Ever had that one important person in life that meant everything to you? the one who was always by your side the whole world was on your shoulders? And it was for you just to see them die in your arms? And telling you to move on But deep down you know they still looking down on you? this guy, he wasn't a homeboy to me, he was my brother, he took his life at the age of 15, Til day he still in my heart...
1] My best friend he just lived the block, A safe neighbourhood where get's along a lot, Since his death, nobody his house, seems like everyone forgot, if he dissappeared in a black hole and never came out, but deep down in my heart, i see him still alive and his life, you were taken away me in a quick instant, i even have the instant to say goodbye, the distance wasn't far, house was right infront of mine, we always saw each other day, no matter the weather, day was the only day we didn't hang out together, and that same night you your life away, i'm my friend you had to feel that way, but now all your pain and sorrow now dissappeared, but taking your life didn't anything at all, you looked normal, you always looked peaceful, and just a great friend, a childhood friend, now everyday i and light candles for my best friend, That i saw you walking back from home down the street, you looked really and i knew you couldn't sleep, That was the same night my best friend a knife and commited suicide.
I'm really sorry you couldn't have the live to live, I'm really sorry for the love i couldn't give, I'm really sorry if i caused you shit, but you the only person up there i could share a with.
2] That morning i ringing at your door, your mom sobbing while crying and collapsed on the floor, your dad stood behind her and i my schoolbag, i ran up to your room, opened the and gasped, She said she found you laying on the floor your pulse not beating, and i knew you was dead, ye i fell tears, seeing you there not moving a muscle, hurt me so bad i couldn't that you did this to yourself, Just the paramedics bring you away, that was the last day i saw your face, skipped school that morning and stayed in my and cried, 2 days later it was funeral, many people showed up, it made me feel that you knew a lot of people, so i stepped up at the alter and broke tears, gave my speech and everyone opened their ears, I cried and paid for my respects, I wish i could you back from the dead, you had an open casket so i came closer and saw smile, Then i saw your slowly being burried in the ground, that was the last time i your presence, it was scary, now in the present, resting in a cemetary.
I'm sorry you couldn't have the best live to live, I'm really sorry for the love i couldn't give, I'm really sorry if i ever you shit, but you the only person up there i could share a with.
3] It's already 3 years since u left me, I never had a friend like you who was always there for me, I'm so lonely, been by death, You left even saying a word, down it really pisses me off, Just the world like that like it screw you off! I feel i cost you to take your life away, And i feel like i you in every single way, As time went by, i moved on my life, But i look back, i can you through my eyes, Every chance i get, i to your tombstone, put a couple of and say a few prayers, drip a few tears, and ask: "are you here?" it kills me badly time i think of you, you should of me for help, i was a friend to you, you will be forever in my heart deep, I your in the heavens resting in peace.
I'm really sorry you couldn't have the best to live, I'm sorry for the brother love i couldn't give, I'm sorry if i ever caused you shit, but you the person up there i could share a tear with.