Is out there...
I swear I feel so all alone, down on my knees again Hopin you can keep me strong, I can't hardly sleep tonight I took too many pills, I drunk too many Miller Lites And I can feel the Reaper near, so please me for my sins I am just another man, sorry for the pain that caused I know that you'll understand, these drive me - insane been goin mad, rightly oughta blow out my brains 'cause I'm hurtin bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the day These got me usin more drugs, along with the other things I'm slowly fading into my thoughts, (come me, bring it on!) and I'm driftin in and outta space, and I don't believe I'm up the alcohol, them drinks, drift me to another world Where the stay shinin, I think I was finna url Mom, can ya look at me? This ain't what I to be Tomorrow, I'll be somebody else, I ain't been me I can't seem to these, I'll put that there on every day Boy tryna figure me out, is Lamar changing But my childhood was up - raised rowdy by a single moms She told me my daddy didn't give a fuck, she let him do his job Seventh failing, and I don't know my next of kin These days in fucked up ways, who the fuck are them? My daddy had three other kids, but I ain't seen 'em So, ain't no sense in around now, you ain't been here befo' It's sad but I ain't feelin nuttin, my whole life's been a fuckin and when I tried to my siblings, they were gone away Lost inside they other things, fucked me then, me now to tell me "Show you some love" nigga show you Hell Ain't no love I'm feelin here, I never felt this vile - did you really love me, or was I just a child? Said it, outside, I knew you it in my face I wasn't really here, but I was forced to lead the way me a Cheverolet, drift away to the other side just to think If I get to see Heaven, I can thank you for the and thank you for my other and even though they mommas won't admit they can't make it but bad, low on the child support - always been bad boo, tryna me out to be the bad guy I really ain't, bitch so quick to hassle me 'cause I don't see my kids enough, but I the time to pick 'em up But you find somethin to in my face - it ain't me fuckin up It's bad enough, to face, always wanna catch a case So bad, they'll try an get me they make me - and takes the cake Is the world is fuckin up, daddy know where the weankess at and you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes, how could you wit that? Jepordize everything, just for for larger life Sacrificin the family, with no regards to Christ how people can take this shit for granted, right? But then reality strikes, and changes things I thank the Lord for over me, though I'm prone to doin wrong I repent religiously, that the weak get strong when the heat get's on blowing*} Hopin the weak get strong, when the heat get's on
[talking - echo each pause] Ya know... the different... stays as it likes... Either, into a storm... ya in a storm... or ya got out of a storm... (yeah) think about it...
until fade*