Growing Pains

Yeah,
I take a breath and breathe it out
Life has been a bitch, holdin' onto me
I'm always freakin' out
I dont play well with others
i panic in the crowd
An' Im quick to fall in love, thats why im always on the ground
So pick it up, pop the umbrella over my problems
and understand ill never be a man until i solve 'em
and somtimes i wish that i could go back home, yeh
Crawl into my childhood dreams and be alone
And that'd be everything, just another boy left with nothing
an object of security, slowly losing its stuffing
the ? square's sunking looking for another motherfucking chance to
re-break the broken into something, and thats the part im never gonna get
growin up is more than just a mind state, and owning all your debts
blowing out the breath, i dont feel so tall
so tell me how im supposed to reach anything,
anything at all, anything at all
tell me how, can i,
grow to see the change in my life,
i wanted, to overcome the battle inside
what is old? .. ?
is there a better way to figure it out
I sweep it all under the rug, cover up the loss found inside of me
and wash it down with blood,
i was born with an option, it's hard to swim a flood
but the old ? the human givin' up
so pick it up, listen to all the words in my head
and understand I have a shaky hand until they're set,
and i don't know if i can get my mind state back
but i would travel to the edge to feel that grasp
and that'd be everything
speakin' through a can on a line,
and prophesize the future from the twinkle in my eye
i could wrinkle up and die,
in that room where the dreams started talking to me constantly
and dancin through the sky,
i'm alive, but growin' up has proved to be a task
and left a couple daydreams broken down and smashed
lookin' through the glass i don't feel so tall,
so tell me how am i supposed to reach anything, anything at all
anything at all
tell me how, can i
grow to see the change in my life
i wanted, to overcome the battle inside
what is old? .. ?
is there a better way to figure it out? x2