1] She was on her way to a college graduate Wouldn't even stop to to the average kid The type of latina I'd sit and marriage with Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her was never for hire Disciplined, intellectual beauty's I desire than Salma Hayek or Jennifer Lopez Everyone told me, it to her was hopeless At I just thought, she didn't mess with broke kids The thug niggaz always talking about, how smoke kids But the rich-sniff-coke kids got no "I'm not even interested" is her body language would say Everyone around the way, up trying to get in it It matter how good your game was, she wasn't with it All the block bitches was jealous, but wouldn't it Talk shit, and deny to everyone they did it 'Cause they regreted the list of niggaz that they let hit it And no one ever gave them shit except and did-dick Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, whenever lit it She spoke intelligently and they bit it, always trying to But when they tried to use her vocab, sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was sick in the head for her, and there wasn't a
[Hook - Jean Don't you know that, time for no man And our fate, all planned I'm blessed just to you To loved and have lost, just to hold you all night Can't find, a why God came, you and I If I had the chance again, I'd let you go Hold tight to your love, you never know
2] Her are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad I used to talk to her occasionally, and she was I wasn't just another nigga trying to get in it So every now and we'd stop and talk for a minute I didn't have a so the minutes turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a with flowers I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby shower We about, power to the people and such We spent time together but it was never enough I never to sneak a touch, or even cop a feel I was too interested, in keeping it honest and complete, she would always call me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new book to read 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the of my thoughts when I speak It was of her, I even deaded all of my freaks She convinced me, to hangin' out on the streets To stop robbin' and stealin', from like you I took her out to the Apollo and the Bronx Zoo, Museo del barrio and the too Got to the where I was either with her or my crew So I decided one day, to tell her my was true I live without her so I told her, facing my fears But honey's only response, was a face full of She only sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop I left sight I like a moth who got himself too close to the light Except I burn, I turned cold after that night
3] I went on my life, college and my career Ended up locked up an animal for a year Where the C.O.'s to you like they were the overseer Then I got sent to the hole, when my was near At night in my cell, I'd my eyes and I'd see her her close in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared Just an empty cell until the gave me parole In the summer, came back, in and on track But the fact of the matter, is I still felt Even my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real niggaz would catch me thinkin', out of my Fuckin' of different women, but I still felt alone Relatively around the New York underground But I kept thinking of her and how we to be down The sound of her voice, and the beautiful of her hair Though physically, somehow it was still there I had to do something, because the shit was too to bear So I went and visited the building she used to live The world looks a lot different you do a bid Your way of life changed While primitive minds are still stuck in the same Like her who was on the corner slangin' cocaine Stepped in the lobby and tapped the button next to her name Her mom me up and hugged me up, like a mother oughta But her facial expression changed, when I about her daughter
4] She told me that there was a note for me, that was left She had it there waiting, for such a long time I was to ask about it but she brought it up first I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and she cursed She told me where the letter was and I thinking the worst Reversed my position, stepped over and the door And sure enough there was an envelope with my name on the "Nobody loves you more me carino" is what the letter said
"By the time you get to read this, I'll probably be But when you left in '97 a part of me to Heaven I God at least I got to know what love really was But it hurt me, to see what true really does 'Cause even though we never made love, you all that there was It was because I loved you so much that I had to you leave You made me doubt the way I thought, you made me want to And then I slipped up, and I let you get to me It was hard to not be openly people spoke to me This was not the way I my life was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion that me with HIV Hope didn't exist for me late in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I could've myself to you I cried in the hospital because was no one else but you Promise that meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, keep your love forever with me"
What for the rest of the day is still a blur But I wishing that I was dead, instead of her She was buried on 3rd The story without a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking in love with people Hold the person that you love closely if next to you The one you love, not the that simply has sex with you Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and then 'Cause you never really know what you got, until gone