1] She was on her way to becoming a graduate Wouldn't stop to talk to the average kid The type of latina I'd sit and marriage with Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was never for Disciplined, intellectual what I desire Flyer than Salma Hayek or Jennifer Everyone me, kickin' it to her was hopeless At first I just thought, she didn't mess broke kids The niggaz always talking about, how they smoke kids But the rich-sniff-coke kids got no "I'm not even interested" is what her body language say Everyone around the way, gave up to get in it It didn't matter how good game was, she wasn't with it All the block bitches was jealous, but admit it Talk shit, and deny to everyone they did it 'Cause they regreted the long of niggaz that they let hit it And no one ever gave them except McDonald's and did-dick Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, they lit it She spoke intelligently and they bit it, always trying to But when they tried to use her vocab, they sounded She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was in the head for her, and there wasn't a cure
- Jean Grae] Don't you that, time waits for no man And our fate, it's all I'm just to know you To loved and have lost, just to hold you all night find, a reason why God came, you and I If I had the chance again, I'd let you go Hold tight to your love, 'cause you know
2] Her are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad I used to to her occasionally, and she was glad That I just another nigga trying to get in it So every now and we'd stop and talk for a minute I have a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a poem with Then I took her out to after her cousin's baby shower We talked about, power to the people and We spent more time together but it was never I never to sneak a touch, or even cop a feel I was too interested, in it real Perfectly honest and complete, she would always me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new book to every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the expression of my thoughts I speak It was of her, I even deaded all of my freaks She convinced me, to hangin' out on the streets To stop robbin' and stealin', from people you Instead I her out to the Apollo and the Bronx Zoo, Museo del and the Metropolitan too Got to the point where I was either with her or my So I decided one day, to tell her my was true I couldn't live without her so I her, facing my fears But only response, was a face full of tears She only sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop until I sight I felt like a moth who got himself too close to the Except I didn't burn, I turned cold after that
3] I went on with my life, college and my up locked up like an animal for a year Where the C.O.'s talk to you like they the overseer Then I got to the hole, when my exit was near At in my cell, I'd close my eyes and I'd see her Hold her close in my dreams, but when I she disappeared Just an empty cell until the state me parole In the summer, came back, in and on track But the of the matter, is I still felt cold Even after my mother, me, cryin' at home My real niggaz catch me thinkin', out of my zone Fuckin' lots of different women, but I still alone Relatively well-known around the New York But I kept thinking of her and how we to be down The sound of her voice, and the beautiful of her hair gone physically, somehow it was still there I had to do something, because the shit was too to bear So I and visited the building where she used to live The looks a lot different after you do a bid Your way of done changed While primitive minds are still stuck in the same Like her cousin who was on the slangin' cocaine Stepped in the and tapped the button next to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and me up, like a mother oughta But her facial expression changed, when I asked her daughter
4] She told me that was a note for me, that was left behind She had it there waiting, for such a long time I was to ask about it but she brought it up first I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and she cursed She told me the letter was and I started thinking the worst Reversed my position, stepped over and opened the And sure enough there was an envelope with my on the floor "Nobody loves you than me carino" is what the letter said
"By the time you get to read this, probably be dead But when you in '97 a part of me went to Heaven I God at least I got to know what love really was But it hurt me, to see true love really does 'Cause even though we never made love, you were all there was It was because I loved you so much that I had to make you You made me doubt the way I thought, you made me want to And I slipped up, and I let you get close to me It was to not be openly when people spoke to me This was not the way I thought my life was to be Baby don't you see, I had a transfusion that left me with HIV didn't exist for me since late in 1993 I a virgin, I wish I could've given myself to you I cried in the hospital because was no one else but you Promise you'll meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, keep your love forever with me"
What happened for the rest of the day is a blur But I remember wishing I was dead, instead of her She was on August 3rd The ends without a sequel And now you why Technique, don't fucking fall in love with people Hold the that you love closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the that simply has sex with you them to the fullest extent, and then beyond 'Cause you never know what you got, until it's gone