Silver Medal

i am walking on the line where fish decide
which way to go
people are waiting, watching my every
drop, waiting for my flop
maybe i will
sometimes it feels good when it's
hard to breathe
what does good pain feel like
salt water memories
meaningless shit strategies
meaningless shit memories
how much for the oblivion
how much for the emptiness
the fear
the pain
the truth
the day
the time
the sensation
the solution
people who don't
know me shouldn't
try without
permission
if i don't understand
my life how could they
am i that exciting
am i that intriguing
am i that compelling