1] I met my when I was 18 years old And she was just 23 I really love her from my And even though I don't deserve it fam I hope she me So I just done this private I'm doing Footlocker promo And judging the postcode it was Shoreditch or Soho Did 6 or 7 tracks, made 6 or 7 A couple later on twitter I saw this photo of myself and I was grinning That 4K of quality had got me tripping So I'm out who did it When I stumbled on girl And I could tell that she was A hours later now I'm liking all her pictures I ain't I typed her twitter name into my Insta so I check on every single little digit Why I just message her? Trust me I was thinking, but I'm a self-centred too concerned about my image The So when she hit me first I'm pretty I didn't burst I'm Josh, Jack and Juss who am I ringing first? Man I was so That I replied a minute that's that bro I think that you just let her know excited Too excited, no on what I should do excited So I'm just typing, like a fool, excited
2] And we were talking for hours over some minor Ignoring else to her I'm replying quick This type of chick she got a like you were lighting spliffs You know you like her when you're thinking about your She got me typing, deleting my messages re-writing In the hope that there's a when she's replying The of my day, them phone calls in the night it's the little things The girl, she had a vibe and I it and She's into and she's got a passion for it And she that I'm rapping but she ain't catting for it See the perfect balance There's better than a girl with talent Drive, all of them things above She's an abundance I ain't met her yet She works around the corner but lives outside of London I fronting, I'm a sweet boy Intentions are in question so my are decoys If even makes sense? The first time I met her, I'm surrounded by my ends on some staircase So much for a first I just had a And I if she could meet me after we could chill, you never know where things could go No she down to roll in the cold So I went across the road, hoodie under a coat If I'm remembering It's always of weird when the person that you were texting Is the you are obsessed with I was on her the jump I think she was pumps or Vans when I first met her, no, it's either either one She was looking so attractive I barely saw skin she was covered like a mattress Man, I think she's the one I was stuck for twenty seconds trying to the girl a hug And all my were drunk so fuck it, I'm about to kiss her Any complications, I'm it on the liquor my name on Twitter and blocking her on my Insta I saw her skin blush the moment our lips touched She pulled my bottom lip until it Kissed me on my cheek until she reached my neck And had me moaning like a Even though I'm wearing jeans, I had to re-arrange my dick so she see that I'm erect It's the first we met, got me feeling like a creep And that strawberry flavour gave her tongue a kinda sweet taste And we could about anything we were friends first I dropped her to the station I Cuz we had a conversation for about our dreams And the things that we hadn't and all that we intended to do I bet she's hoping my are true And as months went by we got into it, and intimate And I'mma you the details cuz both of our parents are probably listening But really we were it Into us, this Into everything about each other we were lovers and I love her cuz she knows me and that's probably why she told me you ready for a girl still a little kid that's getting ready for the world and you don't need that kinda burden But I told her that I it And I'm just being honest, yes I know that girls exist but I don't see them as a I every single word And I ain't gonna lie and say DM's have absurd but out of every single girl is the weirdest of positions It's usually the girl asking where I see her fitting or a place on her position But I'm telling her I it And I don't she sees it so I'm being ever sweeter when we're speaking and we're meeting I've got messages, you could read them You gotta tell a girl that she's beautiful she sees it Believes it, it more than physically Mentally, and the way that I'm I could talk 10 years about the moment we shared The that we had running The places that we've The music we together producing next to my bed Then making my minor changes in to what she said I think I start to getting tired, my a mess are gettin' lazy and my lady knows it's crazy But she's there if I'm in While I'm at shows getting tempted by that are on their knees You know I'm only a teen, like my eyes started drifting Not as easy as I pictured to give all to a woman Ignoring all attention that's been getting to my head The sex is so accessible, one message or text and girls will get in bed tryna make it happen with photos and her events I it's her passion, photography is her thing And I don't know if it's the Where paper meets the passion and the We all got a to survive So now she's up at shows pictures on her own And at first it cool But it we let it go Until I saw her in rapper's tracksuit, I felt a way She me it was work and she was in some studio pictures and I just sighed Some halfway wannabe rappers that fed her He looking for no pictures I know it's profession But read intentions They ain't paying male photographers to shoot same session And that felt so disrespectful, on our dreams And crushing 'em, I told her it's nothing do what you need to do If I feeding you Then my opinion's all I'm giving I speak to you Cause I have the right Why should girls be punished for a dirty mind? When I think it now, I'm ashamed to the core I mean how many men stop their women from achieving what they can because in secret they've feelig insecure And I can't handle my emotions, it's probably why I see her Talent I shoulda been supporting and promoting I didn't have a platform, a voice and a following With everyone I knew, I really do a lot of things to help chase her dream But of me to grow into the person that she needs I like I couldn't see And I don't mean to say like I don't trust the girl But how can I trust her if I trust myself? And even can get tempted you know how it goes What if she a bigger rapper when she's at a show? What if he her backstage? if he selling lots? What if he's got a car, got a better watch? That doesn't bother me, she ain't material It's all the little things do that put the fear in you What if he actually What if he her too? What if he's doing all the that I'm supposed to do? if he's listening, laughing, relating? What if he even cares to ask her how her day's What he's to give her everything she needs and expects from the one damn person that she's dating? I shoulda her follow her dream But I held her back and had her following me And boys got a brave face so never know That hurts as much when you let them go