Sucks

[chorus]
It doesn't feel like I'm in the mood to
It doesn't taste like 'oh' when it used to
I hate how I'm feeling now
It sucks when you're not around
I don't care if I get used to
All the things they I should do
I hate how I'm feeling now
It sucks when you're not around

Hiding away was something
That I only did when I was a child
Until now
I've been looking around
Wondering how, I could still
Believe and allow
Myself to drown
I got used to you in a lucid place
In a perfect time, with a certain face
I'd be lucky if I could ever find
A reason not to shut myself down
Right now

They say come tomorrow you'll finally realize what you needed today
I know
Faking my way through motions just a person whose emotions
Have frayed
It shows
Like a massive stone that I leave alone
On my chest it takes every breath away
I'd be lucky if I could ever find
A reason not to feel so alone
I won't

Could you tell me all your reasons?
Could you leave them here tonight?
Could you break these walls?
To take me home to another kind
Of life
That's all I ever wanted
I'm locked down to the rails
But I stay tied, so you can ride
In search of something else