1] She was on her way to a college graduate Wouldn't even to talk to the average kid The type of latina I'd sit and marriage with Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was never for Disciplined, intellectual beauty's I desire Flyer than Hayek or Jennifer Lopez Everyone told me, kickin' it to her was At first I just thought, she didn't mess broke kids The thug niggaz always talking about, how smoke kids But the kids got no play "I'm not interested" is what her body language would say Everyone around the way, up trying to get in it It didn't matter how your game was, she wasn't with it All the bitches was jealous, but wouldn't admit it Talk shit, and deny to everyone they did it they regreted the long list of niggaz that they let hit it And no one gave them shit except McDonald's and did-dick Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, whenever lit it She spoke intelligently and bit it, always trying to copy But when they tried to use her vocab, sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was sick in the for her, and there wasn't a cure
[Hook - Grae] Don't you know that, time for no man And our fate, it's all I'm just to know you To loved and have lost, just to hold you all night find, a reason why God came, you and I If I had the again, I'd never let you go Hold to your love, 'cause you never know
2] Her are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad I used to to her occasionally, and she was glad I wasn't just another nigga trying to get in it So every now and then we'd stop and for a minute I have a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a poem with Then I took her out to after her cousin's baby shower We about, power to the people and such We spent more time together but it was never I tried to sneak a touch, or even cop a feel I was too interested, in keeping it Perfectly honest and complete, she would call me "carino," And never Technique, me a new book to read every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the expression of my thoughts I speak It was because of her, I deaded all of my freaks She convinced me, to stop out on the streets To robbin' and stealin', from people like you Instead I her out to the Apollo and the Bronx Zoo, del barrio and the Metropolitan too Got to the point where I was either with her or my So I decided one day, to her my feelings was true I couldn't live her so I told her, facing my fears But only response, was a face full of tears She only sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she stop until I left sight I felt a moth who got himself too close to the light Except I didn't burn, I turned cold after night
3] I went on with my life, and my career Ended up locked up an animal for a year Where the C.O.'s to you like they were the overseer Then I got sent to the hole, when my exit was At night in my cell, I'd my eyes and I'd see her Hold her in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared Just an empty cell the state gave me parole In the summer, came back, in and on track But the fact of the matter, is I still felt Even after my mother, hugged me, at home My real niggaz catch me thinkin', out of my zone Fuckin' of different women, but I still felt alone Relatively well-known around the New York But I thinking of her and how we used to be down The of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her hair Though gone physically, it was still there I had to do something, because the was too much to bear So I went and visited the building she used to live The world looks a lot different you do a bid Your way of done changed While primitive minds are still stuck in the same Like her cousin who was on the corner cocaine Stepped in the lobby and tapped the next to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, like a mother But her facial changed, when I asked about her daughter
4] She told me that there was a note for me, was left behind She had left it there waiting, for such a time I was to ask about it but she brought it up first I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and then she She told me where the was and I started thinking the worst Reversed my position, stepped over and opened the And enough there was an envelope with my name on the floor "Nobody you more than me carino" is what the letter said
"By the time you get to read this, I'll be dead But you left in '97 a part of me went to Heaven I thank God at least I got to know what love was But it hurt me, to see what love really does 'Cause though we never made love, you were all that there was It was I loved you so much that I had to make you leave You made me the way I thought, you made me want to believe And I slipped up, and I let you get close to me It was hard to not be openly when people to me This was not the way I thought my was supposed to be Baby you see, I had a blood transfusion that left me with HIV didn't exist for me since late in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I given myself to you I cried in the because there was no one else but you Promise that you'll me in paradise inevitably No matter what, I'll your love forever with me"
What happened for the rest of the day is still a But I remember wishing I was dead, instead of her She was buried on 3rd The ends without a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking in love with people Hold the person that you love closely if next to you The one you love, not the person that has sex with you Appreciate to the fullest extent, and then beyond 'Cause you never really know what you got, until gone