1] She was on her way to becoming a graduate Wouldn't even stop to to the average kid The type of latina I'd sit and contemplate marriage Fuck the horse and shit, her love was never for hire Disciplined, intellectual beauty's what I Flyer Salma Hayek or Jennifer Lopez Everyone told me, it to her was hopeless At I just thought, she didn't mess with broke kids The niggaz always talking about, how they smoke kids But the rich-sniff-coke kids got no "I'm not even interested" is what her language would say Everyone around the way, gave up to get in it It didn't matter how good game was, she wasn't with it All the block was jealous, but wouldn't admit it Talk shit, and to everyone that they did it 'Cause they regreted the long list of niggaz that let hit it And no one ever gave them shit except and did-dick Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, whenever lit it She intelligently and they bit it, always trying to copy But when they tried to use her vocab, they sloppy She had a style, all her own, and pure I was sick in the head for her, and there wasn't a
[Hook - Jean Don't you that, time waits for no man And our fate, all planned I'm just to know you To loved and have lost, just to hold you all night Can't find, a why God came, you and I If I had the again, I'd never let you go Hold tight to your love, 'cause you know
2] Her eyes are brown and beautiful, yet and sad I used to to her occasionally, and she was glad That I wasn't another nigga trying to get in it So every now and then we'd stop and for a minute I have a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a poem with I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby shower We about, power to the people and such We spent more time but it was never enough I never tried to sneak a touch, or even cop a I was too interested, in it real Perfectly honest and complete, she would call me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new book to every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the expression of my thoughts when I It was because of her, I deaded all of my freaks She convinced me, to stop hangin' out on the To robbin' and stealin', from people like you Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Zoo, Museo del and the Metropolitan too Got to the point where I was either with her or my So I decided one day, to tell her my feelings was I couldn't live her so I told her, facing my fears But honey's response, was a face full of tears She could only sob hysterically, me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop I left sight I felt like a moth who got too close to the light Except I didn't burn, I turned cold after that
3] I on with my life, college and my career Ended up locked up an animal for a year Where the C.O.'s talk to you like were the overseer Then I got sent to the hole, my exit was near At night in my cell, I'd close my and I'd see her her close in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared Just an empty cell until the state gave me In the summer, back, in tact and on track But the fact of the matter, is I felt cold after my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real niggaz would catch me thinkin', out of my Fuckin' lots of different women, but I felt alone Relatively well-known around the New underground But I kept thinking of her and how we used to be The sound of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her Though physically, somehow it was still there I had to do something, the shit was too much to bear So I went and visited the building where she to live The world looks a lot after you do a bid Your way of life changed While primitive minds are still stuck in the game her cousin who was on the corner slangin' cocaine Stepped in the and tapped the button next to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, like a mother But her facial expression changed, when I asked her daughter
4] She told me that there was a note for me, was left behind She had it there waiting, for such a long time I was inclined to ask about it but she brought it up I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and she cursed She told me the letter was and I started thinking the worst Reversed my position, stepped over and the door And sure enough there was an envelope my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more than me carino" is the letter said
"By the time you get to this, I'll probably be dead But when you left in '97 a part of me to Heaven I thank God at least I got to know what really was But it hurt me, to see what true love does 'Cause even though we never made love, you were all that was It was because I you so much that I had to make you leave You made me doubt the way I thought, you made me want to And then I slipped up, and I let you get to me It was hard to not be when people spoke to me This was not the way I thought my life was to be Baby you see, I had a blood transfusion that left me with HIV Hope didn't exist for me since in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I given myself to you I in the hospital because there was no one else but you that you'll meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, I'll keep your love forever me"
What happened for the of the day is still a blur But I remember wishing that I was dead, of her She was on August 3rd The story ends without a And now you know why Technique, don't fucking fall in love people Hold the person that you love if they're next to you The one you love, not the person that simply has sex you Appreciate them to the extent, and then beyond 'Cause you never know what you got, until it's gone