1] She was on her way to becoming a college Wouldn't stop to talk to the average kid The type of I'd sit and contemplate marriage with Fuck the horse and shit, her love was never for hire Disciplined, beauty's what I desire Flyer than Salma or Jennifer Lopez Everyone told me, kickin' it to her was At first I just thought, she didn't with broke kids The niggaz always talking about, how they smoke kids But the rich-sniff-coke got no play "I'm not even interested" is her body language would say Everyone around the way, gave up to get in it It didn't matter how good your game was, she wasn't it All the bitches was jealous, but wouldn't admit it Talk shit, and deny to that they did it 'Cause regreted the long list of niggaz that they let hit it And no one ever gave them except McDonald's and did-dick Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, whenever lit it She spoke intelligently and they bit it, always trying to But when they to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was sick in the head for her, and there wasn't a
[Hook - Grae] Don't you know that, time for no man And our fate, all planned I'm just to know you To have loved and have lost, just to you all night Can't find, a why God came, you and I If I had the again, I'd never let you go Hold tight to your love, you never know
2] Her eyes are brown and beautiful, yet and sad I to talk to her occasionally, and she was glad That I wasn't just another trying to get in it So every now and then stop and talk for a minute I didn't a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours On her birthday, I her a poem with flowers Then I took her out to dinner after her cousin's shower We talked about, to the people and such We more time together but it was never enough I tried to sneak a touch, or even cop a feel I was too interested, in it real Perfectly honest and complete, she would always me "carino," And never Technique, me a new book to read every 2 or 3 weeks Forever the expression of my thoughts when I speak It was of her, I even deaded all of my freaks She convinced me, to stop hangin' out on the To stop and stealin', from people like you Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Zoo, del barrio and the Metropolitan too Got to the where I was either with her or my crew So I decided one day, to tell her my was true I couldn't live without her so I her, facing my fears But honey's response, was a face full of tears She could sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop until I sight I like a moth who got himself too close to the light Except I didn't burn, I cold after that night
3] I went on with my life, and my career Ended up locked up like an animal for a Where the C.O.'s talk to you like were the overseer I got sent to the hole, when my exit was near At night in my cell, I'd close my and I'd see her Hold her close in my dreams, but I woke she disappeared Just an empty cell the state gave me parole In the summer, came back, in tact and on But the fact of the matter, is I still felt after my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real niggaz would me thinkin', out of my zone Fuckin' of different women, but I still felt alone Relatively around the New York underground But I kept of her and how we used to be down The sound of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her Though gone physically, somehow it was there I had to do something, because the was too much to bear So I went and visited the where she used to live The looks a lot different after you do a bid Your way of life done While primitive minds are still in the same game her cousin who was on the corner slangin' cocaine Stepped in the lobby and the button next to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, a mother oughta But her facial expression changed, when I asked about her
4] She told me that there was a note for me, that was left She had it there waiting, for such a long time I was to ask about it but she brought it up first I saw a tear up in her eye, and then she cursed She told me where the letter was and I started the worst Reversed my position, stepped over and the door And sure there was an envelope with my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more than me carino" is the letter said
"By the time you get to read this, I'll be dead But when you left in '97 a of me went to Heaven I thank God at least I got to know what love was But it hurt me, to see what true love really 'Cause even we never made love, you were all that there was It was because I loved you so much that I had to you leave You made me the way I thought, you made me want to believe And then I slipped up, and I let you get to me It was hard to not be when people spoke to me This was not the way I thought my life was to be Baby don't you see, I had a transfusion that left me with HIV Hope didn't for me since late in 1993 I a virgin, I wish I could've given myself to you I cried in the hospital there was no one else but you Promise you'll meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, keep your love forever with me"
What happened for the rest of the day is still a But I remember wishing that I was dead, of her She was on August 3rd The story ends a sequel And now you know why Technique, fucking fall in love with people Hold the person that you closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the person that simply has sex you them to the fullest extent, and then beyond 'Cause you never really know you got, until it's gone