Ever had that one important person in your that meant everything to you? the one who was always by your side when the whole was on your shoulders? And it was for you just to see them die in your arms? And everyone telling you to move on But deep down you know they still down on you? Well guy, he wasn't a homeboy to me, he was my brother, he took his life at the age of 15, Til this day he in my heart...
1] My best he just lived around the block, A safe neighbourhood where everyone get's a lot, Since his death, nobody his house, seems like everyone forgot, like if he in a black hole and never came out, but deep down in my heart, i see him alive and living his life, you were taken away from me in a instant, i didn't even have the to say goodbye, the distance wasn't far, your was right infront of mine, we always saw each other every day, no the weather, day was the only day we didn't hang out together, and that night you took your life away, i'm sorry my friend you had to feel way, but now all your pain and sorrow now dissappeared, but taking your didn't solve anything at all, you always looked normal, you always peaceful, and a great friend, a great childhood friend, now everyday i pray and light candles for my friend, That night i saw you walking back home down the street, you looked really depressed and i knew you sleep, That was the same night my best friend took a knife and suicide.
I'm really sorry you couldn't have the live to live, I'm really sorry for the brother love i give, I'm really sorry if i ever you shit, but you the only person up i could share a tear with.
2] That morning i ringing at your door, mom opened sobbing while crying and collapsed on the floor, your dad behind her and i dropped my schoolbag, i ran up to your room, opened the and gasped, She said she found you laying on the floor with your not beating, and i knew you was dead, ye i fell into tears, you there not moving a muscle, hurt me so bad i couldn't beleive you did this to yourself, Just the paramedics bring you away, that was the last day i saw your face, school that morning and stayed in my room and cried, 2 days it was your funeral, many people showed up, it made me good that you knew a lot of people, so i up at the alter and broke into tears, my friendship speech and everyone opened their ears, I cried and paid for my respects, I wish i bring you back from the dead, you had an open casket so i closer and saw your smile, Then i saw your slowly being burried in the ground, that was the time i felt your presence, it was scary, now in the present, your in a cemetary.
I'm really sorry you couldn't the best live to live, I'm really sorry for the brother love i give, I'm really sorry if i ever you shit, but you the only person up there i could share a with.
3] It's already 3 years since u left me, I never had a best friend like you who was there for me, I'm so lonely, isolated by death, You left even saying a word, down it really pisses me off, Just left the world like like it screw you off! I feel i cost you to take your life away, And i like i killed you in every single way, As time went by, i moved on my life, But when i look back, i can you my eyes, Every chance i get, i come to tombstone, put a couple of and say a few prayers, a few tears, and ask: "are you still here?" it kills me badly every i think of you, you should of asked me for help, i was a to you, you memory be forever in my heart deep, I know your in the resting in peace.
I'm really sorry you couldn't the best live to live, I'm really sorry for the brother love i give, I'm really if i ever caused you shit, but you the only person up there i share a tear with.