Yeah, crazy ups and downs, you know what I'm sayin'? Crazy how the world runs, up it out, bring it in
Lord, I'm tryin' to keep But this life is of strife and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it Boy, you know I was negative What can go wrong go wrong until the beast in me vanishes
First of all I was born a bad sign Confined to torture, never saw what life had to Time slips away like pop on the radio never had the doe, I was determined though
Sabotaged at birth, cursed by an evil To strangle my aspirations every angle From a street corner to a demo deal from Hardcore performer, warmer
Thought it was on but it I never got no budget, stuck like a glue trap, it goes to that Being the greatest lyricist paint the full picture It's a mixture
I can't get me no, no Like bein' blind a movie with no closed caption I need some time to ease my I'm bested, fuck Mr. Wendal my arrested
All I wanted to do was rock with my ass And past the mass, collect quick cash Did what I did best, create but to hate All these flake people makin' artists wait
But be up there one day And soon to wax, innovate rhymes that my fans consume I this world through my notepad Thus expanding my vocab to win, then it's all bad
Lord, I try to keep But this life is full of and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it Boy, you I was thinkin' negative What can go wrong, will go until the beast in me vanishes
Lord, I try to keep But life is full of strife and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it Boy, you I was thinkin' negative What can go wrong, will go wrong until the in me vanishes
When I was merely a sophomore, went to Atlanta on a tour This ain't what I prayed so for broken into individual particles Like porcelain attached to me like barnacles
Now I'm to be happy like Bobby McFerrin Keep faith, the thing holy is the drawers I'm wearin' '89 I to graduate, no exaggerate I got it now but too bad it seems to gravitate
positive energy from inside of me To the point where my for God no more provides for me Of lost pride, obviously the force rides To no one invites but puts the Bill Of Rights
S A T proving ya I'm a spick that'll die respective like Julia So cease with, all that street Expect MC from Chi kid, you gets the wicked shit, till I see fit
To open my life like the pearly gates of Heaven For merely a entertainment this is my Prepare and I'll share self I can help but I'm lost but I be large anywhere else
The illegal, twisted, war The problem swallowed us, it takes an activated mind to follow And true to realm to be ourselves not to follow a fad or in to trends Till then, all bad
Lord, I try to positive But this life is full of and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it Boy, you know I was negative What can go wrong go wrong until the beast in me vanishes
Lord, I try to positive But this is full of strife and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it Boy, you I was thinkin' negative can go wrong, will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes
Unanswered prayers the background I pull my caps down I hide the tracks of my tears from peers
I finally got on and soon he a moment to I lose my mind, I lose my My in a coma too
I'm goin' through a tug of war inside my mental wall Record just went platinum, I'm 'em, I'll show you all Cover of Rolling Stones, even TV Guide Was filmin' my first movie in L.A. I heard my baby died
Shook it off a thought that she was beautiful Train Awards, I go to not my daughters funeral I drunk and high like I'm imperial Surrounded by more groupies than a Rakim video
Now life's a to me, except the way I was rejected formally Disrespected neighborhoods I know me eatin' me, suicide attempts repeatedly What I worked so hard for is defeatin' me
I'm my own mom can't avoid being a tabloid So she wasn't when my movie flopped in the industry, spendin' money frivolously Now I've robbed, I can't believe my lawyers did this to me
Next album was up with tragedies and despair Are fans with faces with no real purpose for bein' here I call the Lord, when in Billboard I plummet from 3 to 10, it seems that is my new trend
Thought I was all that, now I just flat, splat of crack, my old friends won't let me call back So where am I? Can I myself a misty storm? to God, I'm fallin' off like TJ Swan
Lord, I try to keep But this life is of strife and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it Boy, you know I was negative What can go wrong, will go wrong the beast in me vanishes
Lord, I try to positive But life is full of strife and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it Boy, you I was thinkin' negative What can go wrong, will go wrong until the beast in me