Yeah, this my life Front to back, top to
Everything's changing me These days don't feel the We all lost faith and family Why we play this game? Lord have on me I've a sinnin' man Pull out my wings, jump off the and crash in a plane If I land...
Know I die We forever in my mind And I say We live forever, that life
There's a lot goin' on but I to the ones I love I never claimed to be a perfect man but a great man who was Consequences of my actions in the years had me stressin' out It was like, May, I just moved to L.A., I was tryna it out Medication for depression I cut cold turkey, had the kid manic In an episode out in Hollywood, wildin' out Nick Cannon Railin' pills out a dollar bill, on the bathroom floor Clean the whole mess up my nose, what the fuck I need a vacuum for? New York City on my birthday, June 6th, I had that first meeting with Hov, I brought out the whole team I drank that whole bottle of Ty Ty gave me that night When we left the club after Rap Genius house me and shorty got a fight She out the room swingin', hit me in the jaw I was really fend her off But I ended up in the with my hands around her neck I was trippin', Too proud to or empathize, I blamed it all on her that she hit me first, even though she was the one hurt I was really reflectin' all the hurt that I was feelin' from the band's rejection Kids These Days split, that shit felt like a c-section And my infidelity and jealousy with on top of the amphetamines And the ecstasy had me tryna drown face down in the The next month I dropped "Down on My Luck" and had Europe nuts But I couldn't appreciate it at the time, I was goin' through too much Now I had to leverage million dollar label on the table for my records In Ibiza eatin' on the roof, tryna choose over breakfast Hov wasn't with the biddin' war, but I knew the Roc just right When I saw Kanye at Wireless, T-Pain, still a good life Felt so close when Mr. Hudson me to him backstage He prolly don't even remember shit... like a bitch off Backpage But at stage, I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting cage At the same time, I was windin' down a low in my addict phase The Adderall started off and I went into a deep writer's block All over a song that I couldn't that I wrote about signin' to the Roc Isn't that ironic? I was so psychotic With the whole world excited for me and my sayin' I got it Shit got bad out in L.A., so I back home to my mom's basement Linked up Smoko and Papi Beatz and took it back to basics Then I wrote "Rage," was me screamin' out through the pain And "U Mad," addressin' my relationship Natalie, it was too bad The violence and the lies slipped suicide into my health I did acid in the studio one day and almost killed As I started to fall apart, certain started to align Oh Mys came to Chicago in at the perfect time He said was workin' on an album, and Uzi played him one of our songs He was tryna fly me out, nigga, it was down like the Dow Jones Pulled up to Westlake, first day I was there, I "Wolves" I knew I was the one, like Lyor meetin' with the But I had to get a handle 'fore the was pulled out on SNL All the niggas hatin' on me back lookin' at me like, "FML" A lot of people comin' out the wood like, "Let's work," network All the pressure makin' my hurt, the molly wouldn't let the meds work At time it's like Feb. 1st to the 15th, and I'm still addicted Frustrated, writin' for Ye, tryna visualize someone else's vision Then he laid that verse on "U Mad" and we made the shit the Ye and Hov gettin' it over me, tryna do a joint venture And G.O.O.D. Music still fam, but it's that Roc boy life the bus out on the road for the Traffic tour, did a hundred nights Cleaned out my closet, I got rid of all of my If you learn one thing from my journey, it's don't stop believin' When this shit got so suffocatin' I could barely keep breathin' Wrote my wrongs all in this song now I'd to welcome y'all to my season Nigga I'm