Yeah, most of my adult I've been torn into two If you love me I love you and this song is for you It's tight hard when you know you sick And your seein' you is an emotional wreck
The closer I get, it's like the I feel And my has turned into this heavy armor and steel It's hard to be real, hard to to the dumb shit And I a lot of pills 'cause it numbs shit
I I had another path to follow Wish that I could be a man and to pass the bottle A graphic novel, my a box or an urn Havin' dreams about death but I'm not that
And I'm diseased through the seasons they Watchin' from the trees turn disease and they burn I'm eager to but I'm holdin' my breath And everyday is just another closer to death
Yeah, I've alive longer then I expected to be And took care of that's expected of me Took of my girl and my mother I her that I'm always here and I love her
I handle shit differently I'm grown now And the truth is I'd rather be alone now I'd not have to deal with the day And I hate people ask me how I'm feelin' today
My Rasul, we had a beef and grudge But we up together, cousin, so it's peace and love I wish all the best, I all the shine I wish I didn't offer my thoughts with a nine
I'm thoughtful and kind but I'm alas But I love has turned to a tedious task I feel that life a waiting game for people to But nobody ever you to see through the mask
Yeah, I don't be a burden to y'all I just know exactly what my purpose is for I feel like nothin' I do is ever And that I'm actin' a fool another
And I admit, I don't care of myself So I do a lot of thinkin' and preparing the fact is my father died young and I might too And it ain't any way to tell I might do
I don't wanna leave my behind I don't want for her to cry the struggle is mine I don't want for her to no more I don't want for her to work a 9 to 5 no
I have to work a fuckin' 9 to 5 before So I'm tryin' to get money to provide for y'all And if the shit ain't work out and I'm gone remember that the motherfuckin' love isn't gone