1] She was on her way to becoming a graduate Wouldn't even stop to talk to the kid The type of I'd sit and contemplate marriage with Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was never for Disciplined, beauty's what I desire Flyer than Salma Hayek or Lopez Everyone me, kickin' it to her was hopeless At first I just thought, she didn't with broke kids The niggaz always talking about, how they smoke kids But the kids got no play "I'm not even interested" is her body language would say Everyone around the way, gave up to get in it It didn't how good your game was, she wasn't with it All the block bitches was jealous, but admit it Talk shit, and deny to that they did it 'Cause they regreted the long list of niggaz they let hit it And no one ever gave them except McDonald's and did-dick Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, they lit it She intelligently and they bit it, always trying to copy But they tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was sick in the head for her, and there a cure
- Jean Grae] Don't you know that, time for no man And our fate, all planned I'm just to know you To have loved and have lost, just to hold you all find, a reason why God came, you and I If I had the chance again, I'd let you go tight to your love, 'cause you never know
2] Her eyes are and beautiful, yet empty and sad I used to to her occasionally, and she was glad That I just another nigga trying to get in it So every now and we'd stop and talk for a minute I didn't have a gimmick so the turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a poem flowers Then I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby We talked about, power to the people and We spent time together but it was never enough I tried to sneak a touch, or even cop a feel I was too interested, in it real Perfectly honest and complete, she always call me "carino," And Technique, bought me a new book to read every 2 or 3 weeks Forever the expression of my thoughts when I speak It was of her, I even deaded all of my freaks She convinced me, to hangin' out on the streets To robbin' and stealin', from people like you I took her out to the Apollo and the Bronx Zoo, Museo del and the Metropolitan too Got to the where I was either with her or my crew So I decided one day, to tell her my feelings was I live without her so I told her, facing my fears But honey's only response, was a full of tears She only sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop I left sight I like a moth who got himself too close to the light Except I didn't burn, I turned cold after that
3] I on with my life, college and my career Ended up locked up like an animal for a Where the C.O.'s talk to you they were the overseer Then I got sent to the hole, when my was near At night in my cell, I'd close my and I'd see her Hold her in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared Just an empty cell until the state me parole In the summer, came back, in tact and on But the of the matter, is I still felt cold after my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real niggaz would catch me thinkin', out of my Fuckin' lots of different women, but I felt alone Relatively well-known around the New underground But I kept thinking of her and how we to be down The of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her hair Though physically, somehow it was still there I had to do something, because the shit was too to bear So I went and visited the where she used to live The world looks a lot after you do a bid Your way of life done While primitive minds are still stuck in the game her cousin who was on the corner slangin' cocaine Stepped in the lobby and tapped the next to her last name Her mom me up and hugged me up, like a mother oughta But her facial expression changed, when I about her daughter
4] She told me that there was a for me, that was left behind She had left it there waiting, for such a long I was inclined to ask about it but she brought it up I saw a tear up in her eye, and then she cursed She told me where the letter was and I started the worst Reversed my position, over and opened the door And enough there was an envelope with my name on the floor "Nobody you more than me carino" is what the letter said
"By the time you get to read this, I'll probably be But when you left in '97 a part of me to Heaven I thank God at least I got to what love really was But it hurt me, to see what true love really 'Cause even though we never love, you were all that there was It was because I loved you so that I had to make you leave You made me doubt the way I thought, you made me want to And then I slipped up, and I let you get to me It was hard to not be when people spoke to me This was not the way I my life was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion that me with HIV didn't exist for me since late in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I could've myself to you I cried in the hospital because was no one else but you Promise that you'll meet me in inevitably No what, I'll keep your love forever with me"
happened for the rest of the day is still a blur But I wishing that I was dead, instead of her She was on August 3rd The story ends a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking in love with people Hold the person that you closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the person that simply has sex you Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and then 'Cause you never really know what you got, until gone