Is out there...
I swear I so all alone, back down on my knees again you can keep me strong, 'cause I can't hardly sleep tonight I took too many sleepin pills, I drunk too many Miller And I can feel the near, so please forgive me for my sins I am just man, sorry for the pain that I've caused I know that you'll understand, these drive me - insane been goin mad, rightly oughta blow out my brains 'cause I'm bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the other day These problems got me usin drugs, along with the other things I'm slowly fading my thoughts, (come against me, bring it on!) and I'm in and outta space, and I don't believe I'm wakin up the alcohol, them drinks, drift me to another world Where the sunshine stay shinin, I think I was url Mom, can ya look at me? This what I used to be Tomorrow, be somebody else, 'cause I ain't been me I can't seem to these, I'll put that there on every day Boy figure me out, is like Lamar changing But my childhood was up - raised rowdy by a single moms She told me my didn't give a fuck, she ain't let him do his job Seventh grade; failing, and I don't know my of kin These days in these fucked up ways, who the fuck are My daddy had three other kids, but I ain't never 'em So, ain't no sense in coming around now, you ain't been befo' sad but I ain't feelin nuttin, my whole life's been a fuckin maze and when I tried to locate my siblings, they were gone inside they other things, fucked me then, fucked me now Quick to tell me "Show you some love" nigga you Hell Ain't no love I'm feelin here, I ain't never this vile Momma - did you really me, or was I just a child? Said it, outside, I knew you it in my face I wasn't really happy here, but I was to lead the way Copped me a Cheverolet, drift to the other side just to think If I get to see Heaven, I can you for the ride and thank you for my kids and even though they mommas won't admit that can't make it but bad, low on the child support - always been bad boo, make me out to be the bad guy I really ain't, bitch so quick to hassle me 'cause I don't see my kids enough, but I make the time to 'em up But you find somethin to stick in my face - it me fuckin up It's bad enough, face to face, wanna catch a case So bad, they'll try an get me they make me - and takes the cake Is the whole world is up, daddy know where the weankess at and you lies to ya old mans eyes, how could you sleep wit that? Jepordize everything, just for searchin for life Sacrificin the whole family, no regards to Christ how people can take this shit for granted, right? But then reality strikes, and things overnight I thank the Lord for watchin over me, though I'm prone to doin I repent religiously, hopin that the get strong when the heat get's on {*wind Hopin that the get strong, when the heat get's on
[talking - after each pause] Ya know... the street's different... as it likes... Either, headin a storm... ya in a storm... or ya just got out of a storm... (yeah) about it...
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