[Esham One day I'ma die, don't cry no heaven up in the sky One day fade away And set the on fire, watch the sky turn grey 2x I was born to mourn,I guess that's why I live the of misery Forever eternity My mama was a junkie, I was born into world a crack baby My was brass monkey I developed a tumor,now I consume a half ounce of Rose I sniff bullets with my snub I grew up on the east side, 7 area I was raised a pitbull terrier I developed a behavior I murdered my first man and knew Christ wasn't my savior Jehovah witness,witnessed me takin of my business So I shot him on the front I their bibles and burned em I checked pockets, turned em inside out Dumped bodies in the lake with the trout It all started as a toddler,now I'm a .45 swallower And mama cry Somehow it seems,mama calling my name in my Crackfiends, amphetimenes, what it really mean Sometimes it feels like I'm fallin,am I close to Gaspin,suffocatin for air,losin my I see visions of doctors and scalpels makin From fatal collisions to suicidal Nobody my suffering I bring the pain my migrane, I swallow 23 bufferins I was to caine since birth Crack baby goin crazy, so how much is my worth A baby boy bounces 36 ounces I flip,kilograms I from the hip It's crazy how I'm livin But I'm mad on a murder nigga I'm suicide driven I've from a dead state-of-mind to find I was blind,too late don't cry If I could start all over I But I can't,if I could,then my might have been good I guess I lost all my time when I my mind It makes me sad to mama cryin So dyin I never to think what I put you through Much love,I you hated me,mama see I never knew I I walked the wrong path In the aftermath,many screamin my name You know the half I was a long time ago Never ressurected,once the .45 connected With my dome,I saw my crack a smile So put my dead in the pile And wait a while you come to the cemetary 'cause you might see my tombstone 'cause it's necessary Pine box, my body with the best of em Mama I'm dead like the of em don't cry