Boy

I used to be a boy
part of me always will be.
My backyard yard was a kingdom
a realm of beasts and sorcery.

Wanted to be a man.
Wanted to be a werewolf.
To see the world like bugs do,
and salt the snails with grandma too.

We found a box of dildos
in our friend's mom's closet.
We all laughed for a minute
but we all secretly wanted it.

I came inside the house.
I saw he was naked
Distant look in his eye
His dad's gun in his left hand
Couldn't be sure if he was joking
when he pointed it at me
would I go to heaven?
If he pulled the trigger would it go...