Is out there...
I swear I feel so all alone, back on my knees again Hopin you can me strong, 'cause I can't hardly sleep tonight I took too many sleepin pills, I drunk too many Miller And I can feel the near, so please forgive me for my sins I am just another man, sorry for the pain I've caused I know that you'll understand, these demons'll me - insane been goin mad, rightly oughta blow out my brains 'cause I'm bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the other day These problems got me usin more drugs, along with the other I'm fading into my thoughts, (come against me, bring it on!) and I'm in and outta space, and I don't believe I'm wakin up with the alcohol, them drinks, me to another world the sunshine stay shinin, I think I was finna url Mom, can ya at me? This ain't what I used to be Tomorrow, I'll be somebody else, I ain't been me I seem to shake these, I'll put that there on every day Boy tryna figure me out, is Lamar changing But my childhood was fucked up - rowdy by a single moms She told me my daddy didn't a fuck, she ain't let him do his job Seventh grade; failing, and I don't my next of kin These days in these fucked up ways, who the are them? My daddy had other kids, but I ain't never seen 'em So, ain't no sense in coming around now, you ain't been befo' It's sad but I ain't feelin nuttin, my life's been a fuckin maze and I tried to locate my siblings, they were gone away Lost inside other things, fucked me then, fucked me now Quick to me "Show you some love" nigga show you Hell Ain't no love I'm feelin here, I ain't never felt this Momma - did you really me, or was I just a child? it, outside, I knew you seen it in my face I wasn't really here, but I was forced to lead the way Copped me a Cheverolet, drift away to the side just to think If I get to see Heaven, I can you for the ride and thank you for my other kids and even they mommas admit that they can't make it but bad, low on the child support - always been bad boo, tryna me out to be the bad guy I really ain't, bitch so quick to hassle me 'cause I don't see my kids enough, but I the time to pick 'em up But you find somethin to stick in my - it ain't me fuckin up It's bad enough, face to face, always wanna a case So bad, they'll try an get me they me - and what takes the cake Is the whole world is fuckin up, daddy know the weankess at and you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes, how you sleep wit that? Jepordize everything, for searchin for larger life Sacrificin the whole family, with no to Christ Funny how can take this shit for granted, right? But then reality strikes, and things overnight I thank the Lord for watchin over me, though I'm to doin wrong I repent religiously, hopin the weak get strong when the get's on {*wind blowing*} Hopin that the weak get strong, the heat get's on
[talking - echo after each Ya know... the different... stays as it likes... Either, into a storm... ya in a storm... or ya just got out of a storm... (yeah) about it...
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