Is out there...
I I feel so all alone, back down on my knees again Hopin you can keep me strong, 'cause I can't hardly tonight I took too many pills, I drunk too many Miller Lites And I can feel the Reaper near, so forgive me for my sins I am just another man, sorry for the that I've caused I know that you'll understand, these demons'll me - insane I've been goin mad, rightly oughta out my brains 'cause I'm bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the other day These problems got me usin more drugs, along the other things I'm slowly fading my thoughts, (come against me, bring it on!) and I'm driftin in and space, and I don't believe I'm wakin up with the alcohol, them drinks, drift me to another Where the sunshine shinin, I think I was finna url Mom, can ya look at me? This ain't what I to be Tomorrow, I'll be somebody else, 'cause I ain't me I can't to shake these, I'll put that there on every day Boy tryna figure me out, is like Lamar But my childhood was fucked up - raised rowdy by a single She told me my didn't give a fuck, she ain't let him do his job Seventh grade; failing, and I don't know my of kin These days in these up ways, who the fuck are them? My daddy had three other kids, but I never seen 'em So, ain't no sense in coming around now, you ain't been befo' It's sad but I ain't nuttin, my whole life's been a fuckin maze and when I tried to my siblings, they were gone away Lost inside they other things, me then, fucked me now Quick to tell me "Show you some love" nigga you Hell Ain't no love I'm feelin here, I never felt this vile Momma - did you really love me, or was I just a it, outside, I knew you seen it in my face I really happy here, but I was forced to lead the way Copped me a Cheverolet, drift away to the other side to think If I get to see Heaven, I can thank you for the and thank you for my kids and even though they mommas admit that they can't make it but bad, low on the child support - always been bad boo, tryna me out to be the bad guy that I ain't, bitch so quick to hassle me 'cause I see my kids enough, but I make the time to pick 'em up But you find to stick in my face - it ain't me fuckin up It's bad enough, face to face, wanna catch a case So bad, they'll try an get me they make me - and takes the cake Is the whole world is fuckin up, daddy know the weankess at and you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes, how could you sleep wit Jepordize everything, just for for larger life Sacrificin the whole family, with no regards to Funny how people can take this shit for granted, But reality strikes, and changes things overnight I thank the Lord for watchin over me, though I'm prone to wrong I repent religiously, that the weak get strong the heat get's on {*wind blowing*} Hopin the weak get strong, when the heat get's on
[talking - after each pause] Ya know... the different... stays as it likes... Either, into a storm... ya in a storm... or ya just got out of a storm... (yeah) about it...
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