Short Leash

If the past two months have taught me anything
it's to never wait for good luck
though I've rolled with the punches
resilience is nothing when up against failures from my mistakes

I don't wanna feel responsible
in a world that wasn't made for me at all, at all

Security makes me restless
being away makes miss what's at home
should I feel guilty for being this selfish
when I know you have less time to loan (I'm gone)
now I can see through clearing sky's
(right through this, right through this)
but I'm not there yet

This twelve hour drive still isn't far enough to put behind
everything I thought I knew
when I thought I could make you proud of me too
I was so naive never listened to what was true
maybe someday I'll grow up, I just don't want to

You'd think something's out to get me (get me)
cause I can't get through one week
used to think I could do anything (anything)
now I can't get on my feet

I didn't know (I didn't know)
it was so cut throat (cut throat)
I didn't know
I'd go this crazy on my own
I didn't know