So many I don't understand They got me weak in the like I don't wanna stand I try to snap like a rubberband But flashbacks got another To bury this rap cat land My closest aunt victim to a mad man He rapped her he stabbed her he through her in the can In Tulsa da home of the GAP ban they Charlene boomie My rap fan I cant express how much I miss the time I with you God why they have to my mamas twin sister you lucky cops sent you to jail Cuz I was comin to you to hell After my choppers wings you I was jus a when my cousin Bobby died A star runnin back from Long Beaches probably His friend and his wife set off the drama He caught them in bed let to his homicide Right on his bed prepared to die He a song for his wife The title Not A Far Goodbye Cuz is not a fair goodbye or not Guns I popped for you was i? I cant my Aunt Zeb Since you I been missin you And I will til my last Why do so many ones have to meet a fast death They wanted me to how can I half step? up in the sky, tears in my eyes Its hard to say even gangstas cry Im in a dark room talkin to Too many ones lost and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And even im strong, now that your gone Its to carry on even Gangstas cry at night I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in your and get ya I miss ya I put my on paper Theres nothing else I can do to it My music is therapeutic if I don't use it I it Its so easy to up liquor and abuse it When life is you on a way that you need to view shit I at my gun and think of my buddies Leak and Bloody Cuz this is the same demon took my people from me A lot of my homies was killed illegal money I lost so many to bangin dat it aint funny Its Cookie, its Ramon, its Charles, too to name Its and shane, its pain in memories lane It's a shame when obituaries stack thicker than I is my mind mentally sane My uncle is gone, god let em in, he was more of a father than His brother ever been Look at my brain its like the of a veteran I fight more pain than Excedrin medicine did I sleep my nightmares are comin unannounced I dream people I love cuz im runnin elf Is rap lyrics my therapy they wanna bounce Its trapped im thinkin my minds a haunted house Sometimes I to my creator til my knees hurt I need work, my use to say I need church is for my people beneath dirt We makin gettin tattoos and rockin In peace t-shirts Look up in the sky, in my eyes Its hard to say goodbye gangstas cry Im in a dark room talkin to Too many loved lost and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And though im strong, now that your gone Its hard to carry on Gangstas cry Late at I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I ya