Everything was hurt and nothing beautifuled

Everything hurts
and then it feels alright
sometimes my hand won't move
sometimes you think that you're losing your sight.
And you're sitting on the floor,
let your nose bleed into your hands.
And no matter what you do,
you can't seem to understand.

Sometimes my body does things I don't want it to do
And I'm feeling pretty tired of the whole thing, how bout you?

You thought you had control,
but you had control of nothing.
you've never had control of anything.
Can my body be against me?
Is it even me?