Is out there...
I swear I so all alone, back down on my knees again Hopin you can me strong, 'cause I can't hardly sleep tonight I took too many sleepin pills, I drunk too many Miller And I can feel the Reaper near, so please me for my sins I am just another man, sorry for the pain that I've I know that you'll understand, these demons'll me - insane I've been mad, rightly oughta blow out my brains 'cause I'm hurtin bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the day These problems got me usin more drugs, along the other things I'm slowly fading my thoughts, (come against me, bring it on!) and I'm in and outta space, and I don't believe I'm wakin up with the alcohol, them drinks, drift me to another the sunshine stay shinin, I think I was finna url Mom, can ya at me? This ain't what I used to be Tomorrow, I'll be somebody else, 'cause I ain't me I can't seem to shake these, I'll put that on every day Boy tryna figure me out, is Lamar changing But my childhood was fucked up - raised by a single moms She told me my daddy didn't give a fuck, she let him do his job Seventh grade; failing, and I don't know my of kin These days in these fucked up ways, who the fuck are My daddy had other kids, but I ain't never seen 'em So, ain't no sense in coming around now, you ain't been befo' It's sad but I feelin nuttin, my whole life's been a fuckin maze and when I tried to my siblings, they were gone away inside they other things, fucked me then, fucked me now Quick to me "Show you some love" nigga show you Hell Ain't no love I'm feelin here, I ain't never this vile - did you really love me, or was I just a child? Said it, outside, I knew you seen it in my I really happy here, but I was forced to lead the way Copped me a Cheverolet, drift away to the other side to think If I get to see Heaven, I can you for the ride and you for my other kids and even though they mommas won't admit they can't make it but bad, low on the child - always been bad boo, tryna make me out to be the bad guy that I really ain't, bitch so to hassle me I don't see my kids enough, but I make the time to pick 'em up But you find somethin to stick in my face - it ain't me up bad enough, face to face, always wanna catch a case So bad, they'll try an get me they make me - and takes the cake Is the whole world is up, daddy know where the weankess at and you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes, how could you sleep wit Jepordize everything, for searchin for larger life Sacrificin the whole family, with no regards to Funny how people can take shit for granted, right? But reality strikes, and changes things overnight I the Lord for watchin over me, though I'm prone to doin wrong I repent religiously, hopin the weak get strong the heat get's on {*wind blowing*} Hopin that the weak get strong, when the heat on
[talking - echo after each Ya know... the street's different... as it likes... Either, into a storm... ya in a storm... or ya just got out of a storm... (yeah) about it...
until fade*