So many memories I understand They got me in the knees like I don't wanna stand I try to snap like a rubberband But got another plan To bury this rap cat under My closest fell victim to a mad man He rapped her he stabbed her he through her in the can In Tulsa Oklahoma da of the GAP ban they buried Charlene My rap fan I cant express how I miss the time I spent with you God why they have to kill my mamas twin Niqqa you lucky sent you to jail Cuz I was to send you to hell After my choppers wings you I was jus a shorty my cousin Bobby died A star runnin back from Beaches probably high His friend and his wife set off the right He them in bed which let to his homicide on his death bed prepared to die He wrote a song for his The That's Not A Far Goodbye Cuz goddamn is not a goodbye or not Guns I woulda for you was i? I cant forget my Zeb Since you left I been you And I til my last breath Why do so many loved ones have to a fast death wanted me to succeed how can I half step? Look up in the sky, in my eyes Its hard to say goodbye gangstas cry Im in a dark talkin to pictures Too loved ones lost and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And even though im strong, now that your Its hard to carry on even cry at night I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in your and get ya I miss ya I put my on paper Theres else I can do to remove it My music is therapeutic if I don't use it I it Its so easy to pick up and abuse it When life is confusing you on a way that you need to shit I at my gun and think of my buddies Leak and Bloody Cuz this is the same that took my people from me A lot of my homies was killed over money I lost so to bangin dat it aint even funny Its Cookie, its Ramon, its Charles, too many to Its solemn and shane, its in memories lane It's a shame when obituaries stack than dictionaries I question is my mentally sane My LeRoy is gone, god let em in, he was more of a father than His brother ever been Look at my its like the head of a veteran I fight more pain than medicine ever did I cant sleep my nightmares are unannounced I dream about people I love cuz im elf Is rap lyrics my therapy don't wanna bounce Its spirits im thinkin my minds a haunted house Sometimes I pray to my til my knees hurt I need work, my granny use to say I church This is for my people dirt We songs gettin tattoos and rockin Rest In t-shirts Look up in the sky, in my eyes Its hard to say goodbye even cry Im in a dark talkin to pictures Too many loved ones lost and I miss ya god that I miss ya And though im strong, now that your gone Its hard to carry on Gangstas cry at night I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I ya