Not Your Savior

unlucky seventeen,
already handed plans for the future glamour
and shown how to think and i don't have a job,
obsessed, told how to dress,
but i can show you how to be a slob so many days,
wasted and glazed sometimes i laugh aloud as i think
about, you asking me "please can you help?
"can't help my self i'm not your savior,
refusing to break cut my losses ties them with you,
i'm not who you want me to be a cowardly mistake
i've made so many times before,
"everyone's cool",
like a good boy i'll pretend and promise not to do it again do you remember when,
life was so simple and permanent? everyone's changed,
everyone sucks but i can't seem to complain,
that backs out late never said i'd change,
exciting and new is just not there you're getting scared i'm not your savior,
never thought i was anyway i'm a void with empty promises
taking back the words that we spoke like a fuel tank running dry,
you'll believe it when i choke