[Esham One day I'ma die, don't cry no heaven up in the sky One day fade away And set the world on fire, the sky turn grey 2x I was born to mourn,I guess that's why I live the life of through eternity My mama was a junkie, I was born into world a crack baby My was brass monkey I developed a tumor,now I consume a half ounce of Rose I sniff bullets my snub nose I grew up on the east side, 7 area I was raised like a pitbull I developed a behavior I murdered my first man and knew Jesus Christ wasn't my Jehovah witness,witnessed me takin care of my So I him on the front porch I their bibles and burned em I checked their pockets, em inside out Dumped bodies in the lake with the trout It all as a toddler,now I'm a .45 bullet swallower And mama cry Somehow it seems,mama calling my name in my Crackfiends, amphetimenes, what it really mean Sometimes it feels like I'm fallin,am I close to Gaspin,suffocatin for air,losin my I see of doctors and scalpels makin incisions fatal collisions to suicidal desitions Nobody my suffering I bring the pain my migrane, I swallow 23 bufferins I was addicted to since birth Crack baby goin crazy, so how much is my life A boy that bounces 36 ounces I flip,kilograms I from the hip It's kinda crazy how I'm But I'm mad on a murder ride I'm suicide driven arisen from a dead state-of-mind to find I was blind,too late Mama cry If I could start all I would But I can't,if I could,then my heart might have good I I lost all my time when I lost my mind It me sad to hear mama cryin So many I never stopped to what I put you through Much love,I thought you hated me,mama see I knew I I walked the wrong path In the aftermath,many screamin my name You don't the half I was dead a time ago ressurected,once the .45 shell connected With my dome,I saw my misery crack a So put my body in the pile And wait a till you come to the cemetary 'cause you might see my tombstone burnin 'cause necessary Pine box, my body rots with the of em Mama I'm dead like the of em Mama cry