Ever had one important person in your life that meant everything to you? the one who was by your side when the whole world was on your shoulders? And it was hard for you to see them die in your arms? And everyone telling you to move on But deep down you know they still down on you? Well this guy, he a homeboy to me, he was my brother, he his life away at the age of 15, Til this day he in my heart...
1] My friend he just lived around the block, A safe neighbourhood where get's along a lot, Since his death, nobody bought his house, like everyone forgot, like if he dissappeared in a black hole and never out, but deep down in my heart, i see him alive and living his life, you taken away from me in a quick instant, i didn't even have the to say goodbye, the distance wasn't far, your house was right of mine, we always saw each other day, no matter the weather, day was the only day we didn't hang out together, and that night you took your life away, i'm sorry my friend you had to that way, but now all your pain and sorrow now dissappeared, but taking your life solve anything at all, you always looked normal, you always peaceful, and just a great friend, a childhood friend, now everyday i pray and light for my best friend, That night i saw you walking back from down the street, you looked really and i knew you couldn't sleep, was the same night my best friend took a knife and commited suicide.
I'm really sorry you have the best live to live, I'm really for the brother love i couldn't give, I'm really sorry if i caused you shit, but you the only person up there i could share a with.
2] That morning i came ringing at door, your mom sobbing while crying and collapsed on the floor, dad stood behind her and i dropped my schoolbag, i ran up to your room, the door and gasped, She she found you laying on the floor with your pulse not beating, and i knew you was dead, ye i fell tears, seeing you there not moving a muscle, hurt me so bad i beleive that you did this to yourself, Just seing the bring you away, was the last day i ever saw your face, skipped school morning and stayed in my room and cried, 2 days later it was your funeral, people showed up, it me feel good that you knew a lot of people, so i up at the alter and broke into tears, my friendship speech and everyone opened their ears, I cried and paid for my respects, I wish i could bring you back the dead, you had an open so i came closer and saw your smile, Then i saw coffin slowly being burried in the ground, that was the last time i felt presence, it was scary, now in the present, resting in a cemetary.
I'm really sorry you couldn't the best live to live, I'm sorry for the brother love i couldn't give, I'm really sorry if i caused you shit, but you the only person up there i could a tear with.
3] It's already been 3 years u left me, I had a best friend like you who was always there for me, I'm so lonely, been by death, You left even saying a word, Deep down it really me off, Just the world like that like it screw you off! I feel like i cost you to take your away, And i feel i killed you in every single way, As time went by, i on with my life, But when i look back, i can you my eyes, Every chance i get, i to your tombstone, put a of flowers and say a few prayers, drip a few tears, and "are you still here?" it kills me badly every i think of you, you of asked me for help, i was a friend to you, you memory will be forever in my deep, I know your in the resting in peace.
I'm really sorry you couldn't have the best to live, I'm really for the brother love i couldn't give, I'm really if i ever caused you shit, but you the person up there i could share a tear with.