So memories I don't understand They got me weak in the knees I don't wanna stand I try to back like a rubberband But flashbacks got plan To bury rap cat under land My closest aunt victim to a mad man He rapped her he stabbed her he her in the trash can In Tulsa Oklahoma da of the GAP ban they buried Charlene My rap fan I cant express how much I miss the I spent with you God why they have to kill my mamas sister Niqqa you lucky sent you to jail Cuz I was comin to you to hell After my wings split you I was jus a shorty my cousin Bobby died A star runnin from Long Beaches probably high His and his wife set off the drama right He caught them in bed which let to his Right on his bed prepared to die He a song for his wife The That's Not A Far Goodbye Cuz goddamn is not a goodbye or not Guns I woulda for you was i? I cant forget my Zeb Since you left I been you And I will til my last Why do so many loved ones have to a fast death They wanted me to how can I half step? up in the sky, tears in my eyes Its hard to say goodbye gangstas cry Im in a room talkin to pictures Too many ones lost and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And even though im strong, now your gone Its hard to carry on Gangstas cry at night I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I ya I put my on paper nothing else I can do to remove it My music is therapeutic if I don't use it I it Its so easy to pick up liquor and it When life is you on a way that you need to view shit I at my gun and think of my buddies Leak and Bloody Cuz this is the same demon that took my from me A lot of my homies was killed over money I lost so many to bangin dat it aint funny Its Cookie, its Ramon, its Charles, too many to Its solemn and shane, its pain in lane It's a shame when obituaries stack than dictionaries I question is my mentally sane My uncle is gone, god let em in, he was more of a father figure than His ever been Look at my its like the head of a veteran I fight more pain than Excedrin medicine did I cant sleep my nightmares are unannounced I dream about I love cuz im runnin elf Is rap my therapy they don't wanna bounce Its trapped im thinkin my minds a haunted house Sometimes I pray to my creator til my hurt I need work, my granny use to say I need This is for my people beneath We makin gettin tattoos and rockin In peace t-shirts Look up in the sky, tears in my Its to say goodbye even gangstas cry Im in a dark room talkin to Too many loved ones and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And even though im strong, now that gone Its hard to carry on even cry Late at night I get in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in coffin and get ya I miss ya