Yeah, just my life to back, top to bottom
Everything's around me These days don't the same We all faith and lost family Why must we play this Lord have on me been a sinnin' man Pull out my wings, jump off the bridge and in a plane If I land...
Know I die We live forever in my And I say We live forever, still that
There's a lot on but I stick to the ones I love I never claimed to be a perfect man but name a man who was Consequences of my actions in the years had me stressin' out It was like, May, I just to L.A., I was tryna figure it out Medication for that I cut cold turkey, had the kid manic In an episode out in Hollywood, wildin' out like Cannon Railin' Adderall pills out a bill, on the bathroom floor Clean the whole mess up my nose, what the fuck I need a vacuum for? New York on my birthday, June 6th, 2014 I had that first meeting Hov, plus I brought out the whole team I drank whole bottle of D'usse Ty Ty gave me that night When we left the club Rap Genius house me and shorty got into a fight She out the room swingin', hit me in the jaw I was really tryna her off But I ended up in the closet with my hands her neck I was trippin', Too proud to or empathize, I blamed it all on her Sayin' that she hit me first, though she was the one hurt I was really just reflectin' all the hurt I was feelin' from the band's rejection When Kids These Days split, that felt like a c-section And my infidelity and jealousy Natalie on top of the amphetamines And the ecstasy had me tryna drown face down in the The next I dropped "Down on My Luck" and had Europe goin' nuts But I couldn't even appreciate it at the time, I was through too much Now I had to leverage million dollar label deals on the for my records In Ibiza paella on the roof, tryna choose over breakfast Hov wasn't with the biddin' war, but I knew the Roc just felt When I saw Kanye at Wireless, without T-Pain, a good life Felt so close when Mr. Hudson introduced me to him He prolly don't even that shit... like a bitch off Backpage But at stage, I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting cage At the same time, I was windin' down a low in my addict phase The Adderall started wearin' off and I into a deep writer's block All over a that I couldn't finish that I wrote about signin' to the Roc Isn't that ironic? I was feelin' so With the world excited for me and my idol sayin' I got it Shit got bad out in L.A., so I back home to my mom's basement Linked up with Smoko and Papi Beatz and took it to basics Then I wrote "Rage," was me screamin' out through the pain And "U Mad," addressin' my relationship Natalie, it was too bad The violence and the lies slipped suicide into my health I did acid in the studio one day and almost myself As I started to apart, certain stars started to align Oh Mys came to Chicago in January at the perfect He said Kanye was workin' on an album, and Uzi played him one of our He was fly me out, nigga, it was goin' down like the Dow Jones up to Westlake, first day I was there, I recorded "Wolves" I I was the one, like Lyor meetin' with the oracle But I had to get a 'fore the door was pulled out on SNL All the niggas on me back home lookin' at me like, "FML" A lot of people comin' out the wood like, "Let's work," tryna All the pressure makin' my head hurt, the wouldn't let the meds work At this it's like Feb. 1st to the 15th, and I'm still addicted Frustrated, shit for Ye, tryna visualize someone else's vision Then he that verse on "U Mad" and we made the shit the single Ye and Hov gettin' into it over me, tryna do a joint And G.O.O.D. Music fam, but it's that Roc boy SAVEMONEY life Took the bus out on the for the Traffic tour, did a hundred nights Cleaned out my closet, I got rid of all of my If you learn one thing from my journey, nigga don't stop believin' When this shit got so suffocatin' I could barely even breathin' Wrote my all in this song now I'd like to welcome y'all to my season I'm gone