Luyện nghe bài hát Earth

I don't want to live with this any longer than I have to
But also I don't want you to be
So I talk you all the time
Including the last day you alive
And I your pictures around my house
For me to myself with and cry

Everybody that used to us seems concerned
But if knew that when you went through my mind
I'm full of your love that illuminated our for all those years
And made this child who tears through the days
With a brilliance you would have deepened and sang along
But you're out in the yard now
What am I
No one is

You don't even have a body anymore, it was taken away
I went and wrote a
And got a cardboard box of your ashes
And a little bag with your necklace
And I back home truly alone

I guess I didn't bury you enough
When I poured out your ashes the three witch hazels
you planted in the yard a few years ago in a triangle for us
Where me and the kid rolling in the grass the other day
And I saw chunks of your bones

and weathered, unerasable
You're still out in the spring upheaving
Coming out of the into air
Is that exact fragment your
once caressed me not that long ago?
I can feel it
And is that other shard a piece of your
That once contained the brain that used to overflow with loving?

and gone
And now just shrapnel

Another I poured your ashes out
Was on a chair on top of a mountain at the sunset
I went back there last after years passed
And noticed the chunks of your bones that haven't been away
Are indistinguishable from other from animal bones
there by coyotes, vultures, and gods
Against my will I a little bit of solace creeping in
But I laid on the moss
Compost and
There's nothing

I can Wolves in the Throne Room singing:
"I will lay down my bones among the and roots"

At night I sit and picture myself curled up
Ten feet of water at the bottom of the
I imagined trout bumping against me in the low light
my breath trying to be a boulder
Eroding, to join you in re-mingling with a
Of churned coalescing in the dark
But to get ground down to matter only
and dumb becoming not a thing
Abdicating