Yeah, just my life to back, top to bottom
Everything's changing me days don't feel the same We all lost faith and family Why must we play this Lord have on me been a sinnin' man Pull out my wings, off the bridge and crash in a plane If I land...
Know I die We forever in my mind And I say We live forever, that life
There's a lot on but I stick to the ones I love I never claimed to be a perfect man but a great man who was Consequences of my in the past years had me stressin' out It was like, May, I just to L.A., I was tryna figure it out Medication for depression that I cut cold turkey, had the kid In an episode out in Hollywood, wildin' out like Nick Railin' Adderall pills out a bill, on the bathroom floor Clean the whole mess up with my nose, what the I need a vacuum for? New York City on my birthday, 6th, 2014 I had that first meeting Hov, plus I brought out the whole team I drank that whole bottle of D'usse Ty Ty me that night When we left the club Rap Genius house me and shorty got into a fight She out the room swingin', hit me in the jaw I was tryna fend her off But I ended up in the closet with my hands her neck I was trippin', Too proud to or empathize, I blamed it all on her Sayin' she hit me first, even though she was the one hurt I was really just reflectin' all the hurt that I was feelin' the band's rejection When Kids These Days split, that felt like a c-section And my and jealousy with Natalie on top of the amphetamines And the ecstasy had me tryna drown down in the Chesapeake The next month I dropped "Down on My Luck" and had goin' nuts But I couldn't even appreciate it at the time, I was goin' through too Now I had to leverage million dollar label deals on the table for my In Ibiza eatin' paella on the roof, tryna over breakfast Hov with the biddin' war, but I knew the Roc just felt right When I saw Kanye at Wireless, T-Pain, still a good life Felt so close Mr. Hudson introduced me to him backstage He prolly don't remember that shit... like a bitch off Backpage But at stage, I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting cage At the same time, I was windin' down a low in my addict phase The Adderall started wearin' off and I into a deep writer's block All over a song that I couldn't finish that I wrote about to the Roc Isn't that I was feelin' so psychotic With the whole excited for me and my idol sayin' I got it Shit got bad out in L.A., so I back home to my mom's basement Linked up with Smoko and Papi and took it back to basics Then I wrote "Rage," that was me screamin' out the pain And "U Mad," addressin' my with Natalie, it was too bad The violence and the lies slipped suicide my mental health I did acid in the studio one day and almost killed As I started to apart, certain stars started to align Oh Mys came to Chicago in January at the time He said Kanye was workin' on an album, and Uzi played him one of our He was tryna fly me out, nigga, it was goin' like the Dow Jones Pulled up to Westlake, day I was there, I recorded "Wolves" I knew I was the one, like Lyor with the oracle But I had to get a handle 'fore the door was out on SNL All the niggas hatin' on me back home at me like, "FML" A lot of people comin' out the wood like, "Let's work," network All the pressure my head hurt, the molly wouldn't let the meds work At time it's like Feb. 1st to the 15th, and I'm still addicted Frustrated, writin' shit for Ye, visualize someone else's vision Then he laid that verse on "U Mad" and we the shit the single Ye and Hov gettin' into it over me, do a joint venture And G.O.O.D. Music still fam, but it's that Roc boy life Took the bus out on the for the Traffic tour, did a hundred nights out my closet, I got rid of all of my demons If you learn one thing from my journey, nigga don't stop believin' When this shit got so I could barely even keep breathin' Wrote my wrongs all in this song now I'd like to y'all to my season Nigga I'm