Witness

Expose me for all that I am.
The man behind the masquerade,
I am my own false witness.

Fact resides solely in the depths of my mind...
and will I ever really let it come to surface?
You only see what I want you to see,
And you believe all that you're told

Serenity is a beautiful hoax a liar
I have the whole world convinced of my contentment
No truth in this, I've lost count of all the times
I made it home alive and wished I hadn't
Expose me for all that I am
The man behind the masquerade, I am my own false witness
I'm left to conquer the mountains in my mind, and I am my maker

Life is what's killing me.
I hate the fact that I'm just fine
Forever seeking anything to take responsibility
Life is what's killing me (life is what's killing me)
I hate the fact that I'm alive
Forever searching for my scapegoat because I refuse to face reality

At least I can say I tried,
to cherish every single day when I woke up and didn't want to die
I'd work my hands down to the bone
trying to stay suspended in those specific seconds
But I know I'd just be counting down the minutes until I'm miserable again