Yeah, most of my adult life I've torn into two If you love me then I love you and song is for you It's tight hard you know when you sick And your seein' you is an emotional wreck
The closer I get, it's like the I feel And my heart has turned into this heavy and steel It's hard to be real, hard to to the dumb shit And I a lot of pills 'cause it numbs shit
I wish I had path to follow Wish that I could be a man and to pass the bottle A novel, my future a box or an urn Havin' dreams about but I'm not that concerned
And I'm diseased through the they turn Watchin' leaves from the trees turn disease and they I'm eager to but I'm holdin' my breath And everyday is just another closer to death
Yeah, I've alive longer then I expected to be And took of everything that's expected of me Took care of my and my mother I her that I'm always here and I love her
I handle differently 'cause I'm grown now And the truth is I'd rather be alone now I'd not have to deal with the day And I hate when ask me how I'm feelin' today
My Rasul, we had a beef and grudge But we grew up together, cousin, so peace and love I all the best, I wish all the shine I I didn't wanna offer my thoughts with a nine
I'm thoughtful and kind but I'm evil But I love has turned to a tedious task I feel that a waiting game for people to pass But nobody ever you to see through the mask
Yeah, I wanna be a burden to y'all I just know exactly what my purpose is for I feel like I do is ever right And that I'm actin' a another night
And I admit, I don't care of myself So I do a lot of thinkin' and preparing 'Cause the fact is my father died and I might too And it ain't any way to what I might do
I don't wanna my mother behind I don't want for her to cry the struggle is mine I don't for her to grind no more I don't want for her to a 9 to 5 no more
I ain't have to work a fuckin' 9 to 5 So I'm tryin' to get this to provide for y'all And if the shit ain't out and I'm suddenly gone Just remember that the love isn't gone