And if you disagree I you bleed hypocrisy! And this will be the realest I ever wrote Shoutout to all the crazy bitches I've involved with Thank y'all for making my wife a crazier bitch than bitches Y'all might've lost me, but win And this will be the shit I ever wrote Now let's about the BET Awards When Kanye to the podium for the win And mentioned in the same category as him but me and Em He said they him And that would be ammo to hate on him But that ain't my M.O! My M.O. is to be mo' This culture is so cultivatin'! the fuck do I fit in? And this will be the realest shit I wrote I succumb so much to this I feel sorrow I answer more about the 40 and Game squabble Than I questions that I ask myself "Are you a father?", the answer's, "Well Fuck this! Royce got a tomorrow" I ain't spell out the offers If being famous speaking to people in offices Over being for your sons and daughters... I'm off this... I know the last couple of lines kinda out of the pocket But I give a fuck! Let me you this: was the last time you copped some shit Where it actually came out of pocket? Answer that! If I got to answer from you You got to questions from me! I'm fucking my whole life up for you, answer this "What the fuck are you for me?", answer that! Still I love my fans, even though y'all looking at me like I'm a drunk nigga That's just throwing up behind shit, blowing up, but nigga I throwing up shit but my hands And this is just me up Artesia, Kino and Vish, please support me I need ya But in reality an artist is supposed to be supported by But in the meanwhile, I'm just supported by 2: Joe Budden] I'm no longer fuckin' I mean I this shit on "Cut You Loose" How long am I supposed to stick around for fuckin' abuse? Every I go to leave, I figure "fuck is the use?" I endure it for the true fans that covet new Or is that just another fuckin' Do I do it for attention I crave it, I won't mention it, I'll save it If you me than you know a nigga treasure anonymity Nigga thought that as a man, you be kiddin' me And I'm starting to feel like my are now condemning me Listen, I owe y'all shit Same Joe I am today is the Joe y'all get Y'all will interrupt a nigga while he at his place of And think that came along with your 20 purchase You the music, not the nigga that made it But let me touch up on that nigga that it If judging me on actions then I'll take that L every time If you conclude "Joe Budden is a mah'fucker" Cause all it if I'm a corny mah'fucker Is the greatest rapper ever's just a mah'fucker My bad, I'm not as as you But all time I was being me, not being you I get that mic, let all my demons through Without knowing about the people that I'm speaking to Add that to me not a reason to And that says a lot in a room of silence, listen... At 21 I had a problem At 31 still is a problem But the thing about that pill is it everything real And I I needed to see Funny thing about it all, I ain't like I saw Now the Lord's voice is in my like "You'll be soon for questioning me" Another for me Far greater than I profess it to be Cause if left to me, I'd put our eyes in our We'd over-think what we see and our whole lives would But it, that day had to come Who ever knew that I would a son? I coulda guessed it, I was fuckin' like a But I never saw him handle scoliosis his dad did Never knew me and Ronnie would talk Fuck a rhyme, I'm just happy that we talk Who knew that the second I you You would get ill, be in the hospital The of you leaving is what fucks with me I'm scared to death of full custody Nigga, I look in the mirror So how am I supposed to the day that he looks up to me? I said you were the worst baby-mother I had ex-girl confused with And there lies my with our Creator All the times I wanted her black ass dead, you wouldn't her do it now, I need her Understand, it get no realer See how I go to bed with thoughts of a killer But rather show y'all my girl these Instagram filters Look at her, look at me Cause if y'all judging, would throw the book at me Speakin' of shorty, nah, I'll do in private It might be a soon for me to let her know how I get Shit, and now we back at one quick, let me get back to my son When a was like He said "Dad, I'm weird but I don't a problem with that" And I was I laughed, and I was like "Well, number 1, why do you you're weird And number 2, why don't you a problem with that?" And he me in my eyes and he was like "Well, I say I'm weird, number 1, because I I'm weird And I have a problem with it because that's me And whoever don't like it, they have to be around me I'm with me and who I am" And there, that was cold In my I thought "That was bold" Illest shit about it all, said that at 10 So I die right now I could die now and feel like he got the most important part of Joe Or... than that... I could die now and feel like he know all he need to know Royce, up Last night we tears of joy This morning they were there What's handicap the wheelchair That's what we are, but it... We'll be the sacrificial for y'all niggas Hate it or it... Leave all of that, b, it... [Verse 3: I] Yeah, man I kinda feel my nigga was coming from, you know my niggas, you know Baby-mom was on and shit You know, talkin' 'bout I take care of my junior Me and my nigga though Yo, my nigga rap I just let it be, you know, cause people get feelings hurt over other shit So I just let it go, you know, I ain't no rebuttal But uh you grew up fucked up Nobody's perfect, you know, but I'm perfect for This rap shit, man Long Beach: Atlantic avenue and Hill Crooked was a youngster my attitude was real in the waist in case I had to shoot to kill Rocking dumb mics cause I had was skill Eastsiders we cypher about a bus Some sippin toca vodka, had the blunt pitched A lot of them niggas died, sweatshirt blood Others went to jail, they hit a and left thumbprints Long I salute ya grind Even though you think you I out you not saluting mine I dont come much, Im on musics time Lost and found I found when Im I lose my mind So I hustle like Im on a hunger a doubt when I cuff a mic I leave a count like the shottys out Cause Im from a group slaughter Rap better than house Now they Im in the game and stuntin But Im like an orgasm man, I came from Some of you from the burbs but you claim you So lame you struttin, with a you frontin Fuck all that, if I was born rich I would about it I was born poor in a ditch, Im tryna climb up out it Tryna avoid a life of Im bout it Some say Ill be fine it around the corner, prison breathing down my neck Chasing til a nigga wheezing out of breath IRS wanna fuck me, I ain't even outta Said they Buck me , squeeze me outta checks Yeah, them tryna squeeze me outta checks talk to dominics unless you pay ya mommas rent With marijuana sent outta town, dollars spent My own fam grab the steel and harm me But I got the nuts to kill an Word to army, man all them killers adore me BET red carpet, the was on me To put a slug in my flesh and blood wouldnt good crip walking at the Olympics Im hood Still me, til my candle is So secrets I only told to a glass of patron Half of my fathers family of cancer alone He me sick, I didnt answer the phone How does it feel to know that son doesnt care you wasnt there, life wasnt fair I look at steps in the wrong direction, stare I swear, just the muthafucking night dawg Like niggas, niggas rolled in front of my on my kids life Nahmean, I ran the fucking studio to my office grabbed that 3.57 thang man Came out waving, Im to bust, the police pass by My brothers told me I needed to chill Nahmean, this is what I do man, this is the I live for real dawg This no muthafuckin rap music Just the other night I coulda a nigga man Nahmean, I wouldnt be here rapping about this about it man [Verse 4: Ortiz] My left me , father dont moms stress me, my got a cyst My older son love football and the little nigga hands is But he chronic asthmatic so he fully on the sideline wishing he could be in there but still Cheering for his My youngest son got issues, sometimes he cry to me Im at him like its not you fault You was conceived when was such a slave to his everyday anxiety I worked at UPS for a week and my ain't have to fire me I wasnt fit to boxes I quit Dont put me in that box when I My life too muthafucking fly for me too muthafucking fly for me From the lobby huffing and running from robbery To Crooked I, Da 59, Joe Budden, homie from the Goodie Mob and me carving Celebrating escaping Ashy and no socks Chinese outta but that was on the first, other than that Liver works and government me my yellow cheese in a box Yall ain't have that yellow in a box Last I cried tears of joy But the other night I cried my boy No here I cant hear his voice I guess upstairs they dealers choice Popped a pill Joe Im sippin clear with Royce Crook light a cigar My little just hit the pen Went in a young adult and coming out a citizen And them crackers denied me dawg I cant even sneak a visit in I ain't hustlin no if yall listening Yall only get the music man Yall don't know what be on with a nigga day to day I shit I ain't complaining or nothing a nigga stand on his own two and hold it down But its realer you think nigga You think I give a about a rap list I just my condo, hopped up in my car Im on my way to fuck an actress I dont need to remind me bout my pen and pad gift ad-libs subtract your wack Multiply my visits to Chase divide mad chips among 3 other Nah nigga this ain't no rap This is a muthafucking I another Range Rover I got such a hangover celebrating the my mother became sober My uncle fading from that though Found out he fully blown a couple ago My aunt tested but its the same result Cuz she gon die on the day he stop breathing yo To know me to love me Nah, to me is to know me Cause you ain't got to like me but respect that I phony Not a nominee for Tonys or for my uh balony What you see is you get Hope you what you see cause what you seeing is a threat Come at me indirects, I ain't gon write a song about you Imma knee you in your And then write a song how I just beat you half to death play with my little niggas Im just a grown ass man tryna my family through the talent God gave me Honestly I care if you hate me But dont fuck with my Anything else I say be dry snitching on myself, how dumb would that be House YAOWA!