Is out there...
I swear I so all alone, back down on my knees again Hopin you can keep me strong, 'cause I can't hardly tonight I took too sleepin pills, I drunk too many Miller Lites And I can feel the Reaper near, so please me for my sins I am just another man, sorry for the pain I've caused I know that understand, these demons'll drive me - insane I've been goin mad, rightly oughta out my brains I'm hurtin bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the other day These problems got me usin drugs, along with the other things I'm fading into my thoughts, (come against me, bring it on!) and I'm driftin in and space, and I don't believe I'm wakin up the alcohol, them drinks, drift me to another world Where the sunshine stay shinin, I think I was url Mom, can ya look at me? This what I used to be Tomorrow, I'll be somebody else, 'cause I ain't me I can't seem to shake these, I'll put that on every day Boy figure me out, is like Lamar changing But my was fucked up - raised rowdy by a single moms She told me my daddy didn't a fuck, she ain't let him do his job Seventh grade; failing, and I don't my next of kin These days in these fucked up ways, who the fuck are My daddy had three other kids, but I ain't seen 'em So, ain't no sense in coming now, you ain't been here befo' It's sad but I ain't feelin nuttin, my whole life's been a maze and when I tried to locate my siblings, they gone away Lost inside they things, fucked me then, fucked me now Quick to tell me "Show you love" nigga show you Hell Ain't no I'm feelin here, I ain't never felt this vile - did you really love me, or was I just a child? Said it, outside, I you seen it in my face I wasn't happy here, but I was forced to lead the way Copped me a Cheverolet, drift away to the other side just to If I get to see Heaven, I can you for the ride and thank you for my other kids and though they mommas won't admit that they can't it but bad, low on the child support - always been bad boo, tryna me out to be the bad guy that I really ain't, bitch so quick to me 'cause I see my kids enough, but I make the time to pick 'em up But you find somethin to in my face - it ain't me fuckin up bad enough, face to face, always wanna catch a case So bad, they'll try an get me they me - and what takes the cake Is the world is fuckin up, daddy know where the weankess at and you spoke lies to ya old eyes, how could you sleep wit that? Jepordize everything, for searchin for larger life Sacrificin the whole family, no regards to Christ how people can take this shit for granted, right? But then strikes, and changes things overnight I thank the for watchin over me, though I'm prone to doin wrong I repent religiously, hopin the weak get strong when the heat get's on {*wind Hopin that the weak get strong, when the get's on
[talking - echo each pause] Ya know... the different... stays as it likes... Either, headin a storm... ya in a storm... or ya got out of a storm... (yeah) think about it...
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