Yeah, this my life Front to back, top to
Everything's around me These days feel the same We all lost faith and family Why must we play this have mercy on me I've a sinnin' man out my wings, jump off the bridge and crash in a plane If I land...
Know I die We live in my mind And I say We live forever, that life
There's a lot goin' on but I stick to the I love I never to be a perfect man but name a great man who was of my actions in the past years had me stressin' out It was like, May, I just moved to L.A., I was tryna it out Medication for that I cut cold turkey, had the kid manic In an episode out in Hollywood, wildin' out like Cannon Railin' Adderall pills out a bill, on the bathroom floor Clean the whole mess up with my nose, the fuck I need a vacuum for? New City on my birthday, June 6th, 2014 I had that first with Hov, plus I brought out the whole team I drank that whole of D'usse Ty Ty gave me that night When we left the club after Rap Genius me and shorty got into a fight She came out the swingin', hit me in the jaw I was really tryna her off But I ended up in the closet with my hands her neck I was trippin', Too proud to apologize or empathize, I it all on her that she hit me first, even though she was the one hurt I was just reflectin' all the hurt that I was feelin' from the band's rejection When Kids These split, that shit felt like a c-section And my infidelity and jealousy with Natalie on top of the And the ecstasy had me drown face down in the Chesapeake The next month I "Down on My Luck" and had Europe goin' nuts But I couldn't even it at the time, I was goin' through too much Now I had to leverage million dollar label deals on the table for my In Ibiza paella on the roof, tryna choose over breakfast Hov wasn't with the biddin' war, but I knew the Roc felt right When I saw at Wireless, without T-Pain, still a good life Felt so when Mr. Hudson introduced me to him backstage He prolly even remember that shit... like a bitch off Backpage But at stage, I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting cage At the same time, I was windin' down a low in my addict phase The Adderall started wearin' off and I into a deep writer's block All over a song I couldn't finish that I wrote about signin' to the Roc Isn't ironic? I was feelin' so psychotic With the whole world excited for me and my sayin' I got it Shit got bad out in L.A., so I moved back home to my mom's Linked up with and Papi Beatz and took it back to basics Then I "Rage," that was me screamin' out through the pain And "U Mad," addressin' my with Natalie, it was too bad The and the lies slipped suicide into my mental health I did acid in the one day and almost killed myself As I started to fall apart, certain started to align Oh Mys came to Chicago in at the perfect time He said Kanye was workin' on an album, and Uzi him one of our songs He was fly me out, nigga, it was goin' down like the Dow Jones up to Westlake, first day I was there, I recorded "Wolves" I knew I was the one, Lyor meetin' with the oracle But I had to get a 'fore the door was pulled out on SNL All the hatin' on me back home lookin' at me like, "FML" A lot of comin' out the wood like, "Let's work," tryna network All the pressure makin' my hurt, the molly wouldn't let the meds work At this time it's like Feb. 1st to the 15th, and I'm addicted Frustrated, writin' for Ye, tryna visualize someone else's vision Then he laid that verse on "U Mad" and we made the the single Ye and Hov gettin' it over me, tryna do a joint venture And G.O.O.D. Music still fam, but it's that Roc boy SAVEMONEY Took the bus out on the road for the tour, did a hundred nights Cleaned out my closet, I got rid of all of my If you learn one thing from my journey, nigga it's don't believin' When this shit got so suffocatin' I barely even keep breathin' Wrote my wrongs all in song now I'd like to welcome y'all to my season I'm gone