Luyện nghe bài hát Earth

I don't want to live with this any longer than I have to
But also I want you to be gone
So I talk you all the time
Including the last day you alive
And I hang pictures around my house
For me to surprise with and cry

Everybody that used to know us concerned
But if they knew that you went through my mind
I'm full of love that illuminated our house for all those years
And made this dancing child who through the days
With a brilliance you would have deepened and sang along
But sleeping out in the yard now
am I saying?
No one is

You don't even a dead body anymore, it was taken away
I and wrote a check
And got a cardboard box full of your
And a plastic bag with your necklace
And I back home truly alone

I guess I bury you deep enough
When I poured out your ashes beneath the witch hazels
That you in the yard a few years ago in a triangle for us
me and the kid were rolling in the grass the other day
And I saw actual chunks of bones

Bleached and weathered,
You're still out there in the upheaving
Coming out of the ground air
Is that fragment your finger
once caressed me not that long ago?
I still can it
And is that shard a piece of your skull
That once contained the wild brain that used to with loving?

and gone
And now just shrapnel

Another place I poured ashes out
Was on a chair on top of a mountain at the sunset
I went back there last after years passed
And noticed the chunks of your bones that haven't blown away
Are indistinguishable from pieces from animal bones
Brought there by coyotes, vultures, and
my will I felt a little bit of solace creeping in
But I laid there on the
and memory:
There's nothing

I can hear in the Throne Room singing:
"I lay down my bones among the rocks and roots"

At night I sit and picture curled up beneath
Ten feet of water at the of the lake
I imagined trout against me in the low diminished light
Holding my breath to be a boulder
Eroding, to join you in re-mingling a background
Of churned muck in the dark
But to get back down to matter only
Eternal and becoming not a thing
Abdicating