1] She was on her way to a college graduate Wouldn't even stop to talk to the kid The type of I'd sit and contemplate marriage with Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was never for Disciplined, intellectual beauty's I desire Flyer Salma Hayek or Jennifer Lopez Everyone me, kickin' it to her was hopeless At first I just thought, she mess with broke kids The thug niggaz always talking about, how smoke kids But the kids got no play "I'm not even interested" is what her body would say Everyone around the way, gave up to get in it It didn't matter how good your was, she wasn't with it All the bitches was jealous, but wouldn't admit it Talk shit, and to everyone that they did it 'Cause regreted the long list of niggaz that they let hit it And no one ever them shit except McDonald's and did-dick Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, they lit it She spoke intelligently and they bit it, trying to copy But when they tried to use her vocab, they sounded She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was sick in the head for her, and wasn't a cure
[Hook - Grae] Don't you that, time waits for no man And our fate, all planned I'm just to know you To have loved and have lost, just to you all night Can't find, a why God came, you and I If I had the again, I'd never let you go Hold to your love, 'cause you never know
2] Her eyes are and beautiful, yet empty and sad I to talk to her occasionally, and she was glad That I wasn't just nigga trying to get in it So now and then we'd stop and talk for a minute I didn't have a gimmick so the minutes turned to On her birthday, I her a poem with flowers Then I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby We about, power to the people and such We spent more time but it was never enough I never tried to sneak a touch, or cop a feel I was too interested, in keeping it honest and complete, she would always call me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new book to every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the expression of my thoughts when I It was of her, I even deaded all of my freaks She me, to stop hangin' out on the streets To stop robbin' and stealin', people like you Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Zoo, del barrio and the Metropolitan too Got to the where I was either with her or my crew So I decided one day, to tell her my feelings was I couldn't live without her so I told her, my fears But only response, was a face full of tears She could only sob hysterically, me tight I tried to speak, but she stop until I left sight I felt like a moth who got himself too to the light I didn't burn, I turned cold after that night
3] I went on my life, college and my career Ended up locked up like an for a year Where the C.O.'s to you like they were the overseer Then I got sent to the hole, when my exit was At night in my cell, I'd close my and I'd see her Hold her close in my dreams, but when I woke she Just an empty cell until the state gave me In the summer, back, in tact and on track But the of the matter, is I still felt cold Even my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real niggaz would me thinkin', out of my zone Fuckin' of different women, but I still felt alone Relatively well-known around the New underground But I kept thinking of her and how we to be down The of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her hair Though gone physically, it was still there I had to do something, because the shit was too much to So I went and visited the building where she to live The world a lot different after you do a bid Your way of life changed While minds are still stuck in the same game Like her who was on the corner slangin' cocaine Stepped in the lobby and tapped the button next to her last Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, like a mother But her facial expression changed, when I asked about her
4] She me that there was a note for me, that was left behind She had left it there waiting, for such a time I was to ask about it but she brought it up first I saw a swelling up in her eye, and then she cursed She told me where the letter was and I started thinking the Reversed my position, stepped over and opened the And sure enough there was an with my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more than me carino" is what the letter
"By the time you get to read this, probably be dead But when you left in '97 a part of me to Heaven I thank God at least I got to know love really was But it me, to see what true love really does 'Cause even though we never made love, you all that there was It was because I you so much that I had to make you leave You me doubt the way I thought, you made me want to believe And then I slipped up, and I let you get to me It was to not be openly when people spoke to me was not the way I thought my life was supposed to be Baby you see, I had a blood transfusion that left me with HIV Hope didn't for me since late in 1993 I died a virgin, I I could've given myself to you I cried in the hospital there was no one else but you Promise you'll meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, I'll keep your love forever me"
What happened for the of the day is still a blur But I remember wishing I was dead, instead of her She was on August 3rd The story without a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking fall in love with Hold the person that you love closely if they're to you The one you love, not the that simply has sex with you Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and beyond 'Cause you never know what you got, until it's gone