Killer's Lullaby

I'm sittin' at a coffee table, unable to see straight
Watchin' parallel lines unwind and undulate
Behind the rain streaked windowpane, the scene's bleak
Another train leavin' home, conceding defeat with a low moan

Hangin' in a sky, made of stone
Everybody's leavin' home, I called my man Jerome
To come meet me in the twilight zone
Leave your mobile phone at home and come alone

I bought him coffee and a snack, settled back, started speakin'
He was tweakin' with the peak of his cap, while I'm seekin' to discover
What it takes to stay sober, not cover my mistakes
Try to maybe make sense of the evidence

It's over, she's gone for good
Why should I lie? Singin' a killer's lullaby
Identified by the dying ring of her goodbye
The last thing you hear before your life disappear

Now it just gets worse, like my stomach could burst
Feel like I've been cursed
With seven centuries of bitter memories
And inadequacies, previous he's and she's

I'm movin' 'round this old house for the last time
Scene of my past crimes, been here for lifetimes
Hearin' the chimes of the old clock that used to mock
You got eternity for takin' stock, this place is like a padlock

You look shocked
Trust me, nothin' ever moves but the dust
There's just us and I'm here to torment and tease
And that's how it was for centuries

Me and my memories, till you brought the keys
Took a couple of Saturdays I moved in runnin' from tragedies and boozin'
Seven hundred years since I came here, you appear, same hair
Same quizzical stare, I couldn't get near
And the sheer frustration was more than I could bear

I was really cursed, thought I'd been through the worst part
That was just the first part, just the start
Every night I'd be sitting with dread, breaking my heart
In case the man she'd been chasin' gets to first base

And I just can't escape, I'm in bad shape
You making love to someone else is more than I can take
And so I make all the movement I can to no avail
Scream and yell, sinkin' deeper into my personal hell

I'm gettin' heated, I'm sorry, have another coffee
I needed to release my sparrow chest from just a piece of this pressure
Unless an escape route is found
I'm goin' down, underground into lifetimes of pain, it's absurd

The heaviest chain is contained in the sound of one word
So I'm referred back to hell, huh
Just as well, I hate needles an' get twinges at the thought
Of syringes

J, I'm goin' insane with shame
I dream and watch her makin' love over and over again
With what I call a farmer's swain
Unintelligent, pea-brained retard who's dick is always hard

Oh God, of course I'm jealous, fellows
Oversexed flexing his pec's
Jesus, what's he gonna make her do next?
I'm mad vex, the way she gently scratches his chest

You used to do that to me back in 1253
Pity me, while you lie with your lover
I stare and suffer in despair while you ruffle his hair
Unaware of who else is there

I move quick, I wanna try my trick one last time
You know it's possible to vaguely define my outline
When dust moves in the sunshine
So I'm tryin' to change, vibrate myself to near human pitch

Which reminds me how I used to come unstitched
And switch 'round the house in a blind rage
It took years and an ocean of tears to find the key to this cage
And write another stage into a new age, it's difficult to gauge

But I know that I'll see you again
On that you may depend
I just don't know how or when
Sleep on, my lost love on gone

Jerome took me home under steel skies
Knowin' I'm prone to dramatize but unknown for tellin' lies
And what I verbalize he can see behind my eyes
The why oh why's that identify killer lullabies and he surmised

No surprise couldn't hear that
Closed my eyes as he steered
That old black BM home again
Not knowing how and not knowing when