1] She was on her way to a college graduate Wouldn't even stop to to the average kid The type of latina I'd sit and contemplate marriage Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was never for Disciplined, beauty's what I desire Flyer than Salma or Jennifer Lopez Everyone me, kickin' it to her was hopeless At first I just thought, she didn't mess with broke The thug niggaz always talking about, how they kids But the rich-sniff-coke got no play "I'm not interested" is what her body language would say around the way, gave up trying to get in it It matter how good your game was, she wasn't with it All the block was jealous, but wouldn't admit it Talk shit, and deny to everyone that did it 'Cause they regreted the long list of niggaz they let hit it And no one ever gave shit except McDonald's and did-dick Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, whenever lit it She spoke intelligently and they bit it, trying to copy But when they tried to use her vocab, sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, and pure I was sick in the head for her, and there a cure
[Hook - Grae] Don't you that, time waits for no man And our fate, it's all I'm blessed to know you To have loved and have lost, just to hold you all Can't find, a why God came, you and I If I had the again, I'd never let you go Hold tight to your love, 'cause you never
2] Her are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad I to talk to her occasionally, and she was glad That I wasn't just nigga trying to get in it So now and then we'd stop and talk for a minute I didn't a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a poem with I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby shower We talked about, to the people and such We spent more time together but it was enough I never tried to a touch, or even cop a feel I was too interested, in it real Perfectly honest and complete, she would always me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new to read every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the expression of my thoughts when I It was because of her, I even deaded all of my She convinced me, to hangin' out on the streets To robbin' and stealin', from people like you Instead I took her out to the and the Bronx Zoo, del barrio and the Metropolitan too Got to the where I was either with her or my crew So I decided one day, to her my feelings was true I live without her so I told her, facing my fears But honey's only response, was a face full of She only sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't until I left sight I felt like a moth who got himself too to the light Except I burn, I turned cold after that night
3] I on with my life, college and my career Ended up up like an animal for a year the C.O.'s talk to you like they were the overseer Then I got sent to the hole, when my exit was At night in my cell, I'd my eyes and I'd see her Hold her in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared an empty cell until the state gave me parole In the summer, came back, in tact and on But the fact of the matter, is I felt cold Even my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real niggaz would me thinkin', out of my zone Fuckin' lots of women, but I still felt alone Relatively well-known the New York underground But I kept thinking of her and how we used to be The of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her hair gone physically, somehow it was still there I had to do something, because the shit was too much to So I went and the building where she used to live The world looks a lot different you do a bid Your way of life changed While primitive minds are still in the same game Like her cousin who was on the slangin' cocaine Stepped in the lobby and tapped the button next to her name Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, a mother oughta But her facial expression changed, when I asked her daughter
4] She told me there was a note for me, that was left behind She had left it there waiting, for such a time I was to ask about it but she brought it up first I saw a swelling up in her eye, and then she cursed She told me where the was and I started thinking the worst Reversed my position, stepped and opened the door And sure enough there was an with my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more than me carino" is what the said
"By the time you get to this, I'll probably be dead But when you in '97 a part of me went to Heaven I thank God at least I got to know what love was But it hurt me, to see what true really does even though we never made love, you were all that there was It was because I loved you so that I had to make you leave You made me doubt the way I thought, you me want to believe And I slipped up, and I let you get close to me It was to not be openly when people spoke to me was not the way I thought my life was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion left me with HIV Hope didn't exist for me late in 1993 I a virgin, I wish I could've given myself to you I cried in the because there was no one else but you Promise you'll meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, keep your love forever with me"
What happened for the rest of the day is a blur But I wishing that I was dead, instead of her She was buried on 3rd The story ends without a And now you know why Technique, don't fall in love with people Hold the person that you closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the person that simply has sex you Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and beyond 'Cause you never know what you got, until it's gone