Yeah, this my life to back, top to bottom
Everything's around me days don't feel the same We all faith and lost family Why must we play this have mercy on me I've a sinnin' man Pull out my wings, off the bridge and crash in a plane If I land...
Know I die We live in my mind And I say We forever, still that life
There's a lot goin' on but I stick to the I love I never claimed to be a man but name a great man who was Consequences of my in the past years had me stressin' out It was like, May, I just moved to L.A., I was figure it out Medication for depression that I cut cold turkey, had the kid In an out in Hollywood, wildin' out like Nick Cannon Railin' pills out a dollar bill, on the bathroom floor Clean the whole mess up my nose, what the fuck I need a vacuum for? New York on my birthday, June 6th, 2014 I had that first with Hov, plus I brought out the whole team I drank whole bottle of D'usse Ty Ty gave me that night When we left the club after Rap Genius house me and shorty got a fight She came out the swingin', hit me in the jaw I was really tryna her off But I ended up in the with my hands around her neck I was trippin', Too to apologize or empathize, I blamed it all on her that she hit me first, even though she was the one hurt I was really just reflectin' all the hurt that I was feelin' the band's rejection When Kids These Days split, that shit felt a c-section And my infidelity and jealousy with on top of the amphetamines And the ecstasy had me tryna drown face in the Chesapeake The next month I dropped "Down on My Luck" and had goin' nuts But I couldn't even appreciate it at the time, I was goin' through too Now I had to million dollar label deals on the table for my records In Ibiza eatin' on the roof, tryna choose over breakfast Hov with the biddin' war, but I knew the Roc just felt right When I saw at Wireless, without T-Pain, still a good life so close when Mr. Hudson introduced me to him backstage He prolly don't even remember that shit... a bitch off Backpage But at that stage, I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting At the same time, I was windin' a low point in my addict phase The Adderall started off and I went into a deep writer's block All over a song that I couldn't that I wrote about signin' to the Roc Isn't that I was feelin' so psychotic With the whole world for me and my idol sayin' I got it Shit got bad out in L.A., so I moved home to my mom's basement Linked up with Smoko and Beatz and took it back to basics Then I wrote "Rage," that was me out through the pain And "U Mad," addressin' my with Natalie, it was too bad The violence and the lies slipped suicide my mental health I did acid in the studio one day and killed myself As I started to apart, certain stars started to align Oh Mys came to Chicago in January at the time He said was workin' on an album, and Uzi played him one of our songs He was tryna fly me out, nigga, it was goin' like the Dow Jones Pulled up to Westlake, day I was there, I recorded "Wolves" I knew I was the one, Lyor meetin' with the oracle But I had to get a handle 'fore the door was out on SNL All the niggas hatin' on me back home at me like, "FML" A lot of people comin' out the wood like, "Let's work," network All the pressure makin' my head hurt, the wouldn't let the meds work At this time like Feb. 1st to the 15th, and I'm still addicted Frustrated, writin' shit for Ye, tryna visualize else's vision Then he laid that on "U Mad" and we made the shit the single Ye and Hov gettin' into it me, tryna do a joint venture And G.O.O.D. Music still fam, but it's that Roc boy SAVEMONEY Took the bus out on the road for the Traffic tour, did a nights Cleaned out my closet, I got rid of all of my If you learn one from my journey, nigga it's don't stop believin' When this shit got so suffocatin' I could even keep breathin' my wrongs all in this song now I'd like to welcome y'all to my season Nigga I'm