Dear Old Friend

scared for my life
im breathing and keeping thoughts away

well it's a shame im too afraid to fall asleep
it's insane how far we'll go and what we'll do to keep them from pain
it's my life, it's my time, it's my code i live by
ill just keep telling myself that it's right and im fine

wash away my sins
im trapped in this hole again

i can see you and me on a slate that was clean
i pushed my limits now you think im like the pigs in the street
i could hardly spent a minute in reality
getting help was like a vision i was fathoming
i was weak you would all speak
and try to save me but i was taken like a tragedy

wash away my sins
im trapped in this hole again
it's sickening to see
you know this act isn't me
im trapped in this hole again

i fall asleep to escape all the guilt and all the pain
pillowcases soaked in blood
i smoked away my fucking lungs
and if it hurts you just to face me
and if you're trying to erase me
know ill be waiting for the next time
and ill be praying that you take my life

wash away my sins
im trapped in this hole again
it's sickening to see
you know this act isn't me
im trapped in this hole again

the less you care the less it hurts
you can mask it or you can take your own fucking life

i can see you and me on a slate that was clean
i pushed my limits now you think im like the pigs in the street
i could hardly spend a minute in reality
getting help is like a vision i was fathoming
i was weak you would all speak
and try to save me but i was taken like a tragedy
ive been taken like a tragedy