Is out there...
I swear I feel so all alone, down on my knees again you can keep me strong, 'cause I can't hardly sleep tonight I took too many sleepin pills, I drunk too many Lites And I can feel the near, so please forgive me for my sins I am just another man, sorry for the pain that I've I know that you'll understand, these drive me - insane I've been goin mad, rightly oughta out my brains 'cause I'm hurtin bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the day These problems got me usin more drugs, along the other things I'm slowly fading into my thoughts, (come against me, it on!) and I'm driftin in and space, and I don't believe I'm wakin up the alcohol, them drinks, drift me to another world Where the sunshine shinin, I think I was finna url Mom, can ya at me? This ain't what I used to be Tomorrow, I'll be else, 'cause I ain't been me I seem to shake these, I'll put that there on every day Boy tryna figure me out, is like Lamar But my childhood was fucked up - raised by a single moms She me my daddy didn't give a fuck, she ain't let him do his job Seventh grade; failing, and I don't know my of kin These days in these fucked up ways, who the are them? My daddy had three kids, but I ain't never seen 'em So, ain't no sense in coming around now, you been here befo' sad but I ain't feelin nuttin, my whole life's been a fuckin maze and when I tried to locate my siblings, they were away inside they other things, fucked me then, fucked me now Quick to tell me "Show you some love" nigga you Hell Ain't no love I'm here, I ain't never felt this vile - did you really love me, or was I just a child? Said it, outside, I knew you it in my face I wasn't really happy here, but I was forced to the way Copped me a Cheverolet, away to the other side just to think If I get to see Heaven, I can you for the ride and you for my other kids and even though they mommas won't admit that they can't it but bad, low on the child - always been bad boo, tryna make me out to be the bad guy that I ain't, bitch so quick to hassle me 'cause I don't see my enough, but I make the time to pick 'em up But you find somethin to stick in my face - it me fuckin up It's bad enough, face to face, always wanna catch a So bad, they'll try an get me they make me - and what the cake Is the whole world is fuckin up, daddy know the weankess at and you spoke to ya old mans eyes, how could you sleep wit that? everything, just for searchin for larger life Sacrificin the whole family, no regards to Christ Funny how people can this shit for granted, right? But reality strikes, and changes things overnight I thank the Lord for watchin me, though I'm prone to doin wrong I repent religiously, hopin that the weak get when the heat get's on blowing*} Hopin that the weak get strong, when the get's on
- echo after each pause] Ya know... the street's different... as it likes... Either, into a storm... ya in a storm... or ya just got out of a storm... (yeah) about it...
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