1] She was on her way to a college graduate Wouldn't even to talk to the average kid The type of latina I'd sit and contemplate with Fuck the and carriage shit, her love was never for hire Disciplined, beauty's what I desire Flyer than Hayek or Jennifer Lopez told me, kickin' it to her was hopeless At first I just thought, she didn't mess with broke The thug niggaz always about, how they smoke kids But the rich-sniff-coke got no play "I'm not even interested" is what her body language say Everyone around the way, gave up to get in it It matter how good your game was, she wasn't with it All the block bitches was jealous, but admit it Talk shit, and deny to that they did it 'Cause they regreted the list of niggaz that they let hit it And no one ever gave them shit except and did-dick weed with thoughts of envy, whenever they lit it She spoke intelligently and they bit it, always to copy But when tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was sick in the head for her, and wasn't a cure
[Hook - Grae] Don't you know that, waits for no man And our fate, it's all I'm just to know you To have loved and lost, just to hold you all night find, a reason why God came, you and I If I had the again, I'd never let you go Hold tight to love, 'cause you never know
2] Her are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad I used to to her occasionally, and she was glad That I just another nigga trying to get in it So every now and then stop and talk for a minute I didn't have a gimmick so the turned to hours On her birthday, I her a poem with flowers Then I took her out to after her cousin's baby shower We talked about, to the people and such We spent more together but it was never enough I never tried to sneak a touch, or cop a feel I was too interested, in keeping it Perfectly honest and complete, she always call me "carino," And Technique, bought me a new book to read every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the of my thoughts when I speak It was because of her, I deaded all of my freaks She convinced me, to stop out on the streets To stop robbin' and stealin', from people you Instead I took her out to the and the Bronx Zoo, del barrio and the Metropolitan too Got to the point where I was either with her or my So I decided one day, to tell her my feelings was I couldn't without her so I told her, facing my fears But honey's only response, was a full of tears She could only sob hysterically, me tight I to speak, but she wouldn't stop until I left sight I felt like a moth who got himself too close to the Except I burn, I turned cold after that night
3] I went on with my life, college and my Ended up locked up an animal for a year Where the C.O.'s talk to you like they the overseer Then I got sent to the hole, when my exit was At in my cell, I'd close my eyes and I'd see her her close in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared Just an empty until the state gave me parole In the summer, came back, in and on track But the fact of the matter, is I still felt Even after my mother, hugged me, at home My real would catch me thinkin', out of my zone lots of different women, but I still felt alone Relatively around the New York underground But I kept thinking of her and how we to be down The sound of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her Though gone physically, somehow it was there I had to do something, because the shit was too much to So I and visited the building where she used to live The looks a lot different after you do a bid way of life done changed While minds are still stuck in the same game Like her cousin who was on the corner slangin' in the lobby and tapped the button next to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, like a mother But her expression changed, when I asked about her daughter
4] She told me there was a note for me, that was left behind She had left it there waiting, for such a long I was to ask about it but she brought it up first I saw a tear up in her eye, and then she cursed She told me the letter was and I started thinking the worst Reversed my position, stepped and opened the door And sure enough there was an envelope with my name on the "Nobody loves you more me carino" is what the letter said
"By the time you get to read this, I'll probably be But when you left in '97 a of me went to Heaven I thank God at least I got to know what love was But it me, to see what true love really does even though we never made love, you were all that there was It was I loved you so much that I had to make you leave You made me doubt the way I thought, you made me to believe And then I slipped up, and I let you get to me It was hard to not be openly people spoke to me This was not the way I thought my was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion left me with HIV didn't exist for me since late in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I could've given to you I cried in the hospital because there was no one but you Promise that meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, I'll keep your love forever me"
What happened for the rest of the day is still a But I remember that I was dead, instead of her She was buried on 3rd The ends without a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking fall in with people Hold the person that you love closely if they're to you The one you love, not the that simply has sex with you Appreciate to the fullest extent, and then beyond 'Cause you really know what you got, until it's gone