So memories I don't understand They got me in the knees like I don't wanna stand I try to snap like a rubberband But got another plan To bury rap cat under land My closest aunt fell to a mad man He rapped her he stabbed her he through her in the can In Oklahoma da home of the GAP ban they buried Charlene My rap fan I cant express how much I the time I spent with you God why they have to kill my mamas sister Niqqa you lucky sent you to jail Cuz I was comin to send you to After my wings split you I was jus a when my cousin Bobby died A star runnin back from Long probably high His friend and his wife set off the drama He them in bed which let to his homicide Right on his death bed to die He a song for his wife The title That's Not A Far Cuz goddamn is not a goodbye or not Guns I woulda for you was i? I forget my Aunt Zeb you left I been missin you And I will til my last Why do so many loved ones have to meet a death They me to succeed how can I half step? up in the sky, tears in my eyes Its hard to say goodbye gangstas cry Im in a dark room to pictures Too many loved ones lost and I miss ya god knows that I ya And even though im strong, now that your Its to carry on even Gangstas cry Late at night I get in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I ya I put my pain on nothing else I can do to remove it My is therapeutic if I don't use it I lose it Its so to pick up liquor and abuse it When life is confusing you on a way that you need to view I look at my gun and think of my buddies Leak and Cuz this is the same demon that my people from me A lot of my homies was killed illegal money I lost so many to bangin dat it aint funny Its Cookie, its Ramon, its Charles, too to name Its solemn and shane, its in memories lane It's a shame obituaries stack thicker than dictionaries I question is my mentally sane My LeRoy is gone, god let em in, he was more of a father than His brother ever been Look at my brain its the head of a veteran I more pain than Excedrin medicine ever did I cant sleep my nightmares are comin I about people I love cuz im runnin elf Is rap lyrics my therapy they don't bounce Its trapped spirits im thinkin my minds a house I pray to my creator til my knees hurt I work, my granny use to say I need church is for my people beneath dirt We makin songs tattoos and rockin Rest In t-shirts Look up in the sky, tears in my Its hard to say goodbye gangstas cry Im in a dark talkin to pictures Too many loved ones lost and I miss ya god knows I miss ya And even though im strong, now your gone Its hard to carry on even cry Late at night I get in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in coffin and get ya I miss ya