The City that Sorrow Built

Nothing hurts as much as this
Try to feel it inside of me
Since I came to see you fall
I've been holding out too much

I don't own you anymore
So let me get out of here
I must leave your gloomy womb
I'm not here to heal your harms

I don't want to hear your howls
They bring out the worst in me
The city of the heady lights
I've been living here before

What happened to my soul?
What am I losing while I'm growing old?
Is this what I've looking for?
I've been dying here before