Is out there...
I swear I feel so all alone, back down on my again Hopin you can me strong, 'cause I can't hardly sleep tonight I too many sleepin pills, I drunk too many Miller Lites And I can feel the Reaper near, so please me for my sins I am just another man, sorry for the that I've caused I know that understand, these demons'll drive me - insane I've been mad, rightly oughta blow out my brains 'cause I'm bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the other day These problems got me more drugs, along with the other things I'm slowly into my thoughts, (come against me, bring it on!) and I'm in and outta space, and I don't believe I'm wakin up with the alcohol, them drinks, drift me to world Where the stay shinin, I think I was finna url Mom, can ya look at me? This ain't I used to be Tomorrow, I'll be else, 'cause I ain't been me I can't seem to shake these, I'll put that on every day Boy tryna figure me out, is like Lamar But my was fucked up - raised rowdy by a single moms She told me my daddy didn't give a fuck, she let him do his job Seventh grade; failing, and I know my next of kin These days in these fucked up ways, who the fuck are My daddy had other kids, but I ain't never seen 'em So, ain't no sense in coming around now, you ain't here befo' It's sad but I ain't feelin nuttin, my whole life's been a maze and when I tried to locate my siblings, they gone away Lost inside they things, fucked me then, fucked me now Quick to me "Show you some love" nigga show you Hell Ain't no love I'm feelin here, I ain't felt this vile Momma - did you love me, or was I just a child? Said it, outside, I knew you it in my face I wasn't really happy here, but I was forced to the way Copped me a Cheverolet, drift to the other side just to think If I get to see Heaven, I can thank you for the and thank you for my kids and even though mommas won't admit that they can't make it but bad, low on the child support - always bad boo, tryna make me out to be the bad guy that I really ain't, so quick to hassle me 'cause I see my kids enough, but I make the time to pick 'em up But you find somethin to stick in my face - it ain't me up bad enough, face to face, always wanna catch a case So bad, they'll try an get me they me - and what takes the cake Is the whole world is up, daddy know where the weankess at and you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes, how could you sleep wit everything, just for searchin for larger life Sacrificin the whole family, with no to Christ Funny how people can take this shit for granted, But then reality strikes, and changes overnight I thank the Lord for watchin over me, though I'm prone to wrong I repent religiously, hopin the weak get strong the heat get's on {*wind blowing*} Hopin that the get strong, when the heat get's on
[talking - echo after pause] Ya know... the different... stays as it likes... Either, headin a storm... ya in a storm... or ya just got out of a storm... (yeah) about it...
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