Expecting Confidence

this will be the only time i call you. its the only chance i give myself. ive meant to talk for the last four years. please pick up. im restless. ive been trying to forgive you. your face returns into my head. youve been trying to be friendly. i forget the words i send. dont forget a word ive said. took the phone into the backyard. its time to let this one unwind. it could have been better to have never. it could have been the millionth time. ran into you. sweating and shaking. the eye contact hurts. i couldnt make it. i leave tomorrow. i leave tomorrow. reach for my hand. ill be back. (dont forget me)