Is out there...
I swear I feel so all alone, back down on my knees Hopin you can keep me strong, 'cause I can't sleep tonight I took too many sleepin pills, I drunk too Miller Lites And I can feel the Reaper near, so forgive me for my sins I am just man, sorry for the pain that I've caused I know that understand, these demons'll drive me - insane I've been goin mad, oughta blow out my brains 'cause I'm bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the other day These problems got me usin more drugs, along the other things I'm slowly fading my thoughts, (come against me, bring it on!) and I'm in and outta space, and I don't believe I'm wakin up with the alcohol, them drinks, me to another world Where the stay shinin, I think I was finna url Mom, can ya look at me? ain't what I used to be Tomorrow, I'll be somebody else, 'cause I ain't me I can't seem to shake these, put that there on every day Boy figure me out, is like Lamar changing But my childhood was fucked up - raised rowdy by a single She told me my didn't give a fuck, she ain't let him do his job Seventh grade; failing, and I don't know my of kin These days in fucked up ways, who the fuck are them? My daddy had three other kids, but I never seen 'em So, ain't no sense in coming around now, you ain't here befo' It's sad but I ain't feelin nuttin, my life's been a fuckin maze and when I tried to locate my siblings, they were away Lost inside they other things, me then, fucked me now Quick to tell me "Show you some love" show you Hell Ain't no love I'm feelin here, I ain't never this vile Momma - did you really love me, or was I a child? Said it, outside, I knew you seen it in my I really happy here, but I was forced to lead the way Copped me a Cheverolet, drift away to the other side just to If I get to see Heaven, I can thank you for the and thank you for my kids and even though they mommas won't admit that can't make it but bad, low on the child support - been bad boo, tryna make me out to be the bad guy that I really ain't, so quick to hassle me 'cause I don't see my enough, but I make the time to pick 'em up But you find somethin to in my face - it ain't me fuckin up It's bad enough, face to face, wanna catch a case So bad, they'll try an get me they make me - and takes the cake Is the whole world is fuckin up, daddy where the weankess at and you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes, how could you wit that? everything, just for searchin for larger life Sacrificin the whole family, with no regards to Funny how people can take this for granted, right? But then reality strikes, and changes overnight I thank the Lord for watchin me, though I'm prone to doin wrong I repent religiously, hopin the weak get strong when the heat on {*wind blowing*} Hopin that the weak get strong, the heat get's on
[talking - echo after pause] Ya know... the different... stays as it likes... Either, headin a storm... ya in a storm... or ya just got out of a storm... (yeah) think it...
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