1] She was on her way to becoming a college Wouldn't even stop to to the average kid The of latina I'd sit and contemplate marriage with Fuck the horse and shit, her love was never for hire Disciplined, intellectual beauty's what I Flyer than Salma Hayek or Jennifer Everyone told me, it to her was hopeless At first I just thought, she didn't mess with broke The niggaz always talking about, how they smoke kids But the kids got no play "I'm not even interested" is what her body language say around the way, gave up trying to get in it It didn't matter how good your game was, she with it All the block bitches was jealous, but wouldn't it Talk shit, and deny to everyone that did it 'Cause they the long list of niggaz that they let hit it And no one ever gave shit except McDonald's and did-dick weed with thoughts of envy, whenever they lit it She intelligently and they bit it, always trying to copy But they tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, and pure I was sick in the head for her, and there wasn't a
- Jean Grae] Don't you know that, time for no man And our fate, all planned I'm just to know you To have loved and have lost, just to you all night Can't find, a why God came, you and I If I had the chance again, I'd let you go tight to your love, 'cause you never know
2] Her eyes are and beautiful, yet empty and sad I used to talk to her occasionally, and she was That I wasn't just nigga trying to get in it So every now and then we'd stop and talk for a I didn't a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a poem flowers I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby shower We talked about, to the people and such We spent time together but it was never enough I never tried to sneak a touch, or cop a feel I was too interested, in it real Perfectly and complete, she would always call me "carino," And never Technique, me a new book to read every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the expression of my when I speak It was because of her, I even all of my freaks She convinced me, to stop out on the streets To stop robbin' and stealin', from people you Instead I her out to the Apollo and the Bronx Zoo, Museo del barrio and the too Got to the point where I was either with her or my So I one day, to tell her my feelings was true I couldn't live her so I told her, facing my fears But only response, was a face full of tears She could sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop I left sight I felt like a who got himself too close to the light Except I didn't burn, I turned after that night
3] I went on with my life, and my career Ended up up like an animal for a year the C.O.'s talk to you like they were the overseer Then I got sent to the hole, my exit was near At night in my cell, I'd my eyes and I'd see her Hold her close in my dreams, but I woke she disappeared Just an cell until the state gave me parole In the summer, came back, in and on track But the fact of the matter, is I felt cold Even my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real niggaz catch me thinkin', out of my zone Fuckin' lots of women, but I still felt alone Relatively well-known around the New York But I kept thinking of her and how we used to be The sound of her voice, and the smell of her hair Though gone physically, it was still there I had to do something, because the was too much to bear So I went and visited the building where she to live The world a lot different after you do a bid Your way of done changed While primitive minds are still stuck in the same her cousin who was on the corner slangin' cocaine Stepped in the and tapped the button next to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and me up, like a mother oughta But her facial expression changed, when I about her daughter
4] She told me that was a note for me, that was left behind She had left it there waiting, for such a time I was inclined to ask about it but she brought it up I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and then she She told me where the letter was and I started the worst my position, stepped over and opened the door And sure enough was an envelope with my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more than me carino" is the letter said
"By the time you get to read this, I'll be dead But you left in '97 a part of me went to Heaven I thank God at I got to know what love really was But it hurt me, to see what true love does 'Cause even though we never made love, you all that there was It was I loved you so much that I had to make you leave You made me doubt the way I thought, you made me to believe And then I up, and I let you get close to me It was hard to not be openly when spoke to me This was not the way I thought my life was to be Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion that me with HIV Hope exist for me since late in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I could've myself to you I cried in the because there was no one else but you Promise that you'll meet me in paradise No what, I'll keep your love forever with me"
What happened for the rest of the day is still a But I remember that I was dead, instead of her She was buried on 3rd The story ends a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking fall in with people Hold the person you love closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the that simply has sex with you Appreciate them to the extent, and then beyond 'Cause you never really know what you got, it's gone