State Of Mine

They've got the calves of champions
They greet the warmest way
They are the dads, the main ones
They've got some money saved
(yea, I'm sorry but I don't)

Another kind of classroom
Another shade of fear
Another door you're shoved through
Until you conquer your fear
(And I wonder if I won't)

To let the children go
To feel themselves to hurt and grow
It's the hardest thing i I've done
And I haven't even done it yet
Thought I was wise, averted my eyes
Avoided the light, went head down thru it
But I was wrong I've gotta be strong
And hold my head up high
Failure is a state of mine

Back in Massachusetts
In my familiar role
Afraid to make decisions
But had to test my soul
The girl wanted to live here
And I follow my love
Came to California
Enough was never enough
(Yea, I know, I know, I know)