Drown

Here I come, come to you
In the very clothes
That I killed, killed you in and
Now I know
I'm alone

I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me
Can you drown me

I wanna be a lot of things
So much pent up inside of me
I wanna be strong, too long
I've sat here undecidedly
Planning strategy
Half of me knows it's all just a fallacy
Failing miserably, drastically
And then I crash dramatically
Into a wall I've hit a hundred times before
And yet I still ignore the dark red blood stains
On the floor and I'm back
In front of you lord
With blood on the floor
Is the blood mine or yours?
Don't wanna do this anymore

Back and forth between being me and me
And who you call me to be
You see a man, free,
Who thinks he has to buy a key to a door
But he can't 'cause he's poor
And he can't fall down anymore
'Cause he's already on the floor
And his heart is broken and all
And this is his scar
But it's warm from cry
'Cause he will try nine times
Realize nine crimes
But he has more than nine lives
So he picks himself up
And keeps climbing for the prize
Again...

Here I come, again to you
Just to show that blood soaked through
Through my bones, and all I own
Is there a way for me to grow?

I walk to you, rain falls from you
Can you wash me?
Can you drown me?
Please...

Every time I feel selfish ambition
Is taking my vision
My crime is my sentence
Repentance is taking commission
It's taking a toll
On my soul
I'm screaming submission and
I don't know if I am dying or living
'Cause I will save face
For name's sake
Abuse grace
Take aim to obtain a new name
And a newer place
But my name is lame
I can't walk and I ain't the same
And my name became
A new destiny to the grave

They say the ocean's blue
But it's black right now
In the dark, on the sand
Looking out at my crowd
Depression and drowning singing now their full parts
And lightning reveals where the ocean stops
And the sky starts
I've been told by the sky
That the ocean I shall win
But it's hard for me to see
Where ocean stops and sky begins
Random strikes of light remind me of what is true
But right now the ocean's blacker than black
The sky is too (is too)