[Esham One day I'ma die, don't cry no heaven up in the sky One day I'ma away And set the on fire, watch the sky turn grey 2x I was born to mourn,I guess that's why I live the of misery Forever through My mama was a junkie, I was born into world a crack baby My bottle was monkey I developed a brain tumor,now I consume a half of Rose I bullets with my snub nose I grew up on the side, 7 mile area I was raised a pitbull terrier I a criminal behavior I murdered my first man and knew Jesus wasn't my savior Jehovah witness,witnessed me takin of my business So I him on the front porch I took bibles and burned em I their pockets, turned em inside out Dumped bodies in the lake with the trout It all as a toddler,now I'm a .45 bullet swallower And don't cry Somehow it seems,mama calling my name in my Crackfiends, amphetimenes, what it really mean Sometimes it feels like I'm fallin,am I close to Gaspin,suffocatin for air,losin my I see visions of doctors and scalpels makin From fatal to suicidal desitions Nobody knows my I bring the pain from my migrane, I swallow 23 I was addicted to caine birth Crack baby goin crazy, so how much is my life A baby boy that 36 ounces I flip,kilograms I from the hip kinda crazy how I'm livin But I'm mad on a ride nigga I'm suicide driven I've arisen from a dead state-of-mind to find I was blind,too don't cry If I could all over I would But I can't,if I could,then my heart might have been I guess I lost all my time when I lost my It makes me sad to hear cryin So many I never stopped to what I put you through Much love,I thought you hated me,mama see I knew I guess I walked the wrong In the aftermath,many screamin my name You don't know the I was dead a time ago Never ressurected,once the .45 shell With my dome,I saw my crack a smile So put my dead body in the And wait a till you come to the cemetary you might see my tombstone burnin 'cause it's necessary Pine box, my body rots the best of em Mama I'm dead the rest of em Mama cry