Under Yellow Lights

My heart doesn't beat like it should
I can feel it in my throat
With every paralyzing through
Ever full-breath attempted note

No, I'm not the same
But what's that ever mean?
I'm too tired to contemplate
Each tick and miss that propel me

And I still over think
Every single thing

It's not like
Me to stay so far down
But everybody knows we can't take care of ourselves

Still having trouble but I've learned to sleep
Through shoulder pains and dreams of spitting bloody teeth
Reminding me
There are some things better left alone
And other truths
That only stay at bay so long

I'm taking steps to see
Maybe there's more to me

It's not like
Me to stay so far down
But everybody knows we can't take care of ourselves
Never been one to fall to circumstance
Not with all these helping hands that
Hold me up when
I can't understand myself

Skeletons removed
Through talks and time
Under the cover
Of yellow lights
It took a while for me to discover
That some best friends are simply better than others

It's not like
Me to stay so far down
But everybody knows we can't take care of ourselves
Never been one to fall to circumstance
Not with all these helping hands that
Hold me up when
I can't understand myself