Is out there...
I I feel so all alone, back down on my knees again Hopin you can keep me strong, 'cause I hardly sleep tonight I took too many sleepin pills, I too many Miller Lites And I can feel the Reaper near, so please me for my sins I am just another man, sorry for the pain that I've I know you'll understand, these demons'll drive me - insane I've been goin mad, rightly oughta blow out my 'cause I'm hurtin bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the day These problems got me usin more drugs, along with the things I'm slowly fading into my thoughts, (come against me, it on!) and I'm driftin in and space, and I don't believe I'm wakin up the alcohol, them drinks, drift me to another world Where the sunshine stay shinin, I think I was url Mom, can ya look at me? This ain't I used to be Tomorrow, I'll be somebody else, I ain't been me I can't seem to shake these, I'll put that on every day Boy tryna figure me out, is like Lamar But my childhood was fucked up - raised by a single moms She me my daddy didn't give a fuck, she ain't let him do his job Seventh grade; failing, and I don't know my of kin These in these fucked up ways, who the fuck are them? My daddy had three other kids, but I never seen 'em So, ain't no sense in coming around now, you ain't been here It's sad but I ain't feelin nuttin, my whole been a fuckin maze and when I tried to locate my siblings, they were gone Lost inside they other things, fucked me then, me now Quick to tell me "Show you some love" show you Hell Ain't no love I'm here, I ain't never felt this vile - did you really love me, or was I just a child? Said it, outside, I knew you seen it in my I wasn't really here, but I was forced to lead the way Copped me a Cheverolet, away to the other side just to think If I get to see Heaven, I can thank you for the and thank you for my other kids and even they mommas won't admit they can't make it but bad, low on the support - always been bad boo, tryna make me out to be the bad guy that I really ain't, bitch so to hassle me 'cause I don't see my kids enough, but I make the to pick 'em up But you find to stick in my face - it ain't me fuckin up It's bad enough, to face, always wanna catch a case So bad, they'll try an get me they make me - and takes the cake Is the whole world is fuckin up, daddy know where the at and you spoke to ya old mans eyes, how could you sleep wit that? Jepordize everything, for searchin for larger life Sacrificin the whole family, no regards to Christ how people can take this shit for granted, right? But then reality strikes, and changes things I thank the Lord for watchin over me, I'm prone to doin wrong I religiously, hopin that the weak get strong when the heat on {*wind blowing*} Hopin that the weak get strong, when the heat on
- echo after each pause] Ya know... the different... stays as it likes... Either, into a storm... ya in a storm... or ya got out of a storm... (yeah) think about it...
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