Is out there...
I swear I feel so all alone, down on my knees again Hopin you can keep me strong, 'cause I can't hardly tonight I took too many pills, I drunk too many Miller Lites And I can feel the near, so please forgive me for my sins I am just another man, sorry for the pain I've caused I that you'll understand, these demons'll drive me - insane I've been goin mad, oughta blow out my brains I'm hurtin bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the other day These problems got me usin drugs, along with the other things I'm fading into my thoughts, (come against me, bring it on!) and I'm driftin in and outta space, and I believe I'm wakin up with the alcohol, drinks, drift me to another world Where the stay shinin, I think I was finna url Mom, can ya look at me? This ain't what I to be Tomorrow, I'll be somebody else, 'cause I been me I can't seem to shake these, I'll put that there on day Boy tryna me out, is like Lamar changing But my was fucked up - raised rowdy by a single moms She told me my didn't give a fuck, she ain't let him do his job Seventh grade; failing, and I don't know my of kin These days in these fucked up ways, who the are them? My daddy had other kids, but I ain't never seen 'em So, ain't no sense in coming around now, you ain't been befo' It's sad but I ain't feelin nuttin, my whole life's been a maze and when I to locate my siblings, they were gone away inside they other things, fucked me then, fucked me now Quick to me "Show you some love" nigga show you Hell Ain't no love I'm feelin here, I ain't never felt vile Momma - did you really me, or was I just a child? Said it, outside, I knew you seen it in my I really happy here, but I was forced to lead the way Copped me a Cheverolet, drift to the other side just to think If I get to see Heaven, I can thank you for the and thank you for my other kids and though they mommas won't admit that can't make it but bad, low on the child - always been bad boo, tryna make me out to be the bad guy that I really ain't, bitch so to hassle me 'cause I don't see my kids enough, but I make the time to 'em up But you find somethin to in my face - it ain't me fuckin up It's bad enough, face to face, always wanna catch a So bad, they'll try an get me they make me - and what takes the Is the whole world is fuckin up, daddy where the weankess at and you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes, how could you wit that? Jepordize everything, just for for larger life Sacrificin the whole family, with no regards to Funny how people can this shit for granted, right? But then strikes, and changes things overnight I thank the Lord for watchin over me, though I'm prone to wrong I religiously, hopin that the weak get strong when the heat get's on blowing*} Hopin that the get strong, when the heat get's on
[talking - echo each pause] Ya know... the different... stays as it likes... Either, headin a storm... ya in a storm... or ya got out of a storm... (yeah) think about it...
until fade*