[Esham One day I'ma die, mama cry no heaven up in the sky One day I'ma fade And set the world on fire, watch the sky turn 2x I was to mourn,I guess that's why I live the life of misery through eternity My mama was a junkie, I was born into world a crack baby My bottle was brass I developed a brain tumor,now I consume a ounce of Rose I sniff bullets with my nose I grew up on the side, 7 mile area I was like a pitbull terrier I developed a criminal I murdered my first man and knew Jesus wasn't my savior Jehovah witness,witnessed me care of my business So I shot him on the porch I took their and burned em I checked pockets, turned em inside out their bodies in the lake with the trout It all started as a toddler,now I'm a .45 swallower And mama cry Somehow it seems,mama calling my in my dreams Crackfiends, amphetimenes, what does it mean it feels like I'm fallin,am I close to death Gaspin,suffocatin for air,losin my I see visions of doctors and makin incisions From fatal collisions to desitions knows my suffering I bring the pain my migrane, I swallow 23 bufferins I was addicted to caine birth Crack goin crazy, so how much is my life worth A baby boy that 36 ounces I flip,kilograms I from the hip kinda crazy how I'm livin But I'm mad on a murder ride I'm suicide driven I've arisen from a dead state-of-mind to find I was blind,too don't cry If I could start all over I But I can't,if I could,then my heart might have good I guess I lost all my time I lost my mind It me sad to hear mama cryin So dyin I never stopped to think what I put you love,I thought you hated me,mama see I never knew I guess I walked the wrong In the aftermath,many demons my name You don't know the I was a long time ago Never ressurected,once the .45 connected With my dome,I saw my misery crack a So put my body in the pile And wait a while till you to the cemetary 'cause you see my tombstone burnin 'cause it's necessary box, my body rots with the best of em Mama I'm like the rest of em don't cry