So memories I don't understand They got me weak in the knees like I don't stand I try to back like a rubberband But flashbacks got another To bury this rap cat land My closest fell victim to a mad man He rapped her he stabbed her he through her in the can In Oklahoma da home of the GAP ban they buried Charlene My rap fan I cant express how I miss the time I spent with you God why they have to kill my mamas twin Niqqa you lucky cops sent you to Cuz I was comin to send you to After my choppers split you I was jus a shorty when my Bobby died A star runnin back from Beaches probably high His friend and his wife set off the right He them in bed which let to his homicide Right on his bed prepared to die He wrote a for his wife The title That's Not A Far Cuz goddamn is not a fair or not Guns I woulda for you was i? I cant forget my Zeb Since you I been missin you And I will til my breath Why do so many loved ones to meet a fast death They wanted me to succeed how can I step? up in the sky, tears in my eyes Its hard to say goodbye even cry Im in a room talkin to pictures Too many ones lost and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And even im strong, now that your gone Its hard to carry on even cry Late at night I get in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I ya I put my on paper Theres nothing else I can do to it My is therapeutic if I don't use it I lose it Its so easy to pick up liquor and it When life is confusing you on a way that you need to view I at my gun and think of my buddies Leak and Bloody Cuz this is the same demon that my people from me A lot of my was killed over illegal money I lost so to bangin dat it aint even funny Its Cookie, its Ramon, its Charles, too many to Its solemn and shane, its in memories lane It's a shame when obituaries thicker than dictionaries I question is my mind mentally My LeRoy is gone, god let em in, he was more of a father figure than His brother been Look at my brain its like the of a veteran I more pain than Excedrin medicine ever did I sleep my nightmares are comin unannounced I dream people I love cuz im runnin elf Is rap lyrics my therapy don't wanna bounce Its trapped spirits im thinkin my minds a haunted Sometimes I pray to my creator til my hurt I work, my granny use to say I need church This is for my beneath dirt We songs gettin tattoos and rockin Rest In t-shirts Look up in the sky, tears in my Its hard to say goodbye even cry Im in a dark room to pictures Too many loved ones and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And even though im strong, now that your Its hard to carry on even cry Late at I get lost in the Scriptures I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I miss ya