I Don't Understand

When I'm asleep
I leave the light on
And try to breathe
Relive the moment I was born

I feel the breeze
It feels electric
Then mockery
Another headache I reject

Suppose the feeling's real
You'd never know
Suppose it's what you feel
You'll never know

That's what I don't understand
That's what I don't know
That's what I don't understand
That's what I don't know

Now I'm awake
I leave the light on
And take a swim
Beneath the rocks and undertow

I try to scream
I don't remember where I've been
A trampoline
Another lack of oxygen

Suppose the feeling's real
You'd never know
Suppose it's what you feel
You'll never know

That's what I don't understand
That's what I don't know
That's what I don't understand
That's what I don't know

I open my mouth but there's
Nothing to swallow down
I'm scratching my face like there's
Something, farther down

It's like a drug
I turn the light off
And pull the plug
But still it always comes back on

Suppose you change your mind
And back again
Suppose you had more time
And adrenaline

That's what I don't understand
That's what I don't know
That's what I don't understand
That's what I don't know

That's what I don't understand
That's what I don't know
That's what I don't understand
That's what I don't know
What I don't know