1] I met my when I was 18 years old And she was turning 23 I really love her my heart And even though I deserve it fam I hope she loves me So I just done this private show I'm Footlocker promo And from the postcode it was Shoreditch or Soho Did 6 or 7 tracks, 6 or 7 racks A couple days later on twitter I saw this photo of myself and I was That 4K of quality had got me tripping So I'm out who did it When I on this girl And I tell that she was different A couple hours later now I'm liking all her I finished I typed her twitter name my Insta so I could check on every single little digit Why I just message her? Trust me I was thinking, but I'm a self-centred rapper too concerned about my The So she hit me first I'm pretty shocked I didn't burst I'm calling Josh, Jack and who am I ringing first? Man I was so That I replied a minute later that's bro I think that you just let her know excited Too excited, no clue on what I do excited So I'm typing, rambling like a fool, excited
2] And we talking for hours over some minor things Ignoring everyone else to her I'm replying This type of chick she got a spark like you were lighting You you like her when you're thinking about your words She got me typing, deleting my then re-writing In the hope that there's a when she's replying The highlight of my day, them phone calls in the it's the little things The girl, she had a and I liked it and into photography and she's got a passion for it And she respects that I'm rapping but she ain't for it See that's the perfect There's nothing better a girl with talent Drive, ambition all of them things She's an abundance I ain't met her yet She works around the corner but just outside of London I fronting, I'm a sweet boy are in question so my compliments are decoys If even makes sense? The first I met her, I'm surrounded by my friends Random ends on some So much for a first I just had a And I if she could meet me after Maybe we could chill, you never know where things go No problem she to roll Travel in the So I went across the road, hoodie under a coat If I'm remembering It's always kind of weird when the person that you were Is the person you are obsessed I was on her the jump I think she was wearing or Vans when I first met her, no, it's either either one She was looking so I barely saw skin 'cause she was covered like a mattress Man, I that she's the one I was stuck for twenty seconds to give the girl a hug And all my friends were so fuck it, I'm about to kiss her Any complications, I'm blaming it on the my name on Twitter and blocking her on my Insta I saw her skin blush the moment that our touched She pulled my bottom lip until it Kissed me on my cheek until she reached my neck And had me moaning like a Even though I'm wearing jeans, I had to re-arrange my dick so she don't see that I'm It's the first we met, got me feeling like a creep And that flavour gave her tongue a kinda sweet little taste And we speak about anything we were friends first I dropped her to the I remember Cuz we had a conversation for about our dreams And the that we hadn't seen and all that we intended to do I bet she's hoping my intentions are And as months by we both got into it, and intimate And I'mma spare you the cuz both of our parents are probably listening But really we into it us, into this Into everything about each other we were lovers and I love her cuz she knows me and that's why she told me you ain't ready for a girl still a little kid that's getting ready for the world and you don't need that kinda burden But I told her that I it And I'm just being honest, yes I know girls exist but I don't see them as a problem I meant every word And I ain't gonna lie and say have been absurd but out of every single girl This is the of positions It's usually the girl that's asking where I see her fitting or a on her position But I'm her I need it And I don't think she it so I'm being ever sweeter when we're speaking and we're meeting I've got messages, you could read them You gotta tell a girl that beautiful until she sees it Believes it, understands it more physically Mentally, and the way I'm feeling I talk 10 years about the moment that we shared The jokes we had running The places we've been The music we together producing next to my bed Then making my changes in reference to what she said I think I start to getting tired, my shcedule's a Replies are gettin' lazy and my lady knows it's But she's there if I'm in While I'm at shows getting tempted by girls that are on their You know I'm only a teen, it's like my eyes started Not as easy as I pictured to give all to a woman Ignoring all this attention that's been getting to my The sex is so accessible, one or text and girls will get in your bed She's make it happen with photos and her events I mentioned her passion, photography is her thing And I know if it's the pressure Where meets the passion and the pleasure We all got a to survive So now popping up at shows pictures on her own And at first it wasn't But it we let it go Until I saw her in some rapper's tracksuit, I a way She me it was work and she was in some studio pictures and I just sighed Some wannabe rappers that fed her lies He looking for no pictures I know it's profession But read intentions They ain't male photographers to shoot that same session And that so disrespectful, standing on our dreams And 'em, I just told her it's nothing do what you need to do If I ain't you Then my all I'm giving when I speak to you I don't have the right Why should girls be punished for a male's dirty When I think about it now, I'm to the core I mean how men stop their women from achieving what they can because in secret they've been feelig insecure And I handle my emotions, it's probably why I didn't see her Talent when I shoulda supporting and promoting Like I didn't have a platform, a voice and a With everyone I knew, I really coulda do a lot of to help chase her dream But instead of me to grow into the person she needs I like I couldn't see And I mean to say this like I don't trust the girl But how can I her if I don't trust myself? And girls can get tempted you know how it goes if she meets a bigger rapper when she's at a show? What if he sees her What if he selling What if got a bigger car, got a better watch? That bother me, she really ain't material It's all the little things they do that put the in you What if he replies? if he phones her too? What if he's doing all the things that I'm to do? What if listening, laughing, relating? What if he even cares to ask her how her been? What he's trying to give her everything she needs and expects from the one damn person that she's I shoulda helped her follow her But instead I her back and had her following me And boys got a brave face so you'll know That just as much when you let them go