So many memories I understand got me weak in the knees like I don't wanna stand I try to snap back a rubberband But flashbacks got another To bury this rap cat under My closest fell victim to a mad man He rapped her he stabbed her he her in the trash can In Tulsa da home of the GAP ban they buried Charlene My rap fan I cant how much I miss the time I spent with you God why have to kill my mamas twin sister Niqqa you lucky cops you to jail Cuz I was comin to send you to After my choppers split you I was jus a shorty when my cousin died A star runnin back from Beaches probably high His and his wife set off the drama right He caught them in bed let to his homicide on his death bed prepared to die He a song for his wife The title Not A Far Goodbye Cuz goddamn is not a goodbye or not Guns I woulda for you was i? I cant my Aunt Zeb Since you I been missin you And I will til my last Why do so many loved ones to meet a fast death They wanted me to succeed how can I step? up in the sky, tears in my eyes Its hard to say even gangstas cry Im in a dark room talkin to Too many loved ones lost and I ya god knows that I miss ya And even though im strong, now your gone Its to carry on even Gangstas cry at night I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I dig off in your coffin and get ya I miss ya I put my pain on Theres else I can do to remove it My music is therapeutic if I don't use it I it Its so to pick up liquor and abuse it When is confusing you on a way that you need to view shit I look at my gun and think of my buddies and Bloody Cuz this is the same demon took my people from me A lot of my homies was killed over illegal I lost so many to bangin dat it even funny Its Cookie, its Ramon, its Charles, too many to Its and shane, its pain in memories lane It's a shame when obituaries stack than dictionaries I question is my mind sane My LeRoy is gone, god let em in, he was more of a father figure than His ever been at my brain its like the head of a veteran I fight more pain Excedrin medicine ever did I cant my nightmares are comin unannounced I dream about people I cuz im runnin elf Is rap lyrics my therapy they wanna bounce Its trapped im thinkin my minds a haunted house Sometimes I pray to my creator til my hurt I need work, my granny use to say I church This is for my people beneath We makin songs gettin and rockin Rest In peace Look up in the sky, tears in my Its hard to say goodbye even cry Im in a dark room to pictures Too many loved ones lost and I miss ya god that I miss ya And even though im strong, now that gone Its to carry on even Gangstas cry at night I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I ya