Look... I woke up a heart beat But, I remember we was in the car deep Was at a light, and got by a car thief He pulled out but ask for no car keys A loud noise a voice but i'm tryna scream out...shit is not fair I tell you where i'm at or how I got here Surrounded by all white, it's just cloudy by two men who knew everything about me Both of 'em so strong, kept hold on Feel like my gone...naked no clothes on I know this be my fate, I scream wait As drop me in front of a gate They no trace...I can see my every breath Like a day, stood in front a man with no face He said to me "please make this any harder" Who the fuck is you? "my child i'm Father" I only got one dad "is a fact to you?" "He left you when you was young, I him back to you" "You're real to heaven, few get to step in" "Now tell me what you've done to to be let in" i'm far from a Christian, not big on religion But ain't done too much wrong my time livin' Never killed, never tried to...though I been to Was suicidal, never read the Bible I been a caretaker, tried to nurse people At it back fired...hurt people, hurt people Plus I never used your in vain But you should know everything I'm asked explained "I know you stole from mother's purse" You can't count that, was way back when "It's a sin" ...but I was ten "You robbed stores" Yeah, and YOU made me see jail "But I also seen you lay your on a female" "Sold drugs to parents, none of was needed" "Abandoned child, on every girl you cheated" "Done wrong to that only want the best for you" "Anytime you thought you were alone, I was to you" it comes to baby moms...God you gave me the worst one "But was your second child Joe...you shouldn't have killed the first one" I ain't have a job...ain't have a pot to in "Look I gave you a gift, and you the wrong decision" "Held on to resentments, in doin' business" "I by example, I teach forgiveness" "Your entry...cannot be guaranteed" "Not when you live anger, envy, greed" "Pride, sloth, even glutony" "Everything you shouldn't if you would've my covenant" i'm only human, I ain't perfect "That I understand" "When I you out a jam, you don't even think to worship" "And you do...you never talk about what... "...You can do for me, it's I can do for you" "I blessed you with health, and wealth" "But all the blessings you've received...you always want help" Yeah there's been times in my life I needed help to money But why I love, you manage to take from me Yet you stand there and question a nigga tries hard And finds a way when you keep him fucked up cards You mistakes like me, far as I can see I think it's a mockery whenever niggas win the lottery Gave us Bush twice, God I to be rude But you let niggas starve, give obese niggas food The nerve of you tellin' me I dont to stay here When you gave us drugs and guns, you put here Take a look at chu, your actions are cold The harsh shit is you babies in the world retarded I most my actions put me in a cell Now how you mad at me you put me in the Hell? "See my child, you need gratitude, just a sample" "I never give a person he can't handle" "Don't tell me 'bout you had to go through" "There's reasons for my even if I never showed you" "Kept tryin' wit chu, all you did was me" "Still gave you chances to that you was worthy" "And so I sat wit chu on a train" "I asked you for change, you kept me names" "Prolly didn't notice, I was a clerk" "You put the gun to me, get money for work" "My child, I know you it in you to indeed stop" "This is not your calling, just a brief stop" "Hope you heed my and understand" "So I see you back, you should be a better man" "Look at life different, the next time we see other" "There'll be no need to talk, whenever we meet other"