Yeah, this just my to back, top to bottom
Everything's changing me These days feel the same We all lost faith and lost Why must we play game? Lord mercy on me I've a sinnin' man out my wings, jump off the bridge and crash in a plane If I land...
Know I die We live forever in my And I say We live forever, still life
There's a lot goin' on but I stick to the ones I I claimed to be a perfect man but name a great man who was Consequences of my actions in the past years had me out It was like, May, I just moved to L.A., I was figure it out Medication for depression that I cut cold turkey, had the kid In an episode out in Hollywood, wildin' out like Cannon Railin' Adderall pills out a dollar bill, on the floor Clean the whole mess up with my nose, the fuck I need a vacuum for? New York City on my birthday, June 6th, I had first meeting with Hov, plus I brought out the whole team I that whole bottle of D'usse Ty Ty gave me that night When we the club after Rap Genius house me and shorty got into a fight She out the room swingin', hit me in the jaw I was tryna fend her off But I ended up in the closet with my hands her neck I was trippin', Too proud to apologize or empathize, I it all on her Sayin' that she hit me first, though she was the one hurt I was really just reflectin' all the hurt that I was feelin' from the rejection Kids These Days split, that shit felt like a c-section And my infidelity and jealousy with Natalie on top of the And the had me tryna drown face down in the Chesapeake The next I dropped "Down on My Luck" and had Europe goin' nuts But I even appreciate it at the time, I was goin' through too much Now I had to leverage million dollar label deals on the table for my In eatin' paella on the roof, tryna choose over breakfast Hov wasn't with the biddin' war, but I knew the Roc just felt When I saw Kanye at Wireless, without T-Pain, still a good Felt so close when Mr. Hudson me to him backstage He prolly even remember that shit... like a bitch off Backpage But at that stage, I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting At the same time, I was windin' a low point in my addict phase The Adderall started wearin' off and I went into a deep block All over a song that I couldn't finish I wrote about signin' to the Roc Isn't ironic? I was feelin' so psychotic With the whole world excited for me and my sayin' I got it got bad out in L.A., so I moved back home to my mom's basement Linked up Smoko and Papi Beatz and took it back to basics I wrote "Rage," that was me screamin' out through the pain And "U Mad," my relationship with Natalie, it was too bad The violence and the lies slipped suicide into my mental I did acid in the studio one day and almost myself As I started to fall apart, certain stars started to Oh Mys came to Chicago in January at the perfect He said was workin' on an album, and Uzi played him one of our songs He was tryna fly me out, nigga, it was goin' down like the Dow Pulled up to Westlake, day I was there, I recorded "Wolves" I knew I was the one, like Lyor meetin' with the But I had to get a 'fore the door was pulled out on SNL All the niggas hatin' on me back lookin' at me like, "FML" A lot of people comin' out the wood like, "Let's work," tryna All the pressure makin' my head hurt, the molly wouldn't let the work At this time it's like Feb. 1st to the 15th, and I'm still Frustrated, shit for Ye, tryna visualize someone else's vision Then he laid that on "U Mad" and we made the shit the single Ye and Hov gettin' into it over me, tryna do a joint And G.O.O.D. still fam, but it's that Roc boy SAVEMONEY life Took the bus out on the for the Traffic tour, did a hundred nights out my closet, I got rid of all of my demons If you learn one thing from my journey, nigga it's don't stop When this got so suffocatin' I could barely even keep breathin' Wrote my wrongs all in this now I'd like to welcome y'all to my season I'm gone