Yeah, this just my to back, top to bottom
Everything's around me These days don't feel the We all faith and lost family Why must we play game? have mercy on me I've a sinnin' man Pull out my wings, off the bridge and crash in a plane If I land...
Know I die We live in my mind And I say We live forever, still life
There's a lot goin' on but I stick to the I love I never claimed to be a perfect man but name a man who was Consequences of my actions in the years had me stressin' out It was like, May, I just to L.A., I was tryna figure it out Medication for depression that I cut turkey, had the kid manic In an episode out in Hollywood, wildin' out Nick Cannon Railin' Adderall out a dollar bill, on the bathroom floor Clean the whole mess up with my nose, what the fuck I need a vacuum New York on my birthday, June 6th, 2014 I had first meeting with Hov, plus I brought out the whole team I drank that whole bottle of Ty Ty gave me that night When we left the club after Rap Genius house me and got into a fight She out the room swingin', hit me in the jaw I was really tryna her off But I ended up in the closet with my around her neck I was trippin', Too proud to or empathize, I blamed it all on her Sayin' that she hit me first, even she was the one hurt I was really just reflectin' all the hurt I was feelin' from the band's rejection When These Days split, that shit felt like a c-section And my infidelity and with Natalie on top of the amphetamines And the ecstasy had me tryna drown down in the Chesapeake The next month I dropped "Down on My Luck" and had Europe goin' But I couldn't even it at the time, I was goin' through too much Now I had to leverage million label deals on the table for my records In Ibiza paella on the roof, tryna choose over breakfast Hov with the biddin' war, but I knew the Roc just felt right When I saw at Wireless, without T-Pain, still a good life Felt so close Mr. Hudson introduced me to him backstage He prolly don't even remember that shit... a bitch off Backpage But at that stage, I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting At the same time, I was down a low point in my addict phase The Adderall started wearin' off and I into a deep writer's block All over a song that I couldn't finish I wrote about signin' to the Roc Isn't that I was feelin' so psychotic the whole world excited for me and my idol sayin' I got it Shit got bad out in L.A., so I moved back to my mom's basement Linked up with Smoko and Papi Beatz and took it to basics Then I wrote "Rage," that was me screamin' out the pain And "U Mad," addressin' my relationship Natalie, it was too bad The violence and the lies slipped into my mental health I did acid in the one day and almost killed myself As I started to fall apart, stars started to align Oh Mys came to Chicago in at the perfect time He said Kanye was workin' on an album, and Uzi him one of our songs He was fly me out, nigga, it was goin' down like the Dow Jones Pulled up to Westlake, first day I was there, I "Wolves" I knew I was the one, Lyor meetin' with the oracle But I had to get a handle 'fore the door was out on SNL All the niggas hatin' on me back home at me like, "FML" A lot of people out the wood like, "Let's work," tryna network All the pressure makin' my hurt, the molly wouldn't let the meds work At this time it's Feb. 1st to the 15th, and I'm still addicted Frustrated, shit for Ye, tryna visualize someone else's vision Then he laid that on "U Mad" and we made the shit the single Ye and Hov gettin' into it over me, tryna do a joint And G.O.O.D. Music still fam, but that Roc boy SAVEMONEY life Took the bus out on the for the Traffic tour, did a hundred nights Cleaned out my closet, I got rid of all of my If you learn one thing my journey, nigga it's don't stop believin' When this shit got so suffocatin' I could barely even breathin' Wrote my wrongs all in song now I'd like to welcome y'all to my season I'm gone