Everytime

It's moments, moments like these,
I wish I could sleep,
and never wake up to all these freaks

Trying, but not hard enough,
I would try hard but it's so fucking tough
To live

These feelings, bottled up,
and I
Really can't seem to win,
I hate so much, yet I seem to be in love
With such emotions that tear me down

I frown and I cry
and laugh, and die,
Everytime it comes I try
So hard
To hide,
but it's impossible

A little more, deeper down,
Never trying to turn things around
Cus I know it's not worth it
But hey! is it ever worth it?

Too much
Fills my brain to the max and I,
I feel, know,
That I'm reaching it, so,
I reach out, but it's hopeless,
I'm the biggest fucking mess
around
I fucking wish the world would shut down