Yeah, most of my adult life I've been torn two If you love me then I love you and this is for you It's tight hard when you know you sick And your shorty you is an emotional wreck
The closer I get, it's like the farther I And my heart has turned this heavy armor and steel It's hard to be real, hard to listen to the shit And I take a lot of pills 'cause it shit
I wish I had another to follow Wish that I could be a man and to pass the bottle A novel, my future a box or an urn Havin' dreams about death but I'm not concerned
And I'm diseased through the seasons they Watchin' leaves from the trees turn and they burn I'm to learn but I'm holdin' my breath And everyday alive is another closer to death
Yeah, I've been alive longer then I to be And care of everything that's expected of me Took of my girl and my mother I told her that I'm always and I love her
I handle shit 'cause I'm grown now And the truth is that I'd rather be now I'd rather not to deal with the day And I when people ask me how I'm feelin' today
My brother Rasul, we had a and grudge But we grew up together, cousin, so peace and love I wish all the best, I all the shine I wish I didn't wanna my thoughts with a nine
I'm and kind but I'm evil alas But I love has turned to a tedious task I that life a waiting game for people to pass But nobody ever want you to see through the
Yeah, I don't wanna be a to y'all I just wanna know exactly what my is for I like nothin' I do is ever right And that I'm actin' a another night
And I admit, I take care of myself So I do a lot of thinkin' and myself 'Cause the fact is my father died and I might too And it ain't any way to tell I might do
I wanna leave my mother behind I don't want for her to cry because the is mine I don't want for her to grind no I don't want for her to a 9 to 5 no more
I ain't have to work a 9 to 5 before So I'm tryin' to get this money to for y'all And if the shit ain't work out and I'm suddenly Just remember the motherfuckin' love isn't gone