The Greatest (mistake)

There's a candle beside my bed
I lit it every night last summer
And I'm home again lit it the first time since then
And it smells like getting to know you

There's a candle on the table
You built yourself in your living room
And you lit that candle every night that I was there
And it smells like falling head over feet for you

My life, a sequence of pretty lights
like a carnival
the one you never took me to
like the movies
that all fill my head with dreams that you just didn't have the time to occupy

You're treading lightly just like July

And I know how you hate apologies and you have heard enough of them from me
But getting scared to some degree made me everything I promised I wouldn't be
Taking care of you, the only thing I knew would make you break
The biggest risk you'd ever take was on the biggest role I've ever faked
Eyes shut, wide awake, it was the greatest mistake

Your laugh still haunts me, your voice in my head
Even though I haven't heard a word in weeks
I bounce back fast, it should be easy to forget you
I really prayed that hearts and thoughts they'd fade

Your laugh surrounds me, we're in your car
Singin' all our favorite country songs
And right there, the moment that I fell for you
Sheer panic masked by sunglasses and plaid

Your life, a sequence of blinding lights
?Like an interrogation
?Will you be good enough
?Like a test?
That you passed with flying colors and now you dont know when to quit and take a rest

You're treading lightly and we both know why

You were the only one to ever say that you'd take care of me, but I'm not as strong as I
Seemed
like the way that I started to want you was a little risky, had to make you run before you'd
Redeem
all you owned of me, like the failing heart I left among the debris?
of a war that I started at "I'm yours", but had long departed?
Before you knew I was planning to leave

And I know how you hate when I publicly display the feelings that come over me
strike you as ironic? 1, 2...three
I, became someone who would fight just to disagree
But I'd be anyone if you're the one who's taking care of me
And though you had a lot at stake
you always run before the break
You say do what you want...but, what I want is fake
Commitment free ain't free of heartache
get close, pull back - a boys mistake, but you're a man and I want a retake
cuz you are my greatest...