So many memories I understand They got me weak in the knees I don't wanna stand I try to snap back like a But got another plan To bury this rap cat under My closest fell victim to a mad man He rapped her he stabbed her he through her in the can In Tulsa Oklahoma da of the GAP ban they buried boomie My rap fan I cant express how much I miss the I spent with you God why they have to kill my twin sister you lucky cops sent you to jail Cuz I was to send you to hell After my choppers split you I was jus a when my cousin Bobby died A star runnin back from Long Beaches high His friend and his set off the drama right He caught them in bed which let to his on his death bed prepared to die He wrote a song for his The title Not A Far Goodbye Cuz goddamn is not a fair or not Guns I popped for you was i? I forget my Aunt Zeb Since you left I missin you And I til my last breath Why do so many ones have to meet a fast death They wanted me to succeed how can I step? Look up in the sky, in my eyes Its hard to say even gangstas cry Im in a dark talkin to pictures Too many loved lost and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And even though im strong, now your gone Its hard to carry on Gangstas cry at night I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in your and get ya I miss ya I put my pain on Theres nothing else I can do to it My music is therapeutic if I use it I lose it Its so easy to up liquor and abuse it When life is you on a way that you need to view shit I look at my gun and think of my buddies and Bloody Cuz this is the demon that took my people from me A lot of my homies was over illegal money I so many to bangin dat it aint even funny Its Cookie, its Ramon, its Charles, too many to Its solemn and shane, its in memories lane It's a shame when obituaries stack thicker dictionaries I question is my mind sane My uncle LeRoy is gone, god let em in, he was of a father figure than His brother ever Look at my brain its like the head of a I fight pain than Excedrin medicine ever did I cant sleep my nightmares are unannounced I dream about people I love cuz im elf Is rap lyrics my they don't wanna bounce Its trapped spirits im thinkin my minds a haunted Sometimes I pray to my til my knees hurt I need work, my granny use to say I church is for my people beneath dirt We makin songs gettin tattoos and Rest In t-shirts Look up in the sky, in my eyes Its hard to say goodbye even cry Im in a dark room to pictures Too many loved ones lost and I ya god knows that I miss ya And even though im strong, now that gone Its hard to carry on Gangstas cry at night I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I ya