So memories I don't understand They got me weak in the knees like I wanna stand I try to snap back like a But got another plan To this rap cat under land My closest aunt victim to a mad man He rapped her he stabbed her he through her in the can In Tulsa da home of the GAP ban they buried boomie My rap fan I cant express how much I the time I spent with you God why have to kill my mamas twin sister Niqqa you lucky cops you to jail Cuz I was comin to send you to my choppers wings split you I was jus a shorty when my Bobby died A star back from Long Beaches probably high His and his wife set off the drama right He them in bed which let to his homicide Right on his death bed to die He wrote a for his wife The That's Not A Far Goodbye Cuz goddamn is not a goodbye or not Guns I popped for you was i? I cant forget my Zeb Since you I been missin you And I til my last breath Why do so many loved ones have to a fast death They wanted me to succeed how can I half Look up in the sky, tears in my Its hard to say goodbye even cry Im in a dark talkin to pictures Too many loved ones and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And though im strong, now that your gone Its hard to on even Gangstas cry at night I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I dig off in your coffin and get ya I miss ya I put my pain on Theres else I can do to remove it My music is therapeutic if I don't use it I it Its so easy to up liquor and abuse it When life is you on a way that you need to view shit I look at my gun and think of my buddies and Bloody Cuz this is the same that took my people from me A lot of my homies was over illegal money I so many to bangin dat it aint even funny Its Cookie, its Ramon, its Charles, too to name Its solemn and shane, its pain in memories a shame when obituaries stack thicker than dictionaries I question is my mind mentally My uncle is gone, god let em in, he was more of a father than His brother ever been Look at my brain its the head of a veteran I fight more pain than medicine ever did I cant my nightmares are comin unannounced I dream about I love cuz im runnin elf Is rap lyrics my therapy they don't wanna Its trapped spirits im thinkin my minds a house I pray to my creator til my knees hurt I work, my granny use to say I need church This is for my beneath dirt We songs gettin tattoos and rockin In peace t-shirts Look up in the sky, tears in my Its hard to say even gangstas cry Im in a dark talkin to pictures Too many loved ones and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And even though im strong, now that gone Its hard to carry on Gangstas cry at night I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in coffin and get ya I miss ya