1] She was on her way to a college graduate Wouldn't even to talk to the average kid The type of I'd sit and contemplate marriage with Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was for hire Disciplined, intellectual what I desire Flyer than Hayek or Jennifer Lopez Everyone told me, kickin' it to her was At first I thought, she didn't mess with broke kids The thug niggaz always talking about, how they smoke But the rich-sniff-coke got no play "I'm not even interested" is her body language would say Everyone around the way, up trying to get in it It didn't matter how good your game was, she with it All the block bitches was jealous, but admit it shit, and deny to everyone that they did it 'Cause they regreted the long list of that they let hit it And no one ever gave them shit except and did-dick Smoking weed with of envy, whenever they lit it She spoke intelligently and they bit it, always trying to But when they to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was sick in the head for her, and there wasn't a
[Hook - Jean Don't you know that, waits for no man And our fate, all planned I'm just to know you To have and have lost, just to hold you all night Can't find, a why God came, you and I If I had the again, I'd never let you go Hold to your love, 'cause you never know
2] Her are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad I to talk to her occasionally, and she was glad That I wasn't just nigga trying to get in it So now and then we'd stop and talk for a minute I didn't have a gimmick so the minutes turned to On her birthday, I gave her a with flowers Then I took her out to after her cousin's baby shower We talked about, power to the and such We spent time together but it was never enough I never tried to sneak a touch, or even cop a I was too interested, in it real honest and complete, she would always call me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new book to every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the expression of my when I speak It was because of her, I even deaded all of my She convinced me, to hangin' out on the streets To stop robbin' and stealin', from people you Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Zoo, Museo del barrio and the too Got to the where I was either with her or my crew So I one day, to tell her my feelings was true I couldn't live without her so I her, facing my fears But honey's only response, was a full of tears She could only sob hysterically, holding me I tried to speak, but she wouldn't until I left sight I felt like a moth who got too close to the light Except I didn't burn, I cold after that night
3] I went on with my life, college and my Ended up locked up like an for a year Where the C.O.'s talk to you they were the overseer Then I got sent to the hole, my exit was near At night in my cell, I'd my eyes and I'd see her her close in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared Just an empty cell the state gave me parole In the summer, came back, in and on track But the of the matter, is I still felt cold after my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real niggaz would catch me thinkin', out of my lots of different women, but I still felt alone Relatively well-known around the New York But I kept of her and how we used to be down The sound of her voice, and the beautiful of her hair Though gone physically, it was still there I had to do something, the shit was too much to bear So I and visited the building where she used to live The looks a lot different after you do a bid Your way of life changed While primitive minds are still in the same game Like her who was on the corner slangin' cocaine Stepped in the lobby and tapped the button next to her last Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, like a oughta But her facial expression changed, when I about her daughter
4] She told me that there was a note for me, that was behind She had left it waiting, for such a long time I was inclined to ask about it but she brought it up I saw a tear up in her eye, and then she cursed She told me where the was and I started thinking the worst my position, stepped over and opened the door And sure enough there was an with my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more than me carino" is the letter said
"By the time you get to this, I'll probably be dead But when you in '97 a part of me went to Heaven I God at least I got to know what love really was But it hurt me, to see what true really does 'Cause even though we never made love, you all that there was It was I loved you so much that I had to make you leave You made me the way I thought, you made me want to believe And then I slipped up, and I let you get to me It was hard to not be openly people spoke to me This was not the way I thought my was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion that me with HIV Hope didn't exist for me since in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I given myself to you I cried in the hospital because was no one else but you Promise you'll meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, I'll keep your love forever me"
happened for the rest of the day is still a blur But I remember that I was dead, instead of her She was buried on 3rd The story without a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking fall in love people Hold the person that you closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the person simply has sex with you Appreciate them to the extent, and then beyond 'Cause you never really know what you got, it's gone