So many I don't understand They got me weak in the knees like I don't wanna I try to snap back a rubberband But flashbacks got plan To bury this rap cat land My closest aunt fell to a mad man He her he stabbed her he through her in the trash can In Oklahoma da home of the GAP ban they Charlene boomie My rap fan I cant how much I miss the time I spent with you God why they have to kill my twin sister Niqqa you lucky sent you to jail Cuz I was comin to send you to After my choppers wings you I was jus a shorty my cousin Bobby died A star runnin back from Beaches probably high His friend and his wife set off the drama He caught in bed which let to his homicide Right on his bed prepared to die He a song for his wife The That's Not A Far Goodbye Cuz goddamn is not a goodbye or not Guns I popped for you was i? I forget my Aunt Zeb Since you I been missin you And I til my last breath Why do so loved ones have to meet a fast death They me to succeed how can I half step? up in the sky, tears in my eyes Its to say goodbye even gangstas cry Im in a dark talkin to pictures Too many loved ones lost and I miss ya god knows that I ya And even though im strong, now your gone Its hard to carry on even cry Late at I get lost in the Scriptures I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I miss ya I put my pain on Theres else I can do to remove it My is therapeutic if I don't use it I lose it Its so easy to pick up and abuse it When life is you on a way that you need to view shit I look at my gun and of my buddies Leak and Bloody Cuz is the same demon that took my people from me A lot of my homies was killed over illegal I lost so many to bangin dat it aint even Its Cookie, its Ramon, its Charles, too to name Its and shane, its pain in memories lane It's a shame when obituaries thicker than dictionaries I question is my mind mentally My uncle LeRoy is gone, god let em in, he was of a father figure than His brother ever Look at my brain its like the head of a I fight more than Excedrin medicine ever did I cant sleep my are comin unannounced I dream about I love cuz im runnin elf Is rap lyrics my therapy they wanna bounce Its trapped spirits im thinkin my a haunted house Sometimes I to my creator til my knees hurt I work, my granny use to say I need church This is for my people beneath We songs gettin tattoos and rockin Rest In peace Look up in the sky, tears in my Its hard to say goodbye gangstas cry Im in a dark room talkin to Too loved ones lost and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And even though im strong, now that gone Its to carry on even Gangstas cry Late at I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I ya