Song for Josh

Why didn't you call?
My phone's always on
Why didn't you call?
Before you got gone

And I can't say for certain
What I would have said
But now I am helplessly
Silent instead

There's a hole in my heart
And in my head, why didn't you call?

Why didn't you say something
On the last time we met?
Why didn't you say something?
There's always hope left

And I can't say for the certain
What I would have done
But I can't do anything
Now that you're gone
And it kills me to think
That for a second you felt alone

Now, you can measure the mark
Of a man on the day that he dies
In the mixture of memory and wreckage
That he leaves behind

And I know you were carrying too much weight
On the evening when you slipped away
But I loved you like a brother man
And I never really had a chance to say

So at half past nine each evening,
I'll think of my friend
And at half past nine I'll remember
That you were better than your end

Because I too have stood up on that ledge
But I know you'd have pulled me back down from the edge
And I let you down in your darkness
I wasn't there

So I remember you making a hole
Through the kids in the crowd
And I remember you lifting me up
Each time I fell down

And I'll glance at the barrier
When I'm watching the band
And I'll expect to see you there
Stood on the footstand

But I guess I will see someone else
That's when I'll whisper to myself
Brother I miss you like hell