Watch Me Now, I'm Calling

I'm closing up, I'm shutting down, I took a vow of silence
You won't hear me from now on, you'll only see the violence

I put some water into a pot and brought it to a boil
I poured it on my arm without any reflex of recoil
I made sure it'd miss my hand 'cause I need it to play in a band
I thought I would scream but I didn't feel a thing

Then I took some ice and the sharpest knife
And brought 'em to my room
I sat there thinking of you and what I ought to do

Then I picked a spot and numbed it up
'Cause carving can take some time
Then I dug your name out of my skin
'Cause in my head, you're in my mind, mind

Wo, I realized with some urgency, that all this is child's play
I need to learn to speak in a more effective way
But just what is the desired effect and why have I been stalling?
I want you to feel it, watch me now, I'm calling

Over at the hospital, they will dress my wounds
But they won't really heal until they're touched by you