It's A Bitch To Grow Up

It's been ten years of investment
It's been one foot in and one out
It's been four days of full of shit
And I feel snuffed out

It's been 33 years of restraining
Of trying to control this tumult
How did I invest in such fantasy?
But my nervous system has won out

I feel done
I feel raked over coals
And all that remains is the case
That it's a bitch to grow up

I've repeated this dance, ad nauseam
There's still something to learn that I've not
I totally see, this is divine perfection
But my bones don't feel this perfection

I feel done
I feel raked over coals
And all that remains is the case
That it's a bitch to grow up

I've spent my life hovering above bottom
Thinking I can't survive what's below
But I've known through the kicking and screaming
That there was no other direction to go

I feel done
I feel raked over coals
And all that remains is the case
That it's a bitch to grow up