You Wanted a Dog

You have a worm inside your chest

It's been ten months don't tell your friends
They drink and laugh and like to think the best

It's called a parasite it's free

So you're getting what you paid for

If you can't sell it back you know there's always bleach

The blue man opens windows to the ground
I watched his seed spread pumpkin rash like doubt

And all the showerheads are looking down
For god's sake won't you please just turn around

Another day spent in a Kleenex
Suffocating babies with soggy minds and eyes that look like mine

And savage is the sweating instinct to smother

Thirsty like a flash of light that stabs my eyes and milks the blood for likes

Say he's good, he's god,

He's passionate you'll see

Oh my protégé my angel boy you'll be

But my passions just a shaking bush at night
Behind a school with mashed potato mouths and thighs

And my truth is just the costume for the class
That is worn and sweat through stepped on then put back

That's fine I know you never really asked for this

But darling you did eat the fish and even my taste it made you sick
Just like the candy hearts you fed me on that night out in the cold

You read from fortune cookie notes

But every separate path you spoke of leads to the same hole
And words are just the costumes

Used to disguise embarrassed fools mine are empty and confused

You tore them off when I tried them on you
And everything I've ever done has led me to this dusty stage screaming out your name through disguises that are cheap and far too big

So you hang your head

Find a friend you're both embarrassed by the sound

Cover your mouth with your hands and you laugh

I stabbed you in my arm so that you could keep me warm
You never had to impress you knew I'd poke you in again
For every whispered promise there are two bathroom secrets

For every touch that made a song there are two holes in my skin