Yeah, this just my to back, top to bottom
Everything's around me These days don't feel the We all lost and lost family Why must we play this Lord mercy on me been a sinnin' man Pull out my wings, jump off the and crash in a plane If I land...
Know I die We live in my mind And I say We forever, still that life
There's a lot goin' on but I to the ones I love I never claimed to be a perfect man but a great man who was of my actions in the past years had me stressin' out It was like, May, I just moved to L.A., I was figure it out Medication for depression that I cut turkey, had the kid manic In an episode out in Hollywood, out like Nick Cannon Railin' pills out a dollar bill, on the bathroom floor Clean the whole mess up with my nose, the fuck I need a vacuum for? New City on my birthday, June 6th, 2014 I had that meeting with Hov, plus I brought out the whole team I drank that bottle of D'usse Ty Ty gave me that night When we the club after Rap Genius house me and shorty got into a fight She out the room swingin', hit me in the jaw I was really tryna her off But I ended up in the closet with my hands her neck I was trippin', Too proud to apologize or empathize, I it all on her Sayin' she hit me first, even though she was the one hurt I was really just reflectin' all the that I was feelin' from the band's rejection Kids These Days split, that shit felt like a c-section And my infidelity and with Natalie on top of the amphetamines And the ecstasy had me tryna drown face down in the The next month I "Down on My Luck" and had Europe goin' nuts But I couldn't even it at the time, I was goin' through too much Now I had to million dollar label deals on the table for my records In Ibiza paella on the roof, tryna choose over breakfast Hov wasn't with the biddin' war, but I knew the Roc just felt When I saw Kanye at Wireless, without T-Pain, a good life Felt so close when Mr. introduced me to him backstage He prolly don't even remember that shit... like a bitch off But at that stage, I was ready to swing for the like a batting cage At the same time, I was windin' a low point in my addict phase The Adderall started wearin' off and I into a deep writer's block All over a song that I couldn't finish that I about signin' to the Roc Isn't ironic? I was feelin' so psychotic With the whole excited for me and my idol sayin' I got it Shit got bad out in L.A., so I moved back home to my basement Linked up with Smoko and Beatz and took it back to basics Then I "Rage," that was me screamin' out through the pain And "U Mad," addressin' my relationship Natalie, it was too bad The violence and the lies slipped into my mental health I did in the studio one day and almost killed myself As I started to fall apart, certain stars started to Oh Mys came to in January at the perfect time He said Kanye was on an album, and Uzi played him one of our songs He was tryna fly me out, nigga, it was goin' like the Dow Jones Pulled up to Westlake, day I was there, I recorded "Wolves" I knew I was the one, like Lyor meetin' with the But I had to get a 'fore the door was pulled out on SNL All the niggas hatin' on me back home at me like, "FML" A lot of people out the wood like, "Let's work," tryna network All the pressure makin' my head hurt, the molly wouldn't let the work At time it's like Feb. 1st to the 15th, and I'm still addicted Frustrated, writin' for Ye, tryna visualize someone else's vision Then he laid that verse on "U Mad" and we made the shit the Ye and Hov gettin' it over me, tryna do a joint venture And G.O.O.D. still fam, but it's that Roc boy SAVEMONEY life Took the bus out on the road for the Traffic tour, did a hundred Cleaned out my closet, I got rid of all of my If you learn one thing from my journey, nigga it's don't believin' When this shit got so suffocatin' I could barely even keep Wrote my wrongs all in song now I'd like to welcome y'all to my season Nigga I'm