[Esham One day I'ma die, mama cry Ain't no up in the sky One day fade away And set the on fire, watch the sky turn grey 2x I was born to mourn,I guess why I live the life of misery Forever eternity My mama was a junkie, I was born into this a crack baby My was brass monkey I developed a brain tumor,now I consume a half ounce of I sniff bullets with my snub I grew up on the east side, 7 area I was raised like a pitbull I developed a criminal I murdered my first man and Jesus Christ wasn't my savior Jehovah witness,witnessed me takin care of my So I him on the front porch I took their and burned em I checked their pockets, em inside out Dumped their bodies in the lake with the It all started as a toddler,now I'm a .45 swallower And mama cry Somehow it seems,mama calling my name in my Crackfiends, amphetimenes, what does it mean Sometimes it feels I'm fallin,am I close to death Gaspin,suffocatin for air,losin my I see visions of doctors and makin incisions From collisions to suicidal desitions knows my suffering I bring the pain from my migrane, I 23 bufferins I was to caine since birth Crack baby goin crazy, so how much is my worth A baby boy bounces 36 ounces I flip,kilograms I slam the hip It's kinda how I'm livin But I'm mad on a murder ride I'm suicide driven I've arisen from a dead state-of-mind to find I was blind,too don't cry If I could all over I would But I can't,if I could,then my heart have been good I guess I lost all my time when I lost my It makes me sad to hear mama So dyin I never stopped to think I put you through Much love,I thought you hated me,mama see I never I I walked the wrong path In the aftermath,many demons screamin my You don't the half I was dead a long ago ressurected,once the .45 shell connected With my dome,I saw my misery crack a So put my dead body in the And wait a while till you come to the 'cause you might see my tombstone burnin it's necessary Pine box, my body rots with the of em Mama I'm like the rest of em don't cry