1] She was on her way to becoming a graduate Wouldn't even to talk to the average kid The type of latina I'd sit and contemplate marriage Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her was never for hire Disciplined, intellectual what I desire Flyer than Hayek or Jennifer Lopez told me, kickin' it to her was hopeless At first I just thought, she didn't with broke kids The niggaz always talking about, how they smoke kids But the kids got no play "I'm not even interested" is what her language would say Everyone around the way, gave up to get in it It didn't matter how good your game was, she with it All the bitches was jealous, but wouldn't admit it Talk shit, and to everyone that they did it 'Cause they regreted the long of niggaz that they let hit it And no one ever gave shit except McDonald's and did-dick Smoking with thoughts of envy, whenever they lit it She spoke intelligently and bit it, always trying to copy But when tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was sick in the head for her, and there a cure
[Hook - Jean Don't you that, time waits for no man And our fate, it's all I'm just to know you To have loved and have lost, just to hold you all find, a reason why God came, you and I If I had the chance again, I'd let you go Hold to your love, 'cause you never know
2] Her eyes are brown and beautiful, yet and sad I used to talk to her occasionally, and she was That I wasn't just another trying to get in it So every now and then we'd stop and for a minute I didn't have a so the minutes turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a poem with Then I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby We talked about, to the people and such We spent more time together but it was enough I never tried to a touch, or even cop a feel I was too interested, in keeping it Perfectly honest and complete, she always call me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new book to read every 2 or 3 changing the expression of my thoughts when I speak It was because of her, I deaded all of my freaks She convinced me, to stop hangin' out on the To stop robbin' and stealin', from people you Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Zoo, Museo del barrio and the too Got to the point I was either with her or my crew So I decided one day, to her my feelings was true I couldn't without her so I told her, facing my fears But only response, was a face full of tears She only sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop I left sight I felt like a moth who got himself too close to the Except I didn't burn, I cold after that night
3] I went on with my life, and my career Ended up up like an animal for a year Where the C.O.'s talk to you like they the overseer Then I got sent to the hole, my exit was near At night in my cell, I'd close my and I'd see her her close in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared Just an empty cell until the gave me parole In the summer, came back, in tact and on But the fact of the matter, is I still cold Even my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real would catch me thinkin', out of my zone Fuckin' lots of women, but I still felt alone Relatively well-known the New York underground But I kept thinking of her and how we used to be The sound of her voice, and the smell of her hair gone physically, somehow it was still there I had to do something, because the was too much to bear So I went and visited the where she used to live The world looks a lot after you do a bid Your way of life changed While primitive minds are still stuck in the game Like her cousin who was on the slangin' cocaine Stepped in the lobby and tapped the next to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and me up, like a mother oughta But her facial expression changed, when I about her daughter
4] She told me that was a note for me, that was left behind She had left it waiting, for such a long time I was inclined to ask about it but she it up first I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and she cursed She told me where the letter was and I started the worst Reversed my position, stepped and opened the door And sure there was an envelope with my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more than me carino" is the letter said
"By the time you get to read this, probably be dead But when you left in '97 a part of me went to I God at least I got to know what love really was But it hurt me, to see true love really does 'Cause even we never made love, you were all that there was It was I loved you so much that I had to make you leave You made me doubt the way I thought, you made me want to And I slipped up, and I let you get close to me It was hard to not be openly when people to me was not the way I thought my life was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a transfusion that left me with HIV Hope didn't for me since late in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I could've given to you I in the hospital because there was no one else but you Promise you'll meet me in paradise inevitably No what, I'll keep your love forever with me"
What happened for the rest of the day is a blur But I remember that I was dead, instead of her She was on August 3rd The ends without a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking fall in with people Hold the person that you closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the person simply has sex with you Appreciate to the fullest extent, and then beyond 'Cause you never know what you got, until it's gone