PTSD

(Verse 1)
P: Past trauma still haunting my Dreams
prolly cuz the perfect picture I painted of life was serene
Penned a letter, corrected every punctuation error
panoramic views, looking more paranormal than ever
Interstellar fantasies are my painkillers, to pacify parodies of life
I write passages of light
A paradise of charity & Love, some say it's passé
hate paralyzed 'em, my food for thought on some pancakes
'til the pan breaks, particles of passion praying for peace
the world promised American pie, I've yet to get a piece
Patience a virtue, they told me
am I being penalized for the old me?
God showed me the path to phenomenon
slice of life give me 2, extra Parmesan
Perseverance, I promised my mama less pain
penmanship puzzling minds, perception never changed
T: Traumatized from past battles, trying not to let it overtake me
thinking God did you forsake me?
Night terrors awake me
triumph and tragedy, my tainted tale
tactical career, thriving to fail
I try my hardest, never tardy so the vision's never tarnished
Dream talisman of garnet
The melodies therapeutic, my target is in theory
translation, tranquility from torture, theoretical Siri
Guidance through technological tyrannies
traverse my verse, I testify my testimony sincerely

(Verse 2)
S: Sincerity is what it sounds like, sonically share my soul
although something was missing, I'm suddenly whole
I sacrificed sadness for sacred songs
seeking salvation, never knew it would take this long
Singing of savory scenery, while they scrutinize self-will
but my scenarios are utilized
when I serenade serene sentences with skill
got a sixth sense, Bruce will, smart standing still
D: Dear Autumn my darling, these are my thoughts while I await
Destiny if I can defeat the demons distracting our date
Diabolical terrorizing my Dreams, debating determination
desire in danger of devastation
Devil in darkness, deceiving leading to our defeat
Dreams decomposing, decaying underneath
grief, and vacant decorations
didn't decipher the code, now the globe demanding degradation
Deactivating social media, no hesitation
delightful dialect in deprivation
PTSD

(Verse 3)
I refuse to lose, burn off the noose
I refuse to snooze, turn off the news
they asking, Blew how you doing?
Do you really, really want the truth?
Granny I still think about you often
lost in a state of exhaustion
countless nights of hard work, saying prayers for precaution
Still believe in what I can't see
cup of OJ for concentration with my main squeeze
some people you just can't please
I live in an non supportive state unless you part of cliques
or their favorite pick, pathetic
Little do they know, what's up my sleeve like a long tat
you can throw shade, but my spirit, you'll never own that
Checked the Spotify streams, most of my fans overseas
ironically, I visit there in my Dreams, often

(Verse 4)
Alot on my plate, feel my will's about to break
I don't know how much more I can take
but shouts to my manager, he tells me i'm great
my response, why the wait?
Says it's a matter of time, but what's inevitable? Your fate
My mistake
Thanks to the fam, held me down through the storm
enemies, will have you second guessing why you're born
but don't give 'em that satisfaction, back in action, listen to the captain
this a fraction of my interactions, defeated assassins
in a fashion unorthodox, like polka dots and socks
these snakes never expected a fox on your block
broke the watch, it's my time permanently, you forgot?
See you soon
Fly To The Moon