I've tasted tears like these before And though they are the I have known Their simple is none but one of joy For now it I may not be alone Upon this earth as I been 'til now A truly unexpected twist of For I had up on everyone Especially myself, and it late Too late for any to cast a line His would hit the ice and snap in two But someone blew a kiss and his breath Unfroze ne'er a roaring fire could do An angel now is mine and the start I knew I was bound to let him in But while I smile I weep because I That something ends so this can begin God, what a am I, or am I wise? For years I kept hidden in my heart The name of one who never had more But whom I about and set apart From other men, never did I tell My feelings, nay, but used him as a An inspiration, something to But rarely did I think on what I'd If ever my affections were By someone living, breathing, warm and For while I pledged my life to him in The for me I knew he did not feel If I could the truth, I'd say I planned To go on in this for all time I didn't care he couldn't for me As long as I own him in each rhyme And have someone to think about night When torment after wracked my soul To in sorrow, bathe in pain's delight To fill my was my only goal Until the day I dared to call it For this love was the I had known And somehow I keep the rest away For in my mind I never was And thus in love, though with a specter, I never did expect, nor wish, nor To take another in holy place Though in my mind I no one was there Yay, in my mind, but not so in my I loved, I swear I loved, else why this When of my will I opened up the And swept the where I swore hed remain And dies within me as I sweep As something new is born in every Past years of I long to keep A future I both long for and fear There was no question when it came This shooting star, fire and gentleness Who gave me time to make my choice But made my will his own with caress For once and only once I did not Where I should feel and for that I was But it was one thing to enact the And something to say the word aloud For once I had, I a shadow fade Which over me had for all these years And no true loss in all the could match The sense of someone with my tears I known 'til then how lost I was Enveloped in this mist of my So of me my muse had thus become That in my eyes no was seen to shine Unless it bore some of my light Or carried strains of music in the Until my was open to the view No man could enter, in my dreams Its now and I am not afraid I know full well I am meant to do But at night when I recall my muse I cry for us as he ever knew I had waited years to hear my name Once spoken as it should have been Id wait there still but real appeared And the heart no man could hope to win If to my muse I'd ever hello It might not hurt much to say goodbye But there is tragic in this scene may appear as joyous to the eye Of who witnesses myself Bound in the and lips of my new friend Completed in a way I've never And wounds I thought would never mend The truth that my reality The soul I dreamed but thought Id meet And now I look back except in dreams Yet when I do the pain is sweet For pain can show me who I was And from girl to me how much Ive grown Ive never tears like these before And yes, they are the saddest I have