These Days

I know I should be more grateful
Grateful for everything I have
And I know I should be less doubtful
But unfortunately I am just human

I'm in a big hole surrounded by fear
I'm in a deep dark hole, deep enough for me to disappear
But where should I go if earths the only place I know
All I know is I don't want this anymore
Living a life without knowing what it is that Im searching for

There were days where I would love to be somebody else
Days where I am fighting myself
There were days where I wish I could be a child again
And sometimes days where I wish they wouldn't last
Days where I wish I would be dead

Step back, stay away from me
Can't you respect that I only need my peace
These days I'm too weak to see
These days are all about me

I don't want to talk things out
Cause there were certain things we don't need to talk about
The silence in between will let you know what I mean
Each time I try to escape I pray to God not to let me fail
And to take my doubts away

There were days where I would love to be somebody else
Days where I am fighting myself
There were days where I wish I could be a child again
And sometimes days where I wish they wouldn't last
Days where I wish I would be dead