Is out there...
I swear I feel so all alone, back on my knees again Hopin you can me strong, 'cause I can't hardly sleep tonight I took too many sleepin pills, I drunk too Miller Lites And I can feel the near, so please forgive me for my sins I am just another man, sorry for the pain I've caused I know that you'll understand, these demons'll me - insane I've been goin mad, rightly oughta out my brains I'm hurtin bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the other day These problems got me usin more drugs, along the other things I'm slowly fading into my thoughts, (come against me, it on!) and I'm driftin in and outta space, and I don't believe I'm up with the alcohol, drinks, drift me to another world Where the stay shinin, I think I was finna url Mom, can ya look at me? This ain't what I to be Tomorrow, be somebody else, 'cause I ain't been me I can't seem to shake these, put that there on every day Boy tryna figure me out, is Lamar changing But my childhood was fucked up - raised rowdy by a single She told me my daddy didn't give a fuck, she let him do his job Seventh grade; failing, and I don't my next of kin days in these fucked up ways, who the fuck are them? My had three other kids, but I ain't never seen 'em So, ain't no sense in coming around now, you been here befo' It's sad but I feelin nuttin, my whole life's been a fuckin maze and I tried to locate my siblings, they were gone away Lost inside they other things, fucked me then, me now Quick to tell me "Show you some love" nigga you Hell Ain't no love I'm feelin here, I ain't never felt this Momma - did you really me, or was I just a child? Said it, outside, I knew you it in my face I really happy here, but I was forced to lead the way me a Cheverolet, drift away to the other side just to think If I get to see Heaven, I can you for the ride and thank you for my other and even though they mommas won't admit that they make it but bad, low on the child support - always been bad boo, make me out to be the bad guy I really ain't, bitch so quick to hassle me 'cause I don't see my kids enough, but I the time to pick 'em up But you somethin to stick in my face - it ain't me fuckin up It's bad enough, to face, always wanna catch a case So bad, they'll try an get me make me - and what takes the cake Is the whole is fuckin up, daddy know where the weankess at and you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes, how you sleep wit that? Jepordize everything, for searchin for larger life Sacrificin the whole family, with no regards to Funny how people can take this for granted, right? But then reality strikes, and things overnight I thank the for watchin over me, though I'm prone to doin wrong I repent religiously, that the weak get strong when the get's on {*wind blowing*} Hopin that the get strong, when the heat get's on
- echo after each pause] Ya know... the different... stays as it likes... Either, headin a storm... ya in a storm... or ya just got out of a storm... (yeah) think it...
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