1] I met my when I was 18 years old And she was turning 23 I love her from my heart And even though I don't deserve it fam I hope she me So I done this private show I'm doing Footlocker promo And from the postcode it was Shoreditch or Soho Did 6 or 7 tracks, 6 or 7 racks A couple days on twitter I saw this photo of myself and I was grinning 4K camera of quality had got me tripping So I'm out who did it When I stumbled on girl And I tell that she was different A couple later now I'm liking all her pictures I finished I her twitter name into my Insta so I could check on every single little digit Why I just message her? Trust me I was thinking, but I'm a rapper too concerned about my image The So when she hit me first I'm pretty I didn't burst I'm calling Josh, and Juss who am I ringing first? Man I was so That I replied a minute later that's that bro I think that you just let her know Too excited, no on what I should do excited So I'm just typing, like a fool, excited
2] And we were talking for hours over minor things Ignoring everyone else to her I'm quick This type of chick she got a spark you were lighting spliffs You know you like her when you're thinking your words She got me typing, deleting my then re-writing In the hope there's a smile when she's replying The highlight of my day, them phone calls in the night it's the little The girl, she had a and I liked it and She's into photography and got a passion for it And she respects I'm rapping but she ain't catting for it See that's the balance There's nothing better than a with talent Drive, ambition all of things above She's an abundance I even met her yet She works around the corner but lives outside of London I ain't fronting, I'm a boy Intentions are in so my compliments are decoys If that makes sense? The first I met her, I'm surrounded by my friends Random ends on staircase So much for a date I had a show And I asked if she could meet me Maybe we could chill, you never where things could go No problem she to roll in the cold So I across the road, grey hoodie under a coat If I'm remembering It's always of weird when the person that you were texting Is the person you are with I was on her from the I think she was wearing pumps or Vans when I met her, no, it's either either one She was so attractive I barely saw skin 'cause she was covered like a mattress Man, I that she's the one I was stuck for twenty trying to give the girl a hug And all my friends were drunk so fuck it, I'm to kiss her Any complications, I'm it on the liquor Changing my name on Twitter and blocking her on my I saw her skin blush the moment our lips touched She my bottom lip until it stretched me on my cheek until she reached around my neck And had me like a bitch Even though I'm wearing jeans, I had to re-arrange my dick so she see that I'm erect It's the first time we met, got me feeling like a And strawberry flavour gave her tongue a kinda sweet little taste And we could speak about anything we were friends I dropped her to the I remember Cuz we had a conversation for ages our dreams And the things that we hadn't seen and all that we to do I bet she's my intentions are true And as months went by we got into it, and intimate And I'mma you the details cuz both of our parents are probably listening But really we were it us, into this Into everything about each we were lovers and I love her cuz she knows me and that's probably why she told me you ain't ready for a girl You're still a little kid that's getting for the world and you don't need that kinda burden But I told her I want it And I'm just being honest, yes I know that girls but I don't see them as a problem I meant every word And I ain't gonna lie and say DM's have been but out of every single girl This is the of positions It's usually the girl asking where I see her fitting or a place on her position But I'm telling her I it And I don't think she sees it so I'm being ever sweeter we're speaking and we're meeting I've got messages, you could read them You gotta tell a girl that she's until she sees it Believes it, it more than physically Mentally, and the way that I'm I could talk 10 about the moment that we shared The jokes that we had The places we've been The we made together producing next to my bed Then making my minor in reference to what she said I think I start to getting tired, my a mess Replies are gettin' and my lady knows it's crazy But there if I'm in need While I'm at shows tempted by girls that are on their knees You know I'm a teen, it's like my eyes started drifting Not as easy as I pictured to give your all to a Ignoring all this attention that's getting to my head The sex is so accessible, one message or and girls will get in your bed She's make it happen with photos and her events I mentioned her passion, photography is her thing And I know if it's the pressure Where paper meets the and the pleasure We all got a work to So now popping up at shows Taking on her own And at first it wasn't But it we let it go Until I saw her in rapper's tracksuit, I felt a way She told me it was work and she was in studio Taking and I just sighed Some wannabe rappers that fed her lies He looking for no pictures I know it's your But their intentions They ain't paying male to shoot that same session And that felt so disrespectful, standing on our And crushing 'em, I just told her nothing do what you need to do If I feeding you Then my opinion's all I'm when I speak to you Cause I don't the right Why should girls be for a male's dirty mind? When I about it now, I'm ashamed to the core I mean how many men stop their women from achieving what they can because in secret been feelig insecure And I can't handle my emotions, it's probably why I see her Talent when I been supporting and promoting Like I didn't a platform, a voice and a following With everyone I knew, I really coulda do a lot of things to help her dream But instead of me to into the person that she needs I acted like I see And I don't mean to say this like I trust the girl But how can I trust her if I don't trust And girls can get tempted you know how it goes What if she meets a bigger rapper when at a show? What if he her backstage? What if he selling What if got a bigger car, got a better watch? That doesn't bother me, she ain't material It's all the little things do that put the fear in you What if he replies? What if he her too? What if he's doing all the that I'm supposed to do? if he's listening, laughing, relating? What if he even cares to ask her how her been? What he's to give her everything she needs and expects from the one damn person that she's dating? I shoulda helped her her dream But instead I held her back and had her me And boys got a brave face so you'll never That hurts as much when you let them go