[Esham One day I'ma die, don't cry no heaven up in the sky One day fade away And set the world on fire, watch the sky grey 2x I was born to mourn,I that's why I live the life of misery through eternity My mama was a junkie, I was born into world a crack baby My was brass monkey I developed a brain tumor,now I a half ounce of Rose I sniff with my snub nose I grew up on the east side, 7 mile I was raised like a terrier I developed a criminal I murdered my first man and knew Jesus Christ my savior Jehovah witness,witnessed me care of my business So I shot him on the front I took bibles and burned em I checked pockets, turned em inside out Dumped their bodies in the lake with the It all started as a toddler,now I'm a .45 swallower And mama cry Somehow it seems,mama my name in my dreams Crackfiends, amphetimenes, does it really mean Sometimes it feels like I'm fallin,am I close to Gaspin,suffocatin for air,losin my I see visions of doctors and scalpels makin From fatal collisions to desitions knows my suffering I bring the from my migrane, I swallow 23 bufferins I was addicted to caine since Crack baby goin crazy, so how much is my worth A baby boy that 36 I flip,kilograms I slam from the hip It's kinda how I'm livin But I'm mad on a murder nigga I'm suicide driven arisen from a dead state-of-mind to find I was blind,too late Mama cry If I could all over I would But I can't,if I could,then my heart might been good I guess I all my time when I lost my mind It makes me sad to hear cryin So dyin I stopped to think what I put you through Much love,I you hated me,mama see I never knew I I walked the wrong path In the aftermath,many demons screamin my You don't know the I was dead a time ago Never ressurected,once the .45 shell my dome,I saw my misery crack a smile So put my dead in the pile And wait a while till you to the cemetary 'cause you might see my tombstone 'cause it's necessary Pine box, my rots with the best of em Mama I'm like the rest of em Mama cry