Lost

I've never told this to anyone
I've just tried to move past
But lately it seems that my insecurities have got the best of me
And I'm no longer in control
No one should ever have to feel like this
To feel like me

Even though the good I have outweighs the bad
the bad is what's leaving me with sleepless nights
I spend most of my time arguing with my own reflection
For no apparent reason
And it may seem as if I have all the answers
but I'm just as lost as you

I've spend the past few years trying to overcome my own misery
but these sort of things take time, and I'm running out of mine
So I will pray to a God that isn't there
to a world that doesn't hear, to anyone who will listen
to keep me from becoming everything
I promised myself that I would never be
I do not deserve this