Hit Me Harder

These damn pills ain't workin yet, I take a swig of JD
I took L's with bad B's, my ex girls they hate me
Run like Eddie Lacy, from problems I'm escaping
I sing to these bad hoes like JoJo and K-Ci
Empty bottles of whiskey, ask my ex if she miss me
Can't deal with all the lulls so the drugs keep me lifted
Mama says I'm gifted, dad says I drink too much
But he don't really get it, adults just really think too much
And all I know is temporary fixes for permanent pains
And sacrificin' family for personal fame
And actin' really selfish for personal gains
And poppin' hella pills and goin' insane
I know I acted up girl hope you call me again
I know it's hard to tell but I'm strivin' to change
And you hopin' I do, but you ready if not
You know bein' let down, 'cause it's happened a lot

I found myself underwater
Bye-bye big high, I'm fallin' farther
Come back to me and hit me harder
Hit me harder

I see Spanish girls, black girls and white girls too
White girl for the white girl what white girls do
Black out at SoulCycle you got carbs to lose
Said you were tired of the city when you makin' a move?
Said you goin' to L.A., you got nothing to lose
Me or your sanity you got something to choose
What's my first name, Skizzy
Put out the joint and lit it
You used to be timid
The memories are vivid
Cigarettes on stoops keep me in the loop
You've gone through it all barely twenty-two
You just ready for a dog and a scenic view
Got some weed in your coat, C Goose when it's cold
Take a drive to the beach, bring some cigs for the road
Started out as a joke, now it's out of control
Scared of silence and all, scared of bein' alone
And when I'm not at your house I get high on my own

I found myself underwater
Bye-bye big high, I'm fallin' farther
Come back to me and hit me harder
Hit me harder

I know the high was never real
'Cause I don't feel the love no more
If numb is all that I can feel
Just hit me harder than before

I found myself underwater
Bye-bye big high, I'm fallin' farther
Come back to me and hit me harder
Hit me harder