People tell me keep my head up it'll be and I just smile there's nothing left for me to say meanwhile I'm really wishing that keep away cause no one truly understands the problems I hide away they're playing checkers, my mind is thinking chess I'm tryna' pause so I can think about my next move not only that I'm thinking 'bout my next two while also being sidetracked by these girls I'm next to if she knew the weight of all my problems would she still be staring at me as if she could help me solve I swear I'm losing it, I'm caught up in my it's like they you how to get through life but still I end up lost and everything in life don't come without a cost so our emotions pay for single lesson we are taught keep a smile in the midst of all my pain is like tryna' stay dry in the of all the rain I'm hoping I'm the only thing that remains the same so my friends won't say I changed in the midst of all the but no one knows what tomorrow holds so to say? so I'm thinking 'bout tomorrow when I lose track of once I it through this mess, Imma be the one to blame cause I did it on my own little help along the way this mixtape is my book but I put in every page cause I didn't wanna about things like H.R.A. so I didn't tell that my family got evicted or that I completely my relationship with my sisters if I could to them I'd tell them that I miss em' and say sorry I didn't even send a gift on christmas it's like, I wonder how I got here and how I'm to fly when my whole world drops here but just I thought the storm was over.. some ones passed away, another burden on my shoulder always ones that you ain't call as much as you was 'posed to yet you could find to text people you ain't close to damn, so I'm type ashamed while half the family's only hoping that the family's getting and things ain't quite when you can't afford christmas yet people asking me why I'm not in my pictures if talks then I'm tryna sit and listen but if money says it all my pocket just whispers even with financial aid I can't afford college but a bachelor's can't teach you how to get through life's so I ain't even that I can't afford knowledge it just means I'll another stage and learn how to rock it my walk ahead of me, I am just the shadow either are out of reach or I am just a tad slow I'm a bad performer or my life is just a bad atleast I get this child support from my dad though how come, life listen when I ask first? and even when I drive slow, I can't avoid them girls? I was voted class clown and nerd I hope my songs are good enough for to hear the last verse pictures in my mind but I can't describe them that I could take but the doctor didn't prescribe them problems to find me so I'm just tryna' hide them my try to log out so I keep my focus signed in music is my life and bar is a tear I just the bass bumps loud enough to silence all my fears been through hell and back and only lived 20 years I've got 80 more left so that explains why I'm my is a movie but I wish I had two takes so I film from scratch with a new life and a new name it's like, I just need to a new place where roaches don't walk by me as if they were roomates I set up dates with girls that I postpone I either got no money or I'm running out of clothes so now she disappointed or she's back at home but little does she that I've been crying all along and I should tell the because I know she'd understand but it hurts to say I'm broke so I pretend I got plans but I'm just home that she'll find a better man that can take her out to and put diamonds on her hand got problems, why complain about mine? I'll just put them in a song and then make it all rhyme I'm trying not to rush cause I know things come in I'm waiting for the whole world to be mine you try hard, you die hard, yea I hear you yeezy but I'm going hard regardless 'cause since when is easy so tell me do ya'll me? nah, can't hear me...