My Exit, Unfair

My exit unobserved, and my homesickness, absurd
I said, "Water," expecting the word
Would satisfy my thirst
Talking all about the second and third
When I haven't understood the first

Jonah, where's that boat going
Your ship set with eager sails?
There's a swirling storm soon blowing
And no use, fishermen, in rowing from a consecrated whale

And just like the clouds they bring a darkness
And a hard rain's gonna fall
I felt the crowds bring a loneliness
And a hard rain, a hard rain's gonna fall

And she always weighed me down
But, afraid I might need her, I dragged her around
It's best to keep close sackcloth
And ash in a whitewashed town

And she wore that phony smile on her face
I guess like a bandage on a wounded place
While I kept the keys to every old lock just in case

Rehearsed indifference tossed aside
Our narrow arms spread wide
"What unseen pen etched eternal things
On the hearts of humankind
But never let them in our minds?"

Oh, the clouds they brought a darkness
And a hard rain's gonna fall
And all my laughter ends in emptiness
And a hard rain's gonna fall

My every medicine causes more illness
And a hard rain's gonna fall
And until I let you go, I didn't know
You were never mine, you were never mine at all

But now I spend my days
In ever increasingly complicated ways
Convincing myself of the rightness
Of each word I say

My exit, unfair if unobserved
My exit, unfair if unobserved
My exit, unfair

Ya Sabur, Subhannallahi,
A-Uduhu billah minash-shaitnair-rajim
Al-Hamdu Lillah, Bismillahir Rahmanir Rahim