Is out there...
I swear I feel so all alone, back on my knees again Hopin you can keep me strong, I can't hardly sleep tonight I too many sleepin pills, I drunk too many Miller Lites And I can the Reaper near, so please forgive me for my sins I am just another man, sorry for the pain that I've I know that you'll understand, these demons'll drive me - I've been goin mad, rightly oughta blow out my 'cause I'm bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the other day These problems got me usin more drugs, along with the things I'm slowly fading my thoughts, (come against me, bring it on!) and I'm driftin in and outta space, and I believe I'm wakin up with the alcohol, drinks, drift me to another world Where the sunshine shinin, I think I was finna url Mom, can ya look at me? ain't what I used to be Tomorrow, be somebody else, 'cause I ain't been me I can't seem to these, I'll put that there on every day Boy tryna figure me out, is like Lamar But my childhood was fucked up - raised rowdy by a moms She told me my didn't give a fuck, she ain't let him do his job grade; failing, and I don't know my next of kin These days in fucked up ways, who the fuck are them? My daddy had three kids, but I ain't never seen 'em So, ain't no sense in around now, you ain't been here befo' It's sad but I feelin nuttin, my whole life's been a fuckin maze and when I to locate my siblings, they were gone away inside they other things, fucked me then, fucked me now Quick to me "Show you some love" nigga show you Hell Ain't no love I'm here, I ain't never felt this vile Momma - did you really love me, or was I just a it, outside, I knew you seen it in my face I wasn't happy here, but I was forced to lead the way me a Cheverolet, drift away to the other side just to think If I get to see Heaven, I can you for the ride and thank you for my other kids and even they mommas won't admit that they make it but bad, low on the child - always been bad boo, tryna make me out to be the bad guy that I really ain't, bitch so to hassle me 'cause I don't see my kids enough, but I make the time to 'em up But you somethin to stick in my face - it ain't me fuckin up bad enough, face to face, always wanna catch a case So bad, they'll try an get me they make me - and takes the cake Is the whole is fuckin up, daddy know where the weankess at and you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes, how could you sleep wit Jepordize everything, just for searchin for life Sacrificin the whole family, no regards to Christ Funny how people can take shit for granted, right? But then reality strikes, and changes things I thank the Lord for watchin me, though I'm prone to doin wrong I repent religiously, hopin that the get strong when the heat on {*wind blowing*} Hopin the weak get strong, when the heat get's on
[talking - echo each pause] Ya know... the street's different... as it likes... Either, headin a storm... ya in a storm... or ya just got out of a storm... (yeah) think it...
until fade*