Yeah, this my life Front to back, top to
changing around me These days feel the same We all faith and lost family Why must we this game? Lord mercy on me I've a sinnin' man Pull out my wings, jump off the bridge and in a plane If I land...
Know I die We live in my mind And I say We live forever, still that
There's a lot goin' on but I stick to the ones I I claimed to be a perfect man but name a great man who was Consequences of my actions in the past years had me out It was like, May, I just moved to L.A., I was figure it out Medication for depression I cut cold turkey, had the kid manic In an episode out in Hollywood, wildin' out like Nick Railin' Adderall pills out a bill, on the bathroom floor Clean the whole mess up with my nose, what the fuck I a vacuum for? New York City on my birthday, 6th, 2014 I had that first meeting with Hov, plus I out the whole team I that whole bottle of D'usse Ty Ty gave me that night When we left the club after Rap Genius house me and shorty got a fight She came out the swingin', hit me in the jaw I was tryna fend her off But I ended up in the closet with my hands around her I was trippin', Too proud to apologize or empathize, I it all on her that she hit me first, even though she was the one hurt I was really just reflectin' all the hurt that I was from the band's rejection When Kids These Days split, that shit felt a c-section And my infidelity and jealousy with on top of the amphetamines And the ecstasy had me tryna drown face in the Chesapeake The next month I dropped "Down on My Luck" and had Europe nuts But I couldn't even appreciate it at the time, I was through too much Now I had to leverage million dollar label deals on the for my records In Ibiza eatin' paella on the roof, tryna over breakfast Hov wasn't the biddin' war, but I knew the Roc just felt right When I saw at Wireless, without T-Pain, still a good life so close when Mr. Hudson introduced me to him backstage He prolly don't even that shit... like a bitch off Backpage But at that stage, I was ready to swing for the like a batting cage At the same time, I was down a low point in my addict phase The Adderall started wearin' off and I went a deep writer's block All over a song that I couldn't finish that I about signin' to the Roc that ironic? I was feelin' so psychotic With the world excited for me and my idol sayin' I got it got bad out in L.A., so I moved back home to my mom's basement Linked up with Smoko and Papi Beatz and it back to basics Then I "Rage," that was me screamin' out through the pain And "U Mad," addressin' my relationship Natalie, it was too bad The violence and the lies slipped suicide into my mental I did in the studio one day and almost killed myself As I started to fall apart, certain stars to align Oh Mys came to Chicago in January at the perfect He said was workin' on an album, and Uzi played him one of our songs He was tryna fly me out, nigga, it was goin' down like the Dow Pulled up to Westlake, first day I was there, I "Wolves" I I was the one, like Lyor meetin' with the oracle But I had to get a handle the door was pulled out on SNL All the niggas hatin' on me back lookin' at me like, "FML" A lot of comin' out the wood like, "Let's work," tryna network All the pressure makin' my head hurt, the wouldn't let the meds work At time it's like Feb. 1st to the 15th, and I'm still addicted Frustrated, writin' shit for Ye, visualize someone else's vision Then he that verse on "U Mad" and we made the shit the single Ye and Hov gettin' into it over me, do a joint venture And G.O.O.D. Music still fam, but it's that Roc boy life Took the bus out on the for the Traffic tour, did a hundred nights out my closet, I got rid of all of my demons If you learn one thing from my journey, nigga it's don't stop this shit got so suffocatin' I could barely even keep breathin' Wrote my wrongs all in this song now I'd like to y'all to my season Nigga I'm