1] She was on her way to a college graduate Wouldn't even stop to to the average kid The of latina I'd sit and contemplate marriage with Fuck the horse and shit, her love was never for hire Disciplined, intellectual what I desire Flyer than Hayek or Jennifer Lopez Everyone me, kickin' it to her was hopeless At first I just thought, she didn't mess with broke The thug niggaz always about, how they smoke kids But the rich-sniff-coke kids got no "I'm not interested" is what her body language would say Everyone around the way, gave up to get in it It matter how good your game was, she wasn't with it All the block bitches was jealous, but admit it Talk shit, and deny to that they did it they regreted the long list of niggaz that they let hit it And no one ever gave them except McDonald's and did-dick Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, whenever lit it She intelligently and they bit it, always trying to copy But they tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, and pure I was sick in the head for her, and there wasn't a
[Hook - Jean Don't you know that, waits for no man And our fate, it's all I'm just to know you To have loved and have lost, to hold you all night Can't find, a why God came, you and I If I had the again, I'd never let you go Hold to your love, 'cause you never know
2] Her are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad I used to to her occasionally, and she was glad That I wasn't just nigga trying to get in it So every now and then we'd and talk for a minute I didn't have a gimmick so the turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a with flowers Then I her out to dinner after her cousin's baby shower We talked about, power to the and such We more time together but it was never enough I tried to sneak a touch, or even cop a feel I was too interested, in it real Perfectly honest and complete, she would call me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new book to read every 2 or 3 changing the expression of my thoughts when I speak It was of her, I even deaded all of my freaks She convinced me, to stop hangin' out on the To robbin' and stealin', from people like you Instead I took her out to the and the Bronx Zoo, Museo del and the Metropolitan too Got to the point where I was either her or my crew So I decided one day, to her my feelings was true I couldn't live her so I told her, facing my fears But honey's only response, was a face full of She only sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop I left sight I felt a moth who got himself too close to the light Except I didn't burn, I turned cold after that
3] I went on my life, college and my career up locked up like an animal for a year Where the C.O.'s to you like they were the overseer Then I got to the hole, when my exit was near At night in my cell, I'd my eyes and I'd see her her close in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared Just an empty until the state gave me parole In the summer, came back, in and on track But the fact of the matter, is I still felt Even my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real niggaz would me thinkin', out of my zone Fuckin' lots of different women, but I still alone Relatively well-known the New York underground But I kept thinking of her and how we used to be The sound of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her Though physically, somehow it was still there I had to do something, because the was too much to bear So I went and the building where she used to live The world looks a lot different you do a bid Your way of life changed While primitive minds are still stuck in the game Like her cousin who was on the corner slangin' Stepped in the lobby and the button next to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, a mother oughta But her expression changed, when I asked about her daughter
4] She told me that was a note for me, that was left behind She had left it there waiting, for a long time I was inclined to ask about it but she brought it up I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and she cursed She told me where the was and I started thinking the worst Reversed my position, stepped and opened the door And sure enough was an envelope with my name on the floor "Nobody you more than me carino" is what the letter said
"By the time you get to read this, I'll be dead But when you left in '97 a part of me went to I thank God at least I got to what love really was But it hurt me, to see what love really does 'Cause even we never made love, you were all that there was It was because I loved you so much I had to make you leave You made me the way I thought, you made me want to believe And then I slipped up, and I let you get to me It was to not be openly when people spoke to me This was not the way I thought my was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a transfusion that left me with HIV Hope didn't for me since late in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I could've myself to you I cried in the hospital because there was no one but you Promise that you'll meet me in inevitably No matter what, I'll your love forever with me"
What happened for the rest of the day is a blur But I remember wishing I was dead, instead of her She was buried on 3rd The story without a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking fall in love people Hold the person that you love if they're next to you The one you love, not the person simply has sex with you them to the fullest extent, and then beyond 'Cause you never really know what you got, until gone